looking at hollyheights...

[174awhile]

Will you stop for a moment to attempt to appreciate the inexplicable irony of the situation you're considering for me?

You would take me from the time when I had removed myself from her world because of what I am, only to place me in a world where I would - by some miracle - become suitable for her, where I would become human again, yet she would not be there?

A world without Isabella Swan is not a world I can live in.

Which brings us back to what is possibly the most asinine aspect of this whole ordeal: my new-found mortality, or rather the distinct lack thereof. I was under the impression that being human meant one had the potential for death and that death was a permanent affair. But no, it seems no matter what I am, the only hell I can experience is a living one.

I'd highly underestimated you. It won't happen again.

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[entrusting]

Hey! No one ever said Bella wouldn't be coming along. For all you know, she might end up as your wife or your kid or even your next-door neighbor.

And if she doesn't? Well, you can impress her with your new-found knowledge of whatever that new place's known for, right?

[174awhile]

[ Oh Seth, pure, honest Seth. Why do you hurt your unlikely friend in this way? He tenses against the potential for hope, that Bella may follow him there, that she could become his wife, and then the agony takes hold - placed in the role of his child? How many cardinal sins could he break? And what if she ended up as someone else's wife?

He has to work hard to keep his face neutral, at the very least. He knows Seth means well. ]

True. I don't know what will happen there. Usually predicting the future isn't such a difficulty for me - or for Alice, rather.

[ He sighs heavily, preparing to change the subject somehow, trying to enjoy Seth's company. It's a rare treat, after all. ]

I trust your mun has been treating you well?

[madcuriosity]

You can't be a vampire in your game, Edward?

<3!

[174awhile]

No, it seems freaks of nature aren't allowed.

<3 hello sweet pea!

[madcuriosity]

You're not a freak of nature. I think you're lovely.

so nice to see you again ;u;

[174awhile]

Your generous opinion does not - unfortunately - invalidate the facts.

[diana_abel]

Wow co-dependent. Or romantic. I'm not sure.

What's the sitch?

[174awhile]

[ He's not going to help her decide. ]

It's a long story, one I don't particularly feel like illustrating. You can get the gist of it from what I've already explained. [ The rabbit hole goes so much deeper...but she doesn't need to know that. ]

[diana_abel]

I know that song. I've lived it several times over, dude.

[174awhile]

I highly doubt that, unless you're also a lot older than you appear. [ Even then, there's no way anything could even come close to touching ~their love~ ]

[manicpixiedreamgirl]

[Eye. Roll.]

You're such a drama queen, Edward. I'm sure you'll be fine.

lmao ilu

[174awhile]

[ Thanks for being understanding, sis. ]

Would you be "fine," getting sent off to a place where you couldn't check on Jasper?

I haven't even touched on my mun's obsession with making me as weak as humanly possible. Deathly ill. Not that I could succumb to it, of course.

she exists to keep him humble :|

[manicpixiedreamgirl]

I am at a place where I can't check on him. And you know what? I'm doing okay.

[If sleeping with drug addicts and participating in grassroots terrorist plots is considered "doing okay".]

And it's not that bad to be human, so stop making everything a big deal. Not everything is the end of the world.

humble or pummel jez now he feels bad

[174awhile]

[ No, that is not okay, not even by their usual standards, which are pretty skewed to begin with.

He does have the decency to search her face for signs. Signs that she's lying, that she's not okay, because he can't imagine that she is without Jasper. Not being able to read her mind here is very frustrating. His feelings are further agitated by her rigid, unexpected stance, and now he's on the defense. Except it comes out more like offense. ]

Since when does Bella mean so little to you?

[doubleroseknight]

Cannae live in a world without your lass?

Aren't ye the overdramatic one.

[174awhile]

I wouldn't expect you to understand. [ Few could put themselves in his shoes, to see things through the eyes of someone who has lived for a century. ]

I mean no disrespect in pointing out your dialect - where are you from, if I may ask?

[doubleroseknight]

[Honey, you have no idea. Tam Lin arches his eyebrows with a wry grin.] Oh, really, now?

Scotland. I apologize iffin it's tricky for ye.

[174awhile]

[ You'll have to enlighten him, Tam Lin. He can't read your mind here. ]

I'd be willing to bet everything I own, but then that's not of much consequence - I could easily live without material possessions, I just couldn't live without her, as I've already pointed out.

Although I would miss my cars. And my grand piano.

Not at all. My mun is quite partial to it.

[alwaystraveling]

That does sound spectacularly ironic.

Yes, if death were permanent the puns wouldn't have their fun.

[174awhile]

At least someone can appreciate my predicament.

[alwaystraveling]

Muns just love irony.

[174awhile]

Yours, too?

[itnevermattered]

Being forced to live without the one you love most...

[Don't worry Edward, he doesn't think you're being over dramatic at all. He gets it.]

...It is an indescribable suffering, isn't it?

[174awhile]

[ What is he?!

In spite of himself, he nods, feeling an affinity for this...person. ]

[itnevermattered]

[He is the result of his undying love, basically! Or to be less vague, possessed by a god. Hence his three voices. And the black smoke seeping out of his mouth. And horns...]

"Muns" do not make it any easier, I know.