dear_mun | Muse is a little, no a lot P.O.'d...

(Marie sighs and tugs on a stand of her hair before finding herself deciding to give her mun the much needed kick in the ass. Of course, this is all said in German.)

Look, I think this is something you should have expected. It was a nice thing to think about, but...look, I'm just not the type who can settle down. Just think about it. Just think. When have you ever seen me not in some sort of dire straight or moving from place to place...

Yeah, that's what I thought. You know as well as I do, I've NEVER managed to stay still longer than one minute in my life. Never. Yes, I know I thought I could...I'm allowed to overestimate myself...

(Under her breath.) ONE of us has to, you know. And God knows, you can't even on a really good day and after that one Harry Potter potion, liquid luck or whatever it's called...

It's just not for me. I think this month away from there has proven to me why it's not. (There's other reasons too, but she won't admit to those out loud even under threat of a therapist or torture. She keeps thinking about what had happened in her world after she died and she can't shake it and she just wants it to be okay, but it wasn't okay. It's not. Just not. And things are just so different, she isn't sure anymore.) Besides...no, that part isn't important. I just...I tried. I don't fit and I'd rather go back to floating around. I know how to do that.

So, yeah.... I tried. I can't do it. It's too hard even for me.

You're a fool for trying to keep this going when it's not working. I may be a fool, but I'm not as much of one as you are. A fool. Stupid. Stubborn.

Oh, and how about actually LEARNING how to speak the language instead of using fancy font next time...it's not hard...well, make the time then...

(She sighs.) Just go and make a new character and leave me alone.

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If you want to float, I'll float with you. If you want me to come with you.

(She pulls back a bit at that offer. She wasn't going to ask him to do that.)

What I want to do doesn't matter much, now does it? (She knows this is just her talking out wishful thinking/anger/whatever this was. Then she turns away when she hears her tone, definitely not one she wanted to take with him. This whole thing just makes her think "Oh look, I'm a creature of habit...who woulda thought that!?" To be honest, she just doesn't know how she feels right now.)

(A half sigh.) She's going to make me stay put anyway...

Edited 2015-06-16 02:41 (UTC)

[He looks guilty.] I'm sorry. I've kind of been...dragging you into everything. Springing a lot on you. It's a habit I can't seem to break.

You're not happy?

(No, let her be happy/content/whatever with hating her mun right now? She's perfectly okay with that arrangement right now. Don't give her a reason to move that onto him instead. Even when she's upset that guilty look makes her just not want to make it worse. Of course, she wants to have a few words about what he's told her, but that look...)

(She shakes her head.) No...not really. (She looks down, she really doesn't want to talk about this part with anyone, especially not him because she really doesn't want to ramble on and on.) I thought I wanted this, but now I'm not so sure. (She pauses and shakes her head) It's not even like what I'm used to...and yes, I mean before everything... and I know I'm putting too much into things. But, you can't blame me for that, right?

And before you even think of asking, I do want to talk to you about something because it's another reason...

And no, I'm not ending things. I'm putting that out there right now.

Edited ((Sorry for all the edits, just thought of things...)) 2015-06-16 03:42 (UTC)

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