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Voice testing for luceti and maybe eswareinmal

Right. So, we're doing this again, then, are we?

...at least you're excited. If we both don't want this, well, what's the point? I'll be gone in another month. And I refuse to put anyone else through that again.

Certainly some interesting plans in the works. No...sorry, I meant "horrific". Yes, I'm sure that's what I meant. Yes, that includes the party. Especially if one of them takes it into their heads to make it a surprise party. And depending on when Helios decides to admit what happened over Valentine's Day. To say nothing of all the people who I know fully well are hoping for a chance to shout at me or, um, smack me. Or hit me. In some cases, probably hard enough to knock me unconscious. And, with my luck, I'll probably be tossed at one or two individuals who wouldn't mind another chance at attempting to murder me, just for the flavor, and I don't just mean Drusilla.

Still. Um...it will be nice to see Willow, again. That's...something. Still as far ahead as ever, of course, but...well, you know how it is. I can at least make that work to my advantage, this time. And I most certainly intend to.

As for the other place...all right, fine, it's a shame about the train, but you do recall that having me in two places at once never works out, yes? I don't care how much the three of you are amused by it. We would not do well in a medieval setting. They stoned people like us to death, back then.

...but, we'd, we'd be able to remember one another? Helios, a-and Ginia, and I? Fine. I, um, I suppose my tastes towards weaponry, fighting style, and reading material might finally be relevant. I can only imagine how much that news might amuse Buffy.

And I hope the fact that I very strongly protest being made a ghost is assumed. In other words, I would hope you would know better than to, um, make me argue that point with you. I don't care if it sounds interesting. Things that, um, sound interesting to you rarely end well for either of us.

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I-I'm sorry Giles. I would never h-have done that w-with her. Y-You know that. I-I...didn't mean to. I'm so sorry.

[ Never in a million years because Helios can't feel such emotions anymore in the first place. If he had been in his right mind? He would have stayed far away from Alice if she was affected even if it meant hurting and ruining his own relationship with her. ]

No. It's...rather horrible a-actually. I don't think it needs to be p-put forth about what happens. It's supposed to be a second chance for you...

She's not going to change her mind, is she?

...it's fine.

[And it is. Or it should be. Will be.

Giles will make sure of it.] I, um, I...I know.

[But, because he can't help but ask, and because he has been wondering...]

Do you love her?

[ Just cringing a little. You're far too calm about this. It's dredging up memories about Nero, bro. Especially when he got particularly angry about something but just decided to explode when Helios least expected his brother to. He was always so calm when he was at his worst. Because you have every right to be angry but you're not and it's a bit scary. ]

Y-You're not an-angry then? [ Just a slight hitch of breath at that question. He can't say he wasn't expecting it though. ]

No. I-I mean. Not, not like that. [ Never like that. Helios loved them both but in a familial way. Not the way Giles is thinking. Never the way Giles is thinking. ]

Of course I'm angry. [And, indeed, the words are well and truly snapped. Don't talk to Giles while he's trying to keep himself on a leash, Helios. It makes it a lot harder to keep ahold of the leash.]

I just know better than to do someone physical injury for it. [Yeah, Helios, Giles knows what you were thinking there. Again.]

Especially for, for something they had n-no control over to start with!

[Deep breath. Deep breath. Giles just closes his eyes and counts to five.]

Besides. N-Neither of you had, had any way to know I'd be coming back at all.

I-I'm sorry. It, it won't happen again. [ Oh. Whoops. Helios does tend to make it rather obvious when he's thinking about it, but you can't blame him for it. Still just another flinch directed your way Giles and some hunching at those snapped words. He'll just bite his lip and look positively horrible because he feels absolutely horrible for all this.

Because on one hand he knows it wrong and it should never have happened. But those feelings. Alice was the first person in a long, long time to love him that way. It felt normal for once and could actually feel love again. It'd been so long but it still didn't make it right. ] It just happened at a-a very bad time...

[ So very bad and it makes the situation look even worse for it. ] I-I'm, um, g-glad you're c-coming back though. G-Ginia will be too.

...yes, it will. When the Malnosso decide to make it happen? It will. You know it as well as I do.

...for god's sake, Helios, I'm not going to hit you. You know that. So stop that. [It makes him feel just as horrible when Helios looks like a kicked puppy like that and, let's face it, Giles isn't the one with reason to feel horrible here.]

...despite all of this mess, of course...I will be glad to be back.

It-it depends on if they, they want to happen too. [ They being you know who! Horrible, evil, muns that throw them into these horrible situations and make everything awkward and wrong. ]

S-Sorry. I can't help it. [ You know perfectly well he can't help it Giles. You of all people should that it's a hard habit to break when it's been beaten into you for most of your life. ]

We're definitely g-going to have a nice party for you. And you can finally meet Luminair. [ A small smile. ]

[He knows. He knows very well. That doesn't mean it doesn't raise his hackles a bit when he's so forcibly reminded.

With a soft sigh and a voice of one conceding:] And then I can meet your dragon, yes. I'm sure he's, um, quite a magnificent creature by now.

[But, still, a faint smile in turn. Getting to see a dragon that isn't trying to tear Sunnydale to bits should be an experience, at least.]

He's still very small. P-Probably will be when, when you get back too. He's, ah, very mischievous and curious. I'd advise you to hide your more shiny valuables too. He seems to have a knack of getting to those.

[ Helios' dragon is a shiny hoarder, yes he is! ]

[And you are just the proudest dragon papa Giles has ever seen.]

You'll, um, have to remind me of that...

[Giles takes out the watch from his pocket - freshly recovered from the belly of a snake, for the moment - and tosses it up into the air to catch.]

...but, um, I'll be sure and remember.

[ So very proud Giles, so very proud. Helios watches the other as he takes that watch out. Still uncertainty and tentativeness in his posture and overall demeanor. ] I certainly will. I don't think he'll take that, the watch I mean. If you make a p-point to tell him how important it is he'll understand. Dragons. Quite bright even at a young age.

[ He smiles a little sadly, happily. It's a reminder of when things weren't as complicated and their relationship wasn't as strained. Also when Frederic was still here to make things somewhat better. ] Everything will...will be alright, won't it?

[ He hopes it will. His stupid mistake and the Malnosso once again make it so hard for the both of them to get back on track. He wants it to be alright though even if that means moving or leaving because of what's transpired. ]

[You want to make things better, Helios?

Then you won't leave the house and make Giles drag you back home again because this isn't worth that. Giles doesn't want the Malnosso to ruin things between them any more than Helios does.]

Everything will be all right.

[In this, Giles sounds completely sincere.]

I promise.

[ A tired sigh. He'll try to remember that when the time eventually comes to tell Giles. But you know how it is. Overbearing guilt and large lack of self worth always make thinking straight hard for him. Even if it was the Malnosso, it's almost as bad as the crimes he's committed during Halloween. ]

O-Of course. She...she wants to have me come back as a demon at some point too. It's not really going to help matters. I-I just wanted to warn you.

[ Even if the information won't crossover. ] I don't understand why they make it so hard. It's not... [ and here he'll bite his lip gently. ] ...it's not fair.

[Which is amusing, in a twisted and morbid sort of way, because the crimes Helios committed during Halloween were done when he wasn't in his right mind, either.

Giles has been reading over his mun's shoulder as of late, and has seen the sorts of things that get thought up when Helios is a demon. So it's that, as much as anything, that gets him to go pale and take a slight step back.]

...what sort of a demon, just out of curiosity?

[ Oh trust him Giles Helios has been reading it too and it gets a very apparent blush on his features. ]

I. Ah. I-I don't know...hopefully nothing too bad.

[ Yes he does know. He knows which kind and Giles should too. ] I-I'll try to, to not find my way back to th-the village when...if, if it does happen.

[Giles does, mostly because Helios is a horrible liar. He gives a visible wince at the confirmation. Oh good god, this could only end badly. Forget Valentine's Day.]

You'd, um, h-have to avoid the journals as well. As, as soon as any of us had word that you were, um, back in the village...myself included...you, you know we'd come running for you.

O-Oh right. I...I could try to, um, not use it.

[ Hell if he knows if he'll even bother when it happens. Especially if he was hungry. Mainly if he was hungry. ] If I have my, my wits about me I...will try to.

There's always the alternative if things don't...work out. [ Death instead of harming people he cares about. He would never want to put anyone in such a position. But he honest to god doesn't even know how things would turn out with him as a demon. Especially when he has a certain demonic god of chaos and destruction tied to his soul as is. Would this only make it worse? He's not even sure. ] And now she's thinking it'd be poetic if I...did die again. In June.

[ This is turning out to be rather horrible. ]

((ooc: I was also hoping to try for that post-Nero thread soon, if you still wanted to go for that?))

...I won't let you.

[Poetic be damned. Giles thinks that a lot, especially where his mundane is concerned. But poetry be damned. He almost didn't survive that week.]

You'd have to kill me first.

((ooc; Yes! I would love to do that soon~ Whenever you wanted to do it! ))

But Giles... [ He just looks away. ]

I-I won't let myself kill you o-or anyone else for that matter. I can't.

[ God call him selfish or what have you but he honestly can't deal with that. No way in hell. ]

((ooc: Over the weekend, maybe? While I'm dashing about back to Florida.))

And I won't let you die again.

I can't.

...I told you that, before. Outside the Hall. That, whatever happened to you, whatever changed you, I...wouldn't be able to bring myself to harm you. I did warn you.

[Two diametrically opposed sorts of selfishness, then. They really are two messed up friends, aren't they?]

((ooc; Sounds good to me! :3 All the angst while traveling! ))

Then. Then someone else has to do it. [ He hates saying those words because they hurt ever so much. But he can't wake up after the effects of his mallynap have worn off and know that he's hurt people. ]

What about G-Ginia? I...I might hurt her again too. [ Not terribly fair bringing her into it, he knows that. But he also knows that like Halloween this could potentially endanger her and anyone else close to him.

And yes they really are quite the strange and messed up pair. ]

[Mission accomplished. You thought Giles looked mad before, Helios? He is visibly holding himself back at the thought of Ginia being hurt like that again.

...would he kill to protect Ginia?

In a heartbeat.

Could he kill Helios to protect Ginia?

...that's a rather more lingering question.]

I'd, um, I'd make certain she got away. I don't want to die, mark you...and I do everything I could to ensure that we, um, made it through the week.

[Or so he'll tell himself. It's all he can do.

...even so, Helios. Don't suggest that again.]

[ He's almost expecting to get hit for that. So yes flinching and cringing and hunching will ensue. He's sorry. He didn't mean to bring it up. But he had to, it just has to be asked. But it never comes. He sees the anger there though. No. He will not be suggesting that again. ] S-Sorry.

I-I'm sorry. I-I just...I don't know what'll happen. What I'll return like... [ so many possibilities if this actually occurs. But he has to be prepared because with Apep's influence in him...this will make matters so much worse. ]

None of us know what will happen, Helios. You might die, I might die, all three of us might messily slaughter one another. There's absolutely no way to tell, this early on.

[And that fact pisses him off.]

I'm s-sorry I'm not strong enough to, to murder my best friend. I've, I've done it before, and...n-not again.

I-I'm sorry that I, I even suggested it. I apologize. [ because he wouldn't be able to do it either. ]

That was...unfair of me to even allude to.

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Voice testing for luceti and maybe eswareinmal

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...needless to say, tormenting Giles with Incubus!Helios is a goddamn necessity.

It is imperative. I was going to put up a test entry later to see how it'd go. >:3

Oooooh! Link me when it's up!

I shall!

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