New (and rather unexpected) muse; voicetest

[hatestherain]

You shouldn't feel sorry for me. I know what I want. What I've always wanted.

There isn't anything else.

[And besides... she thought the mun didn't like this canon much, anyway]

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[antagonises]

Now that sounds final. I like it.

[manicpixiedreamgirl]

Oh Bella, don't be such a drama queen.

[hatestherain]

[Bella isn't the forceful type. Even when she speaks now, about this, she's quiet. Hesitant.]

I have to make her understand.

[hatestherain]

[This is important okay B|]

She won't.... [She breaks off for a brief pause, shakes her head just slightly] She won't listen.

[alwaystraveling]

My mun wants me to say I saw your boyfriend two days ago here.

[antagonises]

Oh, conflict. Now that's something to work with.

[hatestherain]

[Stop. the. presses.

Whatever was going through her mind? Now officially gone. Out the window with a vengeance. Her breath shortens, and her eyes are wide.]

Edward? You saw.... Edward?

[hatestherain]

[Sorry, Meg, she's kind of... wandered off into half talking to herself now.]

There isn't another choice for me. There... isn't.

[manicpixiedreamgirl]

[See that Look, Bella? It means Alice is disappointed in you.

Not much, thou, she still loves you.]

They never listen. All you can do is put your foot down on some things. No waffling.

[Because we all know you love to waffle.]

[hatestherain]

[She sees it. Practically feels it burning through her. You're the closest thing to the sister she's never had, Alice, and that disappointment has the potential to hit her with quite a force.

She takes a breath, and when she does, there's a slight degree of shakiness to it.]

I won't. I'll make her listen. She has to.

eeeee

[174awhile]

[ Not knowing what she's referring to is maddening. He's not sure how to proceed. After all, in this place, nothing is a given. And so he treads lightly, carefully constructed amusement veiling a deep-seated concern. ]

Care to enlighten the rest of us? Or should we start guessing what it is that you want?

hello! :3

[hatestherain]

[It's been so long. So long since that day he left her there, alone. So long that the hole in her chest is a familiar constant, one that grows and eats her alive more and more with each passing day. A significant part of her wonders if this is a dream.

But there's no mistaking. This is the owner of the voice she's been so desperate to hear, so desperate she's been willing to risk anything. He's here. He's here, he's with her, he's...--

Her breath catches in her throat.]

You know.

hello you beautiful person you

[174awhile]

[ His eyes flicker to her lips but just as quickly look off to the side at nothing in particular. ]

If I knew, I wouldn't be asking, I- [ "would have already given it to you." ]

If you don't want me to pry, I won't. But you should expect questions if you go around saying vague things like that.

[alwaystraveling]

Yes. We weren't introduced or anything; I just reassured him that time wouldn't pass in his absence, so it wouldn't affect you.

aww, no u XD

[hatestherain]

[Her thoughts automatically go straight back to that day. The gaze that wouldn't quite meet her own. The words that hurt. Maybe it's not the same, but, nevertheless, it's almost something like deja vu...--

And suddenly, something equally unfamiliar begins to rise. A desperation that makes her incapable of further thought, instead rendering everything a scrambled, incoherent mess. That makes her breath almost impossible to become unstuck. Her eyes frantically search for his.

He has to heed her pleas this time. He has to.

She can't be alone again.]

I want forever. [Don't leave me.]

[hatestherain]

[Oh, that cuts. That cuts much more than intended. Because, little does this stranger know, Edward has already created an absence, one that's left an impossible hole where a heart should be. She could go on without the heart, without the soul, but not without this.

She wants, she needs--]

I need to see him.

ahhh this just makes me all stupidly giddy you don't even knooow

[174awhile]

[ He can sense that something's wrong. He's unable to move, in his own way, not wanting to say or do anything to upset whatever unknown balance is in place for her, but also just as desperately wanting to give in to his utterly selfish desires to close the distance between them, hold her, tightly, tell her everything she wants to hear and more. Much more.

Instead he compromises, allowing himself to meet her gaze.

This time, his amusement is a little more genuine. ]

Is that all?

aaaah I'M SO GLAD this is so much fun for me too

[hatestherain]

[Those eyes. How she's missed those eyes. It's a relief that she can look into them again. But only a small one. Why won't he come closer? She needs him to be closer. Needs that to feel complete. Needs her life to intertwine with his. All that time, and this distance, mere feet, is almost the hardest of all.

... Why won't her own feet move?]

Yes. [A beat] It's the only thing.

[Please.]

[swamtofrance]

It's good to know what you want, Bella. Your mundane shouldn't worry.

;u; <3

[174awhile]

[ Only forever? Not forever with him. He tries not to read too much into that distinction. It's a difficult idea to even consider. His eyes tighten at the thought, momentarily distracted, trying to recall when that idea was ever a possibility and coming up empty handed.

He realizes she's probably waiting for some kind of response. It takes him a moment to come up with one. ]

And your mun pities this notion? They're not excited by the endless possibilities that kind of time could afford?

OOC: I hope you don't mind a little neurology. I couldn't help myself.

[whatisreality]

[looks at Bella - looks at his mun - scowls]

And, pray tell, what is it you want?

[Also, how can a teenager be so sure about anything they want?]

[hatestherain]

[Oh, hi, Carlisle. She smiles]

I don't think she's so easily convinced.

Not at all! 8D Also, I... really need to catch up with this show ghdjfsd

[hatestherain]

[But that's the thing about teenagers, don't you know? They're always sure that they know what they want. And this one is so certain it pretty much hurts.]

I want to be with him.

[swamtofrance]

((ooc: Sob, I was so tempted to use my new AU Carlisle but I'm too lazy to write up his story.))

Well, not everybody can be convinced. That's just how humans are.

[eyeroll]

There's always something else.