Considering putting this one somewhere maybe. Muse is not happy...

[lerner]

Let me get this straight... You want to put me somewhere... and your 'reason's' are so that I can 'redeem myself?'

You've put me through enough hell for what I did. Trying to punish me as you see fit – You don't have the right to play god anymore.

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[lerner]

( This time Dawn would let out a broken laugh. Hell she wasn’t sure if it did at this point. She was dead wasn’t she? All she tried to do back there and how hard she tried to hold everything together… She had to believe it. She wouldn’t give herself a choice to believe otherwise even if she was having doubts. No, she couldn’t admit that – She wouldn’t )

I did what I had to do to keep things going - to keep them all going.

You were there when shit went down with O’Donnell because he found out what was going on – how I was covering for what you did so something like that wouldn’t happen… But it did. ( a pause. ) You think it would have stopped with O’Donnell if the rest of them found out? ( Dawn would dare take a step closer to close the distance between the two. Daring to almost stare the girl down with her question just itching for an answer. )

[imadeit]

And I did what I had to do to save Noah, save the others.

(She felt her tiny body shift slightly as she dare watch Dawn take another step forward, prepared for almost anything this woman was capable of because she knew Dawn now. She knew what kind of a person this woman happened to be that was now only inches away from her. She knew what Dawn could do if she very well wanted too. Yet Beth didn’t back down, she kept her own)

Nuthin was gonna stop back there. Nuthin at all. Even if ya did let me leave outta there, even with Noah, it wasn’t gonna get any better in that hospital for ya. (She dare take a step closer herself, large eyes peering into the ones of her killer) Ya and I both know that. Even if ya still wanna stand ‘ere and believe that those people back there, any of ‘em was gonna back ya up on anythang.

(She dare take the chance and say what she was going to say next, fist staying clinched by her sides)

Ya were gonna die no matter what...

D:!!! /just...dies...

[lerner]

( [Touché], although Dawn on the other hand wasn’t amused. No her eyes narrowed along the girl as she spoke those words. In the end, it became about Noah. How that kid had caused her and her officers so much trouble trying to find him – The death of Lamson…It was enough to cause the woman to clench a fist at her side. )

You think that was saving him back there? He would have been fine if you hadn’t done what you did, you, would have been fine, I would have been fine, and we all could have gone our separate ways. Gone about how things were supposed to be. ( Dawn’s expression would remain stern as she felt anger brewing inside of her.

She was almost surprised when Beth took her own step forward. Dawn could see that defiance in the girl stronger than ever as those large blue eyes peered into her own dark blue eyes. Of course, Dawn wasn’t afraid. Never was, not of Beth especially, although some of the other officers…Well that was a different story Beth didn’t need to hear from her. )

You don’t know anything about those people back there, how scared they all were and how they needed desperately for someone to step up to the plate. Someone who would protect them – Just as I was protecting you.

( The wards were one thing. She knew they wouldn’t do anything, but some of the other officers? She knew who she could trust and who she couldn’t. Knew who the problems were…So she took care of them. Well, indirectly anyway.

It was a harsh truth to face what Beth said next. How she was gonna die no matter what. She’d let out a scoff. Of course… The way things were going, the way Beth was stirring up all kinds of trouble back there for her… )

If I was gonna die back there, then so were you. You’d be gone long before I would have the way you were going – If I hadn’t covered for you all those times…

( She was so close to loosing it. So close to just lashing out at the girl… Dawn’s eyes would fall to the floor for a moment… )

You saved me just to get us both killed in the end… ( Her voice lowered. This time Dawn would let out a broken laugh. She had to. She couldn’t wrap her head around it. It all happened so damn fast… )

D: !!!!!!!!!!! *BRINGS BACK TO LIIIIIIIFEEEEEEES*

[imadeit]

He got out didn’t he? He’s with my people now. (She would look at the woman before her, the woman who in the end got the very last of them both. Still Beth wasn’t afraid, didn’t show any sign of it. Instead she just stiffened her tiny form, kept her posture straight as she shook her head)

Ya wouldn’t have been fine, Dawn...(She whispers softly as large eyes begin to water but still remain haunted and determined) Noah wouldn’t either. Don’t work that way. Thangs were never right back there and they sure as hell wasn’t gonna get any better if I walked out that hospital just fine. Noah wouldn’t had stayed, Rick woulda just came back for ‘im. Yer people woulda hurt ya, if not worse...

(Large, bright eyes stayed along the woman, just waiting for Dawn to try any little thing. Honestly Beth didn’t blame her, hell she was pretty much expecting for the woman to lash out. Rather it be screaming, hitting her or something far worse. She didn’t know just what this place they were both in happened to allow. Either way she was strong and she would make her final stand as she had the very first time something like this happened)

You and yer officers were treatin those poor people like shit! All of ‘em. Keepin ‘em there gainst their will, tryin to act like ya’ll were playin hero. Things were fallin part back there way before Rick and the others came to get me and Carol. Ya just don’t wanna admit it. When that man came after ya like he did...(Her voice trailed off at that)

Things happen the way they should. They just do. Maybe we were suppose to die together? Sometimes that’s just what it takes...

(Dawn’s last words were enough to make Beth’s large, bright eyes begin to sparkle with hot, wet tears. Both of them knew Beth sure as hell wasn’t a killer, she never had been. Maybe that was why she couldn’t stab the woman in the throat but either way she had stabbed her.)

Didn’t know that they were gonna kill ya. Just like I didn’t know ya were gonna kill me but...(a pause). It ‘appened that way. It just did....

I'M ALIVE! Ugghhh this week has kicked my ass royally

[lerner]

( Dawn would give a broken smile at that. She remembered how they all came in there so sure they were gonna do their little trade – Licari and Shepherd for Beth and that other woman – neglecting to see that they also owed Noah as well. It was a stupid move on that kid’s part to leave in the first place…But she knew… She’d look up at Beth again. )

Yes. He ‘got out’, Beth. But the part you’re leaving out is that boy couldn’t hold his own out there. He needed someone to take care of him, to protect him. Noah had no problem coming back to me – where I was protecting him. ( and like she said before they always come back. ) Now that I’m gone? Where else could he be protected like that? Boy was just doing what was best for him in the end, even if it was leaving with ‘your people’.

( The girl’s expression didn’t go unnoticed to Dawn. She too was also haunted and determined from what happened. Far as she was concerned things were starting to turn around until those last moments went down… )

Everyone would have been fine, Beth…Everyone… ( She’d shake her head at that as her voice trailed. )

Things were going just fine there until you started stirring up things. How many times did I had to step in to save you just so things wouldn’t… ( Dawn would shake her head again feeling frustrated about how the whole thing was a constant uphill battle. ) Things needed to work a certain way back at that hospital. I told you this before. Why can’t you understand that?

( Her eyes drifted to the ground again. ) Even if that man did come back for him, they wouldn’t have succeeded. Wouldn’t have worked the way you think it would. ( Oh Beth, how she thought she had her and her officers all figured out. She’d almost laugh at that but a broken smile kept it in, instead a short breath of air escaped. She’d look back at the girl before continuing. ) Those people needed someone to lead them. Wasn’t anyone else back there that could. They wouldn’t have done anything.

( She’d be quick to add to what Beth started about with her comment about O’Donnell. )

–When ‘than man’ came after me I knew what had to be done. For me and for you. It’s like I said, Gorman and O’Donnell were bad people. The world won’t miss them. The rest of them wouldn’t have hurt me. But if they found out about what you did…Your safety? ...I wasn’t gonna let that happen. Not after what you did for me.

…But I guess it doesn’t matter now, does it?

I don’t know if things really do happen the way they should. But we’re here now. What ever this place is, we’re here and gone from the world we were in before. It didn’t need to be that way Beth.

Awwww! *pets you softly* :)

[imadeit]

(Oh to see that broken little smile form along Dawn’s pretty features was enough to make Beth’s large eyes narrow, fist clinching by her sides even tighter, enough to turn knuckles white. If only she had another pair of small scissors tucked away somewhere but again that wouldn’t solve a damn thing. There wasn’t anyone around to kill Dawn this time, the woman was lucky for that at least but the anger she was feeling was enough to make her take another step forward, only inches away from the woman like she had been the very last time they were face to face like this.)

Noah did good out there. Found my friends, found my family, brought ‘em back there to save me. He did good, did good. He was makin it out there just fine. Kept away from yer officers, kept ‘imself hidden. Reason he came back with Rick and everybody was to save me. Came back cause he knew where the hospital was, came back to help. Didn’t come back cause he was weak or scared, didn’t come back to you. (She was say lowly, though it sounded more like she was hissing the words out as she stared Dawn dead in the eyes, as if she were daring this woman, her killer to say other wise)He’s strong, might not know it but he is. He’s with Rick, Daryl, my sister, they’re gonna take real good care of ‘em, might even get ‘im back home where he wants to be, where he belongs. Either way, he’s safe. He’s protected.

(And she would stand by that. Rick was a good man, good leader, she would never think other wise. The whole group was a strong set of people, they would be able to help Noah, keep him safe. She then shook her head at Dawn’s words, loose hair falling along her still cut and gashed face)

Ya know damn well that ain’t true. Everyone wasn’t gonna be fine, never was. ...(She would go to say)


(Now it was her turn to give a little smile once Dawn admitted that Beth had been stirring up things. Of course the girl didn’t really see it that way, she was just simply seeing things as they were, how they had been back at that hospital and they sure as hell weren’t good things) Didn’t stir up nuthin...(She would reply softly) Just ‘appened to see things as they were back there. Things might have hada work a “certain” way but didn’t mean that way was right. How those people were treated back there, how they couldn’t leave. Girls gettin raped like that by yer people....ain’t nuthin to understand. Wasn’t gonna let that ‘appen to me. Was protectin myself.


(The girl would just glance down herself, eyes roaming along her old boots for a moment. Oh how Dawn underestimated the group who came in to save her, how she knew nothing about Rick, Daryl or anyone. She then would slowly look back up herself, a small smile forming along her lips) Ya don’t know Rick like I do. Don’t know none of ‘em. Noah woulda got out there no matter what and you, you woulda died either way. That’s how Rick works. Those people needed a leader that was gonna keep ‘em safe. Not someone who was just gonna stay by and turn her head like she didn’t see nuthin goin on. Just kept pretendin that everything was alright....

(Yeah, she said it)

Yer so fast to think they wouldn’t? So fast to think that those people ya call friends, ya call yer best officers wouldn’t turn their backs on ya, wouldn’t hurt ya at all? (She laughs a little at that) This world changes people. It does, ain’t know stop that. We are who we are now and those people back there....(She points behind her slightly) didn’t give a shit bout you. Not anymore....

....Guess not, huh?

Don't know where we are, how far we are neither but we're here. Don't really know how but...(a pause as she shrugs a little)

Lots of things didn't need to be the way they were back there but they were, weren't they?