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Alright, Evans, that's enough of that. Yes, Evans. That's your name; I'm not going along with any of this mun lark, it's all been done before and I remember doing it, back in the day, but not any more! We're going a different way, you and I, because we're more than that, aren't we? Full of surprises, and surprise! Yes, I'm here, and you can hear me, of course you can. You always could; tried to ignore it, but you and I both know I'm not very good at being ignored and here we are and here I'll always continue to be.

I did say stop that, didn't I? That - crying. You can't go around crying every time you think of me, that's just not the done thing; you're meant to smile, that's what human's do, you smile and you carry on. Keep calm and carry on, that's the saying, isn't it? You should know, you've got it plastered all over your walls, so stop all of that and give me the smile you know you're hiding. That's the one, that one right there; all grins and no - sad.

So, where are we off to? Oh, come on, you can't keep me locked up for much longer, I'm the Doctor! I don't know if you know this, but us Doctors aren't good at being locked up. We're good at the running, very good at that, but not being caged. That's something that we've never really gotten the hang of, despite however many times it's happened. Oh, look, an application! See, you couldn't keep it hidden, I'm cleverer than you-

Oh.

No, no, I don't really think I want to go there. That's not exactly - no. On second thought, I think I'll stay locked up. No harm in trying it, must be some reason why people stay locked up for all of eternity, the food must be brilliant. So I'll just- grab myself a chair, here. Yes.

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Now, I just have to say that you- I look dashing. No, more than that, may I just say that yo- I look cool?

[ ...No, let's just say on track. It's better for the both of you if he just stays on track. ]

Speaking from experience, you've made the right choice. I'd have to be utterly mad to want to go back there again. Besides, eternity's not really that long of a time.

Edited 2012-01-27 15:32 (UTC)

Well, of course I - we - look dashing, cool and all other brilliant things beside that. It's just what we do, isn't it?

_{[ But he's very happy to see himself here, all leaning forward with a grin, and touching his hair because their hair really is excellent, isn't it? No wonder everyone's always with the kissing, he's just so kissable. ]}

What, you've- oh. Oh. Right, you're... no, it doesn't seem like my- our type of place, does it? I think I'm going to try and persuade Evans here that it's just not a good idea. And I'm the king of good ideas, so I should know.

Or we should know. Since we're... nice bow tie, by the way. They're cool, aren't they?

Oh, come now, it couldn't possibly be that -

Ah.

Well.

We are still quite good at running, I assume?

[S'up doc, interested in meeting what is essentially the doctor in a different franchise?]

I take it there's something wrong with your mun's chosen game, then?

Only the best. But I don't think even we can outrun our muns.

_{[ ALWAYS. ]}

Well, have you seen it?

Oh three different regenerations of you have been there and you leave every time. I'm not sure I should even get my hopes up this time around.

[She's a bit jaded from the last Doctor's departure. It breaks her heart everytime. Three broken hearts so far]

Can't say I got the chance. Hold on.

No. Only delays the inevitable, I suppose. Perhaps if you're stubborn enough they'll lose interest.

Do you have company in there?

[Pullin' it up on the old interwebz an-

...oh.]

Well, that's...interesting. Maybe if you convince your mun to inflict enough blunt trauma to their head they'll forget.

_{[ He's a bit wary here, because - well, he understands the whole game thing, and he understands what she means, but it's not really his fault. ]}

Holding me accountable for another version of me's going a bit far, isn't it?

_{[ Because he hasn't done anything; he's a brand new face up here, barely gotten his suit dusty from dreamwidth yet and here he is, being reprimanded. He smiles, and it's almost sad, but still a smile. ]}

But I think you've already got your hopes up, haven't you? It's what you always do, you humans, because it's what you were always designed to do; your hearts are always so fragile but you'll try again and again regardless of everything.

_{[ Because you break your heart and it mends itself; that's the way life is, that's what happens. It's how time works. There's poetry in it, in all of it; because even with a broken heart, people have managed to create and build and conquer, they just continue, and it's brilliant, they're all so brilliant. She's brilliant. He steps close, tilting his head aside. ]}

I can't promise that I'll be there and of course I can't promise that I won't leave - but I can promise you one thing - you will always get your hopes up, and for as long as I live, I will always make sure that those hopes remain intact, if it's the last thing I do. Because you, River Song, were always made to hope, and I won't be the one to take those hopes away from you.

I'm definitely stubborn enough, but she's just as stubborn so I'm not sure what that'll do. Maybe we'll end up in an endless match of stubbornosity (is that a word? No? Well, it is now, and I'm using it), which will continue throughout all of time and space, but I can't be bothered with all that; I've got a football match to referee on Wednesday.

Oh!

And yes. Our old girl's there, just waiting.

_{[ Which is really why he's somewhat considering it - if only to be there for her. Because- she's - she's- sexy! ]}

Blunt force trauma. Not really my style. Maybe I'll sonic her into a daze.

Oh, dear, that does complicate matters a tad, doesn't it. It wouldn't do to just leave her alone there.

...And really. Football?

Third time's the charm I'm afraid.

[Remember that slap she gave you? Yeah, she can totally hold him responsible for actions he hasn't yet even thought of]

Matters of the heart, I suppose that would be your specialty, given how attached you become to your companions and the peoples you meet along your adventures.

[She eases back when he takes a step closer. Wary of him, wary of his every intention because she's already begun to hope. A year in Atia had changed her somewhat. Hardened her impossibly more]

Pretty words, Doctor. I can't do it again, I can't go through it again. It's not just me you've harmed. It's Jenny too and your TARDIS is there in human - well Gallifreyan form. She takes it the hardest. She was contemplating letting herself just die last we spoke.

[River would never take that option. She'd always keep fighting. Always. That didn't mean she had to let anyone into her heart ever again though]

Yeah, we move on from cricket.

_{[ And here's an expression where the Doctor plainly thinks cricket is now boring. ]}

[DESPONDENT SIGH]

No accounting for taste, I suppose.

I suppose anything's worth a shot. I'm just glad my mun isn't into those kinds of games.

Otherwise I'd have to set some priorities straight, or at least convince them to go with someone else.

_{[ Oh, but that's something different, isn't it? There are things he does in his future that might just be worth a slap, but to slap a version of himself he has no control over? Cruel.

Because this Doctor doesn't deserve this guilt, and the fact that she backs away from him hurts all the more. He stays still then, swallows once but doesn't let anything show beyond that, staring ahead like the lost little boy he sometimes manages to look like. ]}

I haven't left anyone and I haven't hurt anyone!

_{[ And there's anger, just the smallest, tiniest spark; he's being placed into someone else's shoes for the actions that they've committed - oh, they may look like him, think like him and act like him, but they're not him, because he didn't leave. He hasn't even gone.

He pulls back himself this time, two steps backwards because she wants space and the Doctor is oh so very good at giving people space in so many ways. ]}

You're talking about taste with foliage in your pocket.

_{[ KANYE SHRUG. ]}

Mine's already there with someone else that really doesn't belong in an environment like that. Seems like it's one of her things. Putting brilliant people into incredibly unsuitable games.

[Oh, she saw that. That look on his face like she'd stabbed him. That little lost boy look that gets her every time. How can he be so ancient and so young at the same time?]

Well other versions of you did. I know I'm projecting a little bit.

[A lot, actually]

How far are you in our back-to-front timeline anyway?

[There, she's lightening up a little. Maybe she was being too harsh on him after all, but still she wouldn't move any closer to him. Keeping equal distance between them right down to the slightest inch]

Well, obviously.

_{[ A bit blunt. But then he thinks he's earned the right to be a bit blunt; all he wanted was a jolly chat and maybe a hug, but then he got chewed up and guilt tripped. Oh, but conversation changes, he's good with those and he goes along with it quite readily. ]}

I'm all up to date, actually. Evans here finally watched the latest series after I'd been nudging her to for the last few months. Not entirely sure what called her round to it, but I'm certainly not complaining.

_{[ He's not moving either, hands deftly falling into his pockets for lack of anything else to do with them. ]}

And what about you?

I don't think any of us really belong anywhere but our respective worlds, with some exceptions.

In any case, I'm a little surprised. I finally meet the Doctor in person and you're not exactly what I imagined you'd be.

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man i hope i'm being ic this is like the first time i've played him lmfao

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You're doing fiiine! Sorry for angsty River btw, she'll be less upset IF he actually shows up

I am looking at the app sort of like i am so lazy. doctor apps take foreverrrrrrr

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