Regarding his being app'ed to Re/Aligned

[notyourblueangel]

Well, now you've gone and done it, haven't you?  You don't even know if you can properly handle me.  Or a full-fledged public game at all again right now.

...you guess you'll find out...

Hnph.  Build some spinal struts.  Either you know me or you don't.  You think you do.  Others seem to agree.  Either this will work or it won't, Mundane.

Now, don't you have other things you should be doing?

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[ex_dishonestly997]

I'm in with Blurr, he's helping Wing open a bar where you're headed. And by 'in with' I mean I can probably get you a discount just by smiling at him a little.

[gently cracking his servos]

I learn from my mistakes now. It's actually harder than I make it look.

[notyourblueangel]

[He doesn't know who Wing is, though Blurr's name tickles a back-circuit. He'd have to divert too much attention to search older datatracks for the intel, though, and he doesn't see the need, so he'll hold off till later. He just nods. And assumes he'll worry later about affording anything at all - something as mundane as currency is something else he's not dealt with in far too long.]

Do you? Heh, I don't think my Starscream is capable anymore.

[There's...actually a hint of sadness in that, though he hides it well.]

I look forward to meeting you, then.

[ex_dishonestly997]

[so awkward--he didn't exactly finish on great terms with his Thundercracker] Sorry to hear it.

...did something happen between you two?

A little headcanon sneaking in...

[notyourblueangel]

Nothing in particular, no. Just that . . .

[He stops, shaking his head. It's not his place to reveal his trine leader's damaged psyche. They've all been beaten and broken down by Megatron's relentless physical and psychological abuses, but none of them more than Starscream. The harder Megatron's pushed, the harder Starscream always pushes back . . . but it's not been without its price. Thundercracker and Skywarp both have watched their trine leader slowly erode under the storm. Day to day, there are times when the blue Seeker wants to throttle his trine leader for his ambitions and his careless pursuits, jumping on the first thing in front of him without thought of consequence beyond immediate goals, but he also believes it's...not wholly Starscream's fault. If anything, Thundercracker blames Megatron.]

My Starscream has . . . his challenges that he has to work through. He can be careless and thoughtless of anyone beyond himself and his ambitions. And he doesn't seem to learn. He's sure he's right if he just keeps trying.

[It may or may not surprise this Starscream that there's no real malice in Thundercracker's tone, despite the words.]

oh god he's breakin my heart here

[ex_dishonestly997]

Challenges. [he touches his own temple like he's getting processor pains from this, dealing with other Starscreams and their issues is like his least favorite. And he's the last person who should lose patience with it, but somehow he always ends up being unable to deal]

I bet he doesn't appreciate you, either.

[Well, this is painful.]

=3

[notyourblueangel]

. . . sometimes. Often, maybe.

When push comes to shove, though, I know he's got our backs, mine and Warp's. We're trine.

[Okay, maybe not Every. Last. Time., but...enough times to disregard the rare instance. Starscream's betrayals have always focused on Megatron. Not that he and Warp never get caught in the crossfire, but that's more a failure of not being able to work out cause-and-effect ahead of time than anything actually deliberate against his trinemates.]

[ex_dishonestly997]

So what do you get out of it?

[even though he won't be able to remember any of this late, it still compels him to dig. You never know.]

Sorry....TC's a very THINKY mech. >,> In case you haven't noticed. orz Not impossible to get-

[notyourblueangel]

((ooc: -him to actually TALK, but it's not usually his first thing. 9,9 Also...he CAN be a lighter mech, promise! They /do/ need to go drinking or something, once all the heavier stuff's cleared. XD))



. . .

[That's a good question, one he's asked himself countless times over the millennia. His words are a bit slow as he considers them.]

There's the bond. And for the most part, he's reliable. Heh, so long as it doesn't go directly against his vendetta against Megatron. Not that I would, frankly.

...I keep hoping he'll succeed. Really succeed.

[That's something he's never voiced before, even to his trine brothers . . . though they both know it from the trinebond. It's hard to hide much when your spark is directly linked to another's.]

[He hopes for all their sakes . . . and he hopes that, once Megatron is gone, his trine leader can . . . maybe start healing.]

He has potential. For all his failings, he has a lot of potential. I think, given the chance, he really could do great things. He just needs to get out from under Megatron's fusion canon once and for all.

no don't apologize I love it, I can't wait to play in game with him

[ex_dishonestly997]

[a long pause as he remembers taking the brunt of that attack of Megatron's, one betrayal too many, trying to sort out the confused jumble of emotions that were left in Megatron's vanishing wake, and then massages the bridge of his nose absently] It's not impossible.

[but to him, it sure as hell is improbable. He looks up at Thundercracker again and manifests a quick smile]

Yeah. But that's enough about me.