Eli stop angsting

[truestpatriot]

I don't have the right to use that username. And most of the icons you choose for me still have me in uniform.

Can we stop playing pretend before we even start? I don't have the energy for this. And being honest, neither do you.

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...I thought so. But you can't say I didn't try.

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[truestpatriot]

Oh God I did, didn't I? I threw a shield at Bucky.

I made... I made a mistake. A huge one. It might destroy a lot of people's lives.

[kneecaptain]

I wish I could say I hadn't done the same.

[truestpatriot]

How do you get over doing something like that? How do you live knowing what you did?

[kneecaptain]

I don't really know what to tell you, Eli. I'm still figuring it out.

But I do know it's something you have to own up to. Not something you gotta run away from.

[truestpatriot]

I'm not running away! I'm not- I just... I just can't do it anymore.

I can't live with the fear I'll fuck things up even worse next time.

[kneecaptain]

I didn't say you were. [Bucky runs away from things, true story.]

Really, I don't know what's going on with you at all.

[truestpatriot]

What's going on is that I'm not the patriot anymore.

[kneecaptain]

There's gotta be more to it than that, right?

[truestpatriot]

Because of me, tons of mutants might not get their powers back.

[kneecaptain]

And their powers, did they lose them because of you, too?