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dear_mun2015-06-15 09:57 pm
reluctantaccessory) wrote in dear_mun2015-06-15 09:57 pm
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Muse is a little, no a lot P.O.'d...
(Marie sighs and tugs on a stand of her hair before finding herself deciding to give her mun the much needed kick in the ass. Of course, this is all said in German.)
Look, I think this is something you should have expected. It was a nice thing to think about, but...look, I'm just not the type who can settle down. Just think about it. Just think. When have you ever seen me not in some sort of dire straight or moving from place to place...
Yeah, that's what I thought. You know as well as I do, I've NEVER managed to stay still longer than one minute in my life. Never. Yes, I know I thought I could...I'm allowed to overestimate myself...
(Under her breath.) ONE of us has to, you know. And God knows, you can't even on a really good day and after that one Harry Potter potion, liquid luck or whatever it's called...
It's just not for me. I think this month away from there has proven to me why it's not. (There's other reasons too, but she won't admit to those out loud even under threat of a therapist or torture. She keeps thinking about what had happened in her world after she died and she can't shake it and she just wants it to be okay, but it wasn't okay. It's not. Just not. And things are just so different, she isn't sure anymore.) Besides...no, that part isn't important. I just...I tried. I don't fit and I'd rather go back to floating around. I know how to do that.
So, yeah.... I tried. I can't do it. It's too hard even for me.
You're a fool for trying to keep this going when it's not working. I may be a fool, but I'm not as much of one as you are. A fool. Stupid. Stubborn.
Oh, and how about actually LEARNING how to speak the language instead of using fancy font next time...it's not hard...well, make the time then...
(She sighs.) Just go and make a new character and leave me alone.
Look, I think this is something you should have expected. It was a nice thing to think about, but...look, I'm just not the type who can settle down. Just think about it. Just think. When have you ever seen me not in some sort of dire straight or moving from place to place...
Yeah, that's what I thought. You know as well as I do, I've NEVER managed to stay still longer than one minute in my life. Never. Yes, I know I thought I could...I'm allowed to overestimate myself...
(Under her breath.) ONE of us has to, you know. And God knows, you can't even on a really good day and after that one Harry Potter potion, liquid luck or whatever it's called...
It's just not for me. I think this month away from there has proven to me why it's not. (There's other reasons too, but she won't admit to those out loud even under threat of a therapist or torture. She keeps thinking about what had happened in her world after she died and she can't shake it and she just wants it to be okay, but it wasn't okay. It's not. Just not. And things are just so different, she isn't sure anymore.) Besides...no, that part isn't important. I just...I tried. I don't fit and I'd rather go back to floating around. I know how to do that.
So, yeah.... I tried. I can't do it. It's too hard even for me.
You're a fool for trying to keep this going when it's not working. I may be a fool, but I'm not as much of one as you are. A fool. Stupid. Stubborn.
Oh, and how about actually LEARNING how to speak the language instead of using fancy font next time...it's not hard...well, make the time then...
(She sighs.) Just go and make a new character and leave me alone.