Someone isn't happy his version of canon is going to end soon.

[sonicseverything]

Look you know you aren't happy about this and I'm even less so. I don't feel ready to let someone else, man or woman take over and be me. Not to mention I still feel like I'm forgetting someone and something. I wish I could figure out what it was before I go...just so I wouldn't feel so..empty anymore.

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[drivesadesk]

My mun is going to miss this version of you, too. Although, I suspect that whatever you're forgetting, you'll remember right in the most dramatic moment. That's how these things usually work, isn't it?

[sonicseverything]

I suppose...not that I'm a fan of that.

[drivesadesk]

Well, that's better than not remembering. Probably. Unless it turns out to be something you'd rather not remember, after all.

[timeslastsoldier]

What do you know, went and forgot something again, daft old fool.

[but he can't be angry at himself at this stage, even if he feels he has reason to be]

But don't worry, it won't be the first we forgot nor the last. You'll be fine.

[sonicseverything]

[12 looks annoyed at the self he remembers best]

Fine....yes some other person gets to continue my adventures and I just....get lost. That sounds like fun.

[timeslastsoldier]

Happens to the best of us, doesn't it? Happens to all of us as a matter of fact, but you'll get used to it. You'll still be there like I'm still there, banging about in that head of yours. Nice hair by the way. Was a little concerned at first but it really grows on you.

[a smile]

By the way, come here for a second.

[sonicseverything]

[The older Doctor walks over to his younger self carefully giving him a bit of a side eye.]

What do you want?

[timeslastsoldier]

[beans him upside the head]

That's for making Ashildr immortal. I know why you did it but it was a great bloody stupid thing for you to do. Everything dies. Sooner or later. Usually around us. But immortality is not an answer-- especially to a human brain that can't cope with it.

And I'm sorry about... [wait... what was it? Something or someone... that meant a lot but he couldn't recall. Something lost. ... well it wouldn't be the first time.]

Anyway aside from that, you were fantastic, old man.

[sonicseverything]

[12 has the grace to look sheepish at himself]

She didn't deserve to die that way, I know it was wrong given my past accidental immortality giving, but I had to do something.

[He smiles slightly]

So were you. I miss the old face sometimes.

sorry this got lost in my inbox x.x

[timeslastsoldier]

Did you really?

[he wasn't there... well not precisely anyway. Though he supposes he was in all the way that counted and you couldn't really blame the future for the mistakes you've yet to make so he'll leave it here for now]

Yeah? S'not bad is it? It's the ears, really. Gives it a sense of character. [flips them with his fingers]

Re: sorry this got lost in my inbox x.x

[sonicseverything]

[12 smiles slightly]

Right you were dying at the time...it worked out well enough..Earth got a hero it needed when I couldn't be around and Jack well he got a second chance.

Yeah and the nose.

[teethncurls]

Already at the end? My, we do burn through quivk. Well! Be prepared, old man. No on ever really forgets us, even we can't say the same.

[sonicseverything]

Sadly yes...I seem to burn through bodies more easily these days. Though I can't say the past few me's have been boring.

[teethncurls]

[Can't help a tiny chuckle.]

Seems we are getting old.

[sonicseverything]

{12 shakes his head.]

More then you know.

[teethncurls]

Old and soft hearted of course.

[Neither one is bad of course. Simply, interesting.]

[borntolove]

I'm sorry. I'm so, so, sorry.

[On a few accounts on whoever his older self is forgetting and having to go since someone else didn't want to go either]

[sonicseverything]

Yes...I know you are. You always are.

[borntolove]

[Ten's eyes slowly dart and shine sadly and feels his insides twist. Always are. Thanks for the reassurance. Is that why Ten is you?]

I hope you don't suffer too much, Doctor.

[sonicseverything]

I'm hoping that is true. But with two versions of the Master you don't know.

[His soft burr is quiet and sad.]

I'm more worried what will happen to my companions.

[borntolove]

[The Master? There are instantly complicated feelings; along the lines of yay, not the last one and The Doctor could help his childhood friend but also it's The Master. As far as two of The Master- well there's been more than one of The Doctor before togethr. And a slight head nod with sad puppy eyes about being concerned about his companions and then whispers]

Why did you make Ashildr, immorality?

[sonicseverything]

[Ah this question, how he hates this question. He tries to be flippant about it.]

Didn't want Jack to get lonely...you know how he gets...too much like me.

[braveheart_clara]

Are you ever ready? Is anyone ever ready to let go?

And I wouldn't let it eat at you too much. Whomever it is you are forgetting, I am sure they understand.

[sonicseverything]

No...I'm not ready to let go.

I can't help it.....I feel so lost.

[spinfoctor]

It's better to go out on top, they say.

[sonicseverything]

I suppose. I just wish I felt ready.

[spinfoctor]

No one ever does.

[sonicseverything]

Suppose not.

[needsrest]

I suppose that makes two mundanes.

But, those are the cards that have been dealt. So, you do what you can, hope some good comes out of it, and take some pride in that.

Yet, it's never that easy.

[sonicseverything]

Yours too? I'm sorry. They are such touchy things sometimes.

[needsrest]

Yeah, that they are. Mine is anyway. Extremely. She cried the last time.

You have nothing to be sorry about, though.