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[illusionism]

The whole idea doesn't settle well with me... I had a feeling you'd make me go through all of this again. Gaining one and losing the other. Getting another chance with him is something I should be thankful for but the idea of ... being with out our child isn't right! Reconsidering isn't really an option due to the circumstances.

I just — I don't want to think or talk about this right now. Do what you have to and leave me alone for a while.

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[lastsmoke]

[ Gaining one to lose the other...heh. Life is cruel. ]

We'll--I'll help you through it. Whatever it takes.

[illusionism]

( she tried to smile, but it didn't work very well. just the thought about being without their child brings that emptiness back. )

I know... Then there's everyone else that will help. Just the idea of — I can't think about it right now.

[lastsmoke]

Hey, hey. [ A reassuring hand on her shoulder. ] Then don't think about it right now. Cross that bridge when you come to it.

[illusionism]

Easier said than done, but I'm trying.

( she rests her hand over his. )

[lastsmoke]

[ He kisses the top of her head--a silent 'I'm here for you'--but doesn't say anything else.

What else could he say, to make things better? ]

[illusionism]

( she closes her eyes and lets out a long sigh. )

Well get through this. Together.

[lastsmoke]

Of course. And I'll be sure to be there properly, this time.

[illusionism]

You were always there.

[endgames]

[This is one of those situations where "I'm sorry" would never cut it. It would be the cruelest thing he could say at a time like this.

Like that time, all he can do is sit with her for this.]

[illusionism]

( for a long moment she was silent before she finally looked up at him. )

Looks like becoming the teacher will have to wait for another time...

[endgames]

...can't teach an infant shogi anyways. They'd just try to eat the pieces.

[illusionism]

They're a lot smarter than you're giving them credit for, but you're right. The pieces would be eaten.

[endgames]

Better to save it for our world, when they get to be a little bigger.

[illusionism]

...All of this will take some getting used to. Just like before.

[endgames]

If it gives you any comfort... the baby is safer out of that place.

[It's a small consolation, he knows. If there's anything he had the power to do, it would be to keep her from dealing with another loss. Without that, he can do the small things.]

[illusionism]

You might be right, but it still doesn't give me any comfort.

( she has a big heart and she's very protective of those she cares for, so not knowing what will become of her child terrifies her. )

[keepitcanine]

Yeah, well, fuck them and whatever bastard they have clawing up their ass. It'll be okay. Watch.

[illusionism]

With you around I'll definitely have my hands full.

[keepitcanine]

Call it future practice, 'cause your kid's going to be learning from the best.

[illusionism]

Who are you referring to?

[keepitcanine]

Isn't that pretty obvious?

[illusionism]

No, not really. I just see this huge ego that doesn't need anymore stroking.

[keepitcanine]

Geez. What happened to all the positive reinforcement you used to give me when I was a genin?

[illusionism]

Here I thought you'd be too manly for that.

pardon the late orz ;;

[selfdoubt]

I- It will be fine, sensei. If you need anything, I will help. I'm sure Kiba-kun will do the same and Shikamaru-kun's team too.