On being a Dark Side AU - xposted

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Now I know you're doing this just because you think there's still some chance that I'll come back. And maybe there is, but you know the plan as well as I do, and there's no coming back from something like that. The best I can hope for is some kind of gray.

But you know I wouldn't settle for that, I'm not the sort of person who does anything by halves, now am I?

Besides that, you really shouldn't worry about me too much. Just because I'm letting him train me doesn't mean I'm going to let him touch me, and more than that, I think he knows better, considering the damage I already caused him.

I'm here because I want to be here. That's really all you need to concern yourself with.