Season 2 Finale - first time writing Kenny.

[loudmanwithabeard]

... Fuck.

 [ Kenny buries his face in his hands. He'd just left Clementine at Wellington. He already missed her. ]

I had to.. I had to walk before I turned back around for her.  Lee would'a wanted this, you think? It must'a been so hard for him to accept when he had to say goodbye.

And, well... I fucked up so bad back at the gas station... whether Jane riled me up or not. [ He fights to keep his voice level ] Clem and AJ will be safest there.

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[loudmanwithabeard]

"Sarita..." His fists clench shut so tight his knuckles whiten, his shoulders tightening. "Don't! Please, just don't mention.." His voice raises. He exhales again, his breathing seeming labored. "Clem, jus'-- damn it--!"

[ohmydarlinme]

Yep, still mad. She tensed slightly, almost expecting another outbirst, even taking a small, nervous step back. ".. I'm sorry."

Sorry for bringing it up and sorry for what she had to do.

[loudmanwithabeard]

"It's jus'-- damn it!" He feels his nails digging into his own hands and grunts. "It's just not fair.." He looks back to Clem through his watery eye and feels horrible. She'd moved away expecting him to lash out at her. He puffs out another breath, still shaking. "Fuck... No, damn it, it's not you-- It's jus', this whole world is fucked!"

He wipes his sleeve across his face, trying to clear his vision. "Every time I get somethin' to live for... It gets taken away. By the walkers or my own fuck-ups."

[ohmydarlinme]

Yeah it was true. But he wasn't the only one who lost loved ones - not that this was a competition. As far as she knew, there were so few people left from their original group. Still it's a sentiment she understood - she felt the same way sometimes. Everytime she got close to someone, they died.

"We still have each other.." Even if you scare the shit out of her sometimes. She's known you the longest.

this got dark really fast. I'm sorry.

[loudmanwithabeard]

"Yeah, but am I worth havin' at this point? 'm broken! Jane knew that, I killed 'er, what if it was--!" His skin paled a bit. He couldn't imagine turning on Clem, but he seemed to be doing everything else wrong. The thought chilled him to the bone. "Jesus.. I-I don't feel good."

Well it is the Walking Dead universe :D

[ohmydarlinme]

He ...killed Jane? Now -that- thought makes her sick to her stomach - she'd liked Jane, thought of her as an older sister. And she was their friend- what could possibly have made him do that?

"..." Oh man. What does she even say? It's not like she's never seen him like that before. "Kenny.."

[loudmanwithabeard]

"She.. she pushed me to.. Sh-she made it seem like she killed AJ!" His voice is very high-pitched by this point, he sounded hysterical. He thinks Clem is disgusted with him and he shouldn't be surprised, but he's panicking. He didn't want her to hate him.

He raises his hands up in front of him, "Jus'- jus'- you believe me, right? We-we heard him after it happened, b-but sh-she knew she could've stopped it by jus' spillin' it! Hell, she stabbed me in the stomach earlier on, I thought she was gonna kill me!"

[ohmydarlinme]

"I.. I don't understand..." Well, not only that, but she didn't like how hysterical he was getting. "Why--" Ah the glory of timelines. "Jane.. wouldn't do something like that.." She didn't hate him, no way. She was worried for him though. She didn't know how to help him, and it frightened her when he got angry and hysterical.

[loudmanwithabeard]

"Sh-she did, I swear on it, I wouldn't--" He gasps, clutching his head in his hands. "F-fuck... I-I know... it sounds real bad.. Earlier on she was using Sarita's death against me, sayin' I let her die. She wanted me to get angry..."

[ohmydarlinme]

"But... i.. it was an accident.. right?" Killing Jane? Not that she hasn't seen them kill people before but still. Things were supposed to be different. How is teamwork supposed to..well.. work if everyone is at each other's throats? "Why would she do that..?" It didn't make sense - but Kenny wouldn't lie either.

[loudmanwithabeard]

Kenny froze when he heard her asking if it was an accident. A knife had been positioned above her chest. That didn't seem like an accident, and he felt horrible because he knew he wouldn't be able to lie to her convincingly about it. Instead, the man gazed at the ground with a look of guilt on his face. He hated his actions.

[ohmydarlinme]

No answer was just as much of an answer as giving her one. It was no accident. Kenny dies, Jane dies and Clem was literally left holding the baby.

"...this sucks."

[loudmanwithabeard]

"I-I know, Clem. I'm so sorry. But at least I ... at Wellington, you'd be safe. Safer than staying with me..."

[ohmydarlinme]

"But I'd be alone." With a bunch of strangers. Again.

[loudmanwithabeard]

It's true and he hated that. He breathes out a sigh, looking tired. He shakes his head and closes his eye. "Hell.." He doesn't know what to say to that, so he sits there and looks guilty.