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[deathsought]

Now do you understand why I can't let this go, mundane?

I can't let it end like this. Nobody deserves this vile curse less than her.

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[fairysoul]

[Mavis is standing a few feet away from him. She wants to reach out for him, so badly.]

I... wanted this moment to last forever.

[After all they had been through to reach that point... Even Ankhseram shouldn't have the right to be that cruel.]

[deathsought]

{ He has no idea how to respond. Say he wants the same thing? Deny it, even if it would be a blatant lie? Push her away? Is this even her, or is it a ghost, thought projection, whatever she is? Can he even lie to Ankhseram?

Could he end up doing the same thing all over again? He doesn't know anymore. }

It will. I don't care what it takes. I'm going to keep the promise we made, and nobody, not Ankhseram, not Acnologia, and not even your guild are going to stop me.

[fairysoul]

Zeref...

[She doesn't want to address that. She just wants him to stop hurting, even for just a moment. So she kneels down next to him and just like back then, in the forest, she pulls him into her embrace. She doesn't care if he's going to protest or to struggle, she's not about to let go.

It's not like you can die twice anyway.]

[deathsought]

{ He doesn't resist. He can't, and they both know it. It was so unfair. For a brief, shining moment, he had hope. Maybe even a reason to want to keep living instead of just counting the days until he could try to have E.N.D. kill him. That he'd finally found something in the world that could give him a chance at happiness. And he had been sure that if anybody could have helped him break this awful curse, it was her. If the One Magic existed, he knew they could have found it together.

And then that glimmer of hope was snatched away from him as quickly as it had arrived. And worse still, it had to have happened to the only person he'd ever allowed himself to love. And he wouldn't even wish this on his worst enemy, let alone the kindest person he'd ever met and could ever meet.

He doesn't even try to stop the tears. He knows he can't. }

[fairiesinourhearts]

[There are no words for this.]

[deathsought]

{ You're telling him, person he's never met. }

This is why I left it to her to tell all of you.

[fairiesinourhearts]

...It doesn't matter if she's alive or dead.

I'll always be there for her.

[deathsought]

Then we have more in common than we realize.

It won't end like this.

[fairiesinourhearts]

I won't just let you do whatever you want, either, you know. What Mavis wants is important to me, too!

[deathsought]

What she wants is for this hellish curse to end. Just like I do.

[fairiesinourhearts]

But not at any cost! She's different than you.

[deathsought]

You said you came from her heart, right?

[fairiesinourhearts]

She didn't want to be alone.

It didn't matter if I was solid, or alive. It didn't matter if there was no one else she could spend time with! So long as we could be together, everything was fine...

[Of course. That hadn't been able to last forever. Eventually, Mavis had needed to move on.

...But she's going to ignore that, for the purpose of arguing with Zeref. He doesn't need to know.]

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[deathsought]

No... no, she didn't. That was why... that was why...

{ He can't even bring himself to say it. }

[deathsought]

That was the worst contradiction of all. Love bringing despair. Hope bringing hopelessness. If you're truly from her heart, then you will remember what she promised me... and why it matters.

[vernier]

[Like Zeira, she can't think of anything to say either—it's just too tragic...]

[deathsought]

This is why I won't rest until--... no, I'll kill everyone in my way--... don't want war... Fairy Tail must die, no, Fairy Tail must end me, I helped create--...

{ Sorry, Wendy. Apparently, this happens more often than his mundane thought. certainly explains why he seems to do a 180 in personality almost every chapter. }

[vernier]

Z-Zeref-san...

[If only her healing magic could calm his mind, keep his thoughts from causing him anguish. But this is Ankhseram they're talking about—it wouldn't be that easy.]

How could Ankhseram be so cruel? It's like a twisted fairytale... [Like one of those "Brothers Grimm" stories, as her Mun called it.]

[deathsought]

{ It takes him a few seconds to calm down, but he eventually does. }

Nobody deserves this. Certainly not Mavis.

[vernier]

Neither do you.

[That might fall under "nobody deserves this", but both he and Mavis were worse off than anyone else (as far as she knew).]

I... I hope you're both given a happy ending... You deserve it. [Of course, how such an ending could be achieved was a different story...]

[deathsought]

My mundane had a similar sentiment. I wanted to die. She wanted to die. But then... then she wanted to live. To break the curse, together.

{ But that would require him to live, too, right? Living to break the curse. Even if they couldn't die, they'd still have each other, but they'd still want to die. Wanting to live in order to die? Granting her wish of death, but then wanting her to live, but wanting to be free of their suffering meant dying, nothing made sense anymore. }

I still intend to revive E.N.D. eventually. All I know is... I want to see Mavis one last time before I die. What I ultimately decide could hinge on that.

[vernier]

[She nods.]

Mavis-san will be telling us about Fairy Heart next, and if our Muns are right about why you want to obtain it—to obtain Mavis-san... [She pauses.] I wonder if Master and everyone else would allow you that chance.

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[deathsought]

Makarov made his position clear. If he stands in my way - if anyone does - I won't hesitate. I'll show them exactly how painful this curse can be.

[deathsought]

{ ... yep, there's a tear. }

I... don't want to hurt Mavis, or Natsu. I don't want any of this.

{ Despite that not-so-subtle threat just now. }

[vernier]

[The contradictory thoughts are certainly something she'll need to get used to...]

But... That was before. People's hearts can be swayed if presented with new information.

...I wonder if it's possible for us to fight and defeat Ankhseram. If we can, perhaps that'll break you and Mavis-san free from the curse.