homeless, and looking. suggestions welcomed!

[liugan]

Over here as well, then?

You're not very good at this, you know. I've a feeling that if you truly desired to send me somewhere new, a place with structure and setting, that you would have accomplished that long ago. Let's not forget your failed attempts with applications as of late.

I would not mind, of course. It is highly entertaining, watching you continue to get your hopes up over and over.

Try a little harder, then. And if there is no place for me, then that should not surprise you.



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[liugan]

[ He considers that, smiling fondly for a moment ... but then it fades. ]

It wouldn't have to be too long a winter.

[ The rest, he is hesitant to answer. ]

[odinsdottir]

Of course it would.

We could have thundering snow -- so rare, in its beauty.

[liugan]

Such a rarity would be fitting, would it not?

[odinsdottir]

A bond like ours is even rarer.

[liugan]

I suppose it is not at all common. What does it make us, I wonder?

[odinsdottir]

Come, Loki, would you have me write you poetry? Praise you in song? I am no easy hand at either.

I may just say that I miss you, that there is an ache in a piece of me I did not know was there. I am lesser when you are gone.

Come home, brother. Or, at least, let me find you.

[liugan]

You ask for such things that you know can never happen. Why do you insist? I am not returning to a place I am so utterly loathed by all I had known as Asgard's prince. It is your home, and I am welcome there no longer.

And you certainly seem to do a fine job of locating me whenever you wish to, whether I want you to or not.

[odinsdottir]

You're not loathed by me.

[liugan]

[ He pauses a moment, then rubs his temples. ] Despite having every reason to.

We cannot go back to how things were. You know this.

[odinsdottir]

I will forgive.

And before you say it, Loki -- I know that does not erase what has been done to you. I know. I can only hope that you choose to come back to me.

I cannot pin you down unless you let me, brother.

[liugan]

As endearing and warm as your hopes are, sister, they are foolish first. You will forgive. I will not.

[odinsdottir]

That I have taken the throne -- this is worse than destroying one of the NIne Realms?

Please, brother. See reason.

[liugan]

You still do not understand. Stop for a moment and think, Thunderess. I have not once cared for the throne, it was never my reason for such genocide.

[odinsdottir]

I have never understood you.

Why, then? Why, if not to prove yourself to the All-Father?

[ A pause, then: ] Why kill me? Loki, why?

[liugan]

Why?

Because you, sister, the only one I have ever loved, the only one who ever defended me from their accusations and scorn when you could see it, you turned against me faster than all of Asgard.

For a mortal.

[odinsdottir]

And what of your lie? That Father was dead, that I was banished for all time?

What of the guardian you sent to kill me?

You attacked before I had the chance to betray you.

[liugan]

We are to get into this again, I see.

How can you claim to wish for me at your side once more when I can see your hatred for me burn in your very eyes?

[odinsdottir]

It is pain, not hate, and do not confuse the two.

[liugan]

I confuse nothing. You are the same as any other.

We are finished, Thunderess. Cease your foolish attempts to bring be home.

[odinsdottir]

By Odin, Loki, I would chain you by my side until you saw reason. Please, please do not go. You are a part of me, and I am forever less by your absence. And yet you strike, bite and claw like a trapped animal. Let me love you!

[liugan]

I only behave the way monsters are expected to behave, you should know better. As disappointing as it is to admit, I have no control over your damn feelings, foolish however they may be.

Love who, or whatever you want. It does not change things. And you only waste your efforts.

[odinsdottir]

No.

I don't believe you.

Only minutes ago, you said I was the only one you'd ever loved. Why would you want to turn me away?

[liugan]

It is easier to push away now, than to hold on and have to let go again later.

[odinsdottir]

You are so eager to let go.

[liugan]

If it would mean not having this conversation again, then so be it.