Canon is Need For Speed. Having a crisis of faith.

[shelbycobra]

Find me someone to talk to. Maybe Damien or his partner are still around, or I don't know if Raylan would feel weird if I called him. But I need to talk to somebody about this and I need to do it today. This is not okay and I need to be okay before I get back into the car.

[Shaking her head as if trying to clear it.]

And I don't think Frank would consider what happened last night cheating. Nothing happened between me and Shane. We were just sharing a hotel room. My husband's not insecure in our marriage, that's my problem.

Guess I shouldn't have said that line about finding something to keep you interested, huh?

Comments

[audi]

What's wrong Darling?

[shelbycobra]

What's wrong?

[Shelby then realizes she just snapped his head off for a race he wasn't at and probably didn't see. Deep breath, try again young Jedi.]

It was terrible, Frank. I'm not afraid of tough racing, but when you constantly have just an inch or two to give and people are crashing out because of it? It's just too goddamn much. I actually hated being in that car.

[audi]

Come here. [He hadn't seen it because he was on his way to see her. He hated missing it but now, to hear her? Well he may have lost his cool if he had. He drew her close, kissing the top of her head gently.]

Is everyone alright? I missed it because I was en route to see you.

[shelbycobra]

You didn't miss much except me yelling at Shane and just doing everything I could to stay out of it. I thought my heart was going to explode.

[She's normally not one to complain about tough racing, but Shelby knows there's a line between tough and dangerous.]

Everyone's okay, thank God. But Will went into the wall with Takuma. And Ryan - well, both Ryans - went across the infield. Briscoe went airborne. All that was left of his car was the cockpit. It's just not right.

[audi]

Jesus christ. [He felt his body tense just a bit thinking of her, all of them in that dangerous situation.] Sorry I got here late. [Not that he could have done anything.] I'm here now.

[shelbycobra]

You don't owe me an apology, Frank. It's not like you could have stopped it, any of it.

[She bites her lip, it's the first time she's ever second guessed her choice of career and she doesn't know what to do with that feeling.]

I just can't describe what it feels like to know your teammate is sideways into the wall but you can't even process it because you're doing 228 ahead of him and you might be next. I was actually scared for my life.

[audi]

Let's go to your room. You can talk to me about it all. Talking it out may help. I should have been here for you when it happened. Instead I was held up because someone thought to try and cause trouble on a flight. [He was trying to use his 'work' plane less for personal use, though public flights were starting to drive him insane.]

[shelbycobra]

You don't have to explain. If anything, my mun thinks I owe you an explanation for sharing a room with Shane last night. [Scoffs at the notion.] It's not like we did anything. I just didn't want to be alone.

[audi]

You know I trust you and him. I also understand that as well.

[shelbycobra]

I know. You know I wouldn't cheat on you. Although I have no idea when was the last time we actually had time to have sex.

[audi]

You are busy and focused. SO it's understandable. We don't need sex for the other to know they are loved very much.

[shelbycobra]

Oh, like you're not busy? I don't know why you always feel like my career is more important than yours. Especially after this clusterfuck. [Shelby shakes her head as she follows his request and nods toward the hotel for them to go inside.] I don't want to hate this. I don't even know what to do with this fuckin' feeling.

[audi]

I'm busy yes. It's important to you, so it is important to me by default. Because you are the most important thing to me.

[shelbycobra]

That doesn't make it any more important than what you're doing.

Does your mun mind setting up a separate post? I really don't want other people to hear some of the stuff I'm about to say.

[audi]

Mun wouldn't mind at all.

[shelbycobra]

Thank you.

I just need to get my head straight. I can't get back into the car feeling upset or uncomfortable. That's not how we drive.

[audi]

I'm here for you.