Eli stop angsting

[truestpatriot]

I don't have the right to use that username. And most of the icons you choose for me still have me in uniform.

Can we stop playing pretend before we even start? I don't have the energy for this. And being honest, neither do you.

[...]

...I thought so. But you can't say I didn't try.

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[truestpatriot]

It sounds like we finally agree on something.

Which is why I have to quit. It wasn't just a live I ruined, it was millions. I can't keep pretending I know what I'm doing.

[artemisaim]

For once.

I'm not gonna argue. You made a mistake. But it would be unfair of me to say "yeah Eli it's all your fault" because we all made mistakes. It shouldn't have turned out the way it did. I mean, I was the leader, I should have made sure it didn't turn out the way it did. The blame can't be placed on just one person.

[truestpatriot]

I stole your arrow, Kate. I almost killed Billy's mom. And because of me, an endless number of mutants won't get the chance to get their powers back.

I'm not saying you are not to blame. [...Eli, really.] But I just can't do this anymore. Too many people's lives at a stake.

[artemisaim]

You stole my bow. You shouldn't have done that. Especially when you clearly have no idea how to use it. That's all true. But stop acting like everything terrible that happened because of this whole thing is all your fault. It's not. Wanda's still going to fix what happened to the mutants.

Wow Eli, you're still so good at making me feel better. [She already knows that she screwed up as a leader] That's your decision.

[truestpatriot]

Is she going to fix what happened to Stature? What Iron Lad did to Vision? Will she be able to fix every single life I ruined because I was too blind to realize that deep down I am still a kid with a hero complex?

That we all are?

[artemisaim]

No. Nothing is going to fix that. You know that and so do I. Look, nothing is going to make this better. Nothing is going to bring Cassie back, nothing is going to change the fact that Iron Lad murdered Vision and nothing is going to stop making us all feel like we majorly screwed up. I'm just trying to say that it wasn't totally your fault.

[truestpatriot]

Always so thoughtful and understanding. I will be able to sleep better this night knowing that while I might destroyed millions of lives, it wasn't entirely my fault in your opinion.

[artemisaim]

What do you want me to say here, Eli? I could say it'll all be okay but that'd probably just piss you off. I already told you I'm not going to agree and say it was all your fault. Because it wasn't. So I'm not sure what exactly you want me to do.

[truestpatriot]

I want to do the right thing. We all know we can't just keep doing this- keep losing people, keep endangering innocents.

So why is everybody acting like I'm being a coward by doing what I think is the right thing, for once?

[artemisaim]

Funny, I don't remember once acting like you're a coward. If you want to quit, that's your decision and there's nothing I can do about it. But I'm also not going to sit here and act like you were right the entire time. That's all.

[truestpatriot]

Exactly. It's my decision and if I choose to not be Patriot anymore, I'm entitled to be pissed off if a mundane ignores that choice.

[artemisaim]

I never said you weren't. You can be pissed off at whatever you want. We both know that's something you've always been really good at.

...But, if it counts for anything, I don't think you're anywhere near as terrible as you seem to think you are.

[truestpatriot]

...I think that's the closest to a compliment I've ever gotten from you. I must really look down.

[artemisaim]

Oh come on, I've complimented you before. [Only if the slightly troll-y "hell of a kiss" comment in Asgard counts] I'm just being honest. You wouldn't have been with us for so long if you were really a terrible person.

[truestpatriot]

I never said I was a terrible person. You don't need to be a terrible person to make mistakes too big to go back.

[artemisaim]

You know, you're really hard to cheer up.