Because my life isn't complicated enough...

[neverjoinyou]

Look, I'm actually really happy that my father and my sister might be joining us on the Barge. I mean, I miss Leia, and I never really got to know my father.

But I'm worried, you know?

So much has happened, both here and at home. And Han's from three years ago, and Leia doesn't even know we're related, and I know it's gonna fall on me to break all that to her. As for dad, well... I want a relationship. Of course I do. But where do you start, after all the years of not knowing, and then all the fighting and hatred, and then there's Ben's obsession...

Maybe that'll be good for him. I don't know.

The thing is, how in the nine hells am I supposed to help an inmate, when my family's this messed up? And how do I even start thinking about the future, when I'm faced daily with the notion that contrary to what Yoda said, it's already fixed and I've already failed?

Okay, stop right there, lady. All the above is important. Whether I'll ever find a suitable object for my affections is the least of my worries right now.

Comments

[politicallyinclined]

You start at the beginning. [She is partially to blame for his chaotic family and she wishes she could stand beside him during this time of turmoil.] Do not cloud your mind with negativity. Focus on what you must do now - in the moment. The rest will come whether you will it or not.

[neverjoinyou]

I know. And I don't... I have my down times, but I don't tend to stay negative. It's just good to hear it again.

Especially from you. Father... he says we're alike.

[politicallyinclined]

That's good. I wouldn't want you to stay negative. [That's more Anakin's (hopefully not permanent) outlook; not hers.]

He does? I am honored.

[neverjoinyou]

I think he was flattering me, actually.

[politicallyinclined]

Do you think so? I cannot blame him for doing so.

[neverjoinyou]

He loves you a great deal.

[politicallyinclined]

I love him; that hasn't changed.

And I love you and Leia.

[neverjoinyou]

Then I'll carry that with me. I guess I always have, in a way.

[politicallyinclined]

It wasn't fair to you and her especially and I'm sorry. But you were never not loved and that is the truth.