dusting off journal

[moonillness]

Well I'm glad to be out anyway. It'd be nice to get something together. I wouldn't mind seeing Pads and Prongs, yes even Wormtail. Even if what you say is true, I can be played at many points. And I can't accuse him or hold him to anything he hasn't done.

In the end, I'm just as much to blame. I never questioned if Sirius was capable of it. And from what you tell me, I can't even say it works out in the end.

Hmm. Perhaps there's enough consequences out there. I can do with a spot of tea and a chocolate frog--

Now wait, I didn't say I didn't want to see the Marauders... Just asking to think this over.

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[savedbypudding]

You rang Monsieur Moony?

[ He's all smiles but they don't quite reach his eyes. He's not totally ready to touch that subject either. He found it hard enough to deal with the fact Moony did'nt fight for him when everything happened.]

[moonillness]

Hello, Pads.

[savedbypudding]

...you really want to see Wormatail again?

[moonillness]

I'm played at different points. I cannot be angry at him for actions he may not commit when we are younger.

[savedbypudding]

Of course. there's that cold hard logic you're so fond of.

Just because you're right. Doesn't mean I have to like it Moons.

[moonillness]

Didn't say you had to.

[savedbypudding]

He played us both, you know. All of us.

[moonillness]

Didn't say he didn't, Pads.

[savedbypudding]

Well.

All right then.

[acecharms]

Maybe it's time to figure out where exactly you want to be.
Or to ignore it and unwrap another chocolate frog instead.

[moonillness]

Isn't really up to me.

[acecharms]

Then you can only sit back and wait?

[moonillness]

Can always push her a bit.

[acecharms]

Now here's what I wanted to hear! Go be demanding.

[moonillness]

Ah, I'm trying.

[acecharms]

If everything fails - back to the chocolate frogs.

[moonillness]

I'm plenty satisfied with that plan, Lily.

[marauderingly]

Don't lie, Moony, it's shameful. Of course you want to see us.

[Nope. Not touching on Peter. Refuse.]

[moonillness]

I wouldn't go that far. [Teasing, of course.]

[marauderingly]

[Sure, that's what you'd like him to think.]

Break my heart why don't you, you slag. After all the things I've done for you! Think of all the sandwhiches I've helped you finish! All the literary classics I've reenacted in your honor!

[moonillness]

I could have done without, you know.

[marauderingly]

You clearly under-appreciate my genius.

[moonillness]

Most would call it idiocy. [But he loves you, Pads.]

[marauderingly]

[CLEARLY, with all the cruel words and hateful bring downs. YOU MAY NEED TO CONSULT A DICTIONARY BECAUSE YOUR IDEA OF LOVE IS A LITTLE OFF, REMUS.

And he very obviously loves you too, Moony, else he wouldn't subject you to his very particular brand of Idiot.]

Only those too stupid to know otherwise. You can't really fault them, those poor souls. Not everyone a mental capacity large enough to full understand how spectacular my existence is and they should be looked upon with great sympathy for the joy they're missing out on.

You should consider yourself lucky, you know. I'm enriching your life.

SIRIUS, STAAAAHP

[moonillness]

[Sorry. He was bitten by a werewolf and still thinks no one would like him if they truly knew what he was. It doesn't bring about a lot of love, being a hairy beast that can kill.]

Mm. I'd call it being more of a nuisance, but I honestly don't know what I'd do without it. I've come to be attached to it.