dear_mun | Voice testing for luceti and maybe eswareinmal

Right. So, we're doing this again, then, are we?

...at least you're excited. If we both don't want this, well, what's the point? I'll be gone in another month. And I refuse to put anyone else through that again.

Certainly some interesting plans in the works. No...sorry, I meant "horrific". Yes, I'm sure that's what I meant. Yes, that includes the party. Especially if one of them takes it into their heads to make it a surprise party. And depending on when Helios decides to admit what happened over Valentine's Day. To say nothing of all the people who I know fully well are hoping for a chance to shout at me or, um, smack me. Or hit me. In some cases, probably hard enough to knock me unconscious. And, with my luck, I'll probably be tossed at one or two individuals who wouldn't mind another chance at attempting to murder me, just for the flavor, and I don't just mean Drusilla.

Still. Um...it will be nice to see Willow, again. That's...something. Still as far ahead as ever, of course, but...well, you know how it is. I can at least make that work to my advantage, this time. And I most certainly intend to.

As for the other place...all right, fine, it's a shame about the train, but you do recall that having me in two places at once never works out, yes? I don't care how much the three of you are amused by it. We would not do well in a medieval setting. They stoned people like us to death, back then.

...but, we'd, we'd be able to remember one another? Helios, a-and Ginia, and I? Fine. I, um, I suppose my tastes towards weaponry, fighting style, and reading material might finally be relevant. I can only imagine how much that news might amuse Buffy.

And I hope the fact that I very strongly protest being made a ghost is assumed. In other words, I would hope you would know better than to, um, make me argue that point with you. I don't care if it sounds interesting. Things that, um, sound interesting to you rarely end well for either of us.

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O-Oh right. I...I could try to, um, not use it.

[ Hell if he knows if he'll even bother when it happens. Especially if he was hungry. Mainly if he was hungry. ] If I have my, my wits about me I...will try to.

There's always the alternative if things don't...work out. [ Death instead of harming people he cares about. He would never want to put anyone in such a position. But he honest to god doesn't even know how things would turn out with him as a demon. Especially when he has a certain demonic god of chaos and destruction tied to his soul as is. Would this only make it worse? He's not even sure. ] And now she's thinking it'd be poetic if I...did die again. In June.

[ This is turning out to be rather horrible. ]

((ooc: I was also hoping to try for that post-Nero thread soon, if you still wanted to go for that?))

...I won't let you.

[Poetic be damned. Giles thinks that a lot, especially where his mundane is concerned. But poetry be damned. He almost didn't survive that week.]

You'd have to kill me first.

((ooc; Yes! I would love to do that soon~ Whenever you wanted to do it! ))

But Giles... [ He just looks away. ]

I-I won't let myself kill you o-or anyone else for that matter. I can't.

[ God call him selfish or what have you but he honestly can't deal with that. No way in hell. ]

((ooc: Over the weekend, maybe? While I'm dashing about back to Florida.))

And I won't let you die again.

I can't.

...I told you that, before. Outside the Hall. That, whatever happened to you, whatever changed you, I...wouldn't be able to bring myself to harm you. I did warn you.

[Two diametrically opposed sorts of selfishness, then. They really are two messed up friends, aren't they?]

((ooc; Sounds good to me! :3 All the angst while traveling! ))

Then. Then someone else has to do it. [ He hates saying those words because they hurt ever so much. But he can't wake up after the effects of his mallynap have worn off and know that he's hurt people. ]

What about G-Ginia? I...I might hurt her again too. [ Not terribly fair bringing her into it, he knows that. But he also knows that like Halloween this could potentially endanger her and anyone else close to him.

And yes they really are quite the strange and messed up pair. ]

[Mission accomplished. You thought Giles looked mad before, Helios? He is visibly holding himself back at the thought of Ginia being hurt like that again.

...would he kill to protect Ginia?

In a heartbeat.

Could he kill Helios to protect Ginia?

...that's a rather more lingering question.]

I'd, um, I'd make certain she got away. I don't want to die, mark you...and I do everything I could to ensure that we, um, made it through the week.

[Or so he'll tell himself. It's all he can do.

...even so, Helios. Don't suggest that again.]

[ He's almost expecting to get hit for that. So yes flinching and cringing and hunching will ensue. He's sorry. He didn't mean to bring it up. But he had to, it just has to be asked. But it never comes. He sees the anger there though. No. He will not be suggesting that again. ] S-Sorry.

I-I'm sorry. I-I just...I don't know what'll happen. What I'll return like... [ so many possibilities if this actually occurs. But he has to be prepared because with Apep's influence in him...this will make matters so much worse. ]

None of us know what will happen, Helios. You might die, I might die, all three of us might messily slaughter one another. There's absolutely no way to tell, this early on.

[And that fact pisses him off.]

I'm s-sorry I'm not strong enough to, to murder my best friend. I've, I've done it before, and...n-not again.

I-I'm sorry that I, I even suggested it. I apologize. [ because he wouldn't be able to do it either. ]

That was...unfair of me to even allude to.

...I understand the point you're attempting to make, Helios. I, um, I even think that I understand your fears.

But, um, yes. That was...incredibly unfair of you.

If something like this should happen, I, I will do everything I can to keep Ginia and myself safe. Beyond that? It's, it's impossible to say.

Voice testing for luceti and maybe eswareinmal

It is imperative. I was going to put up a test entry later to see how it'd go. >:3

Oooooh! Link me when it's up!

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