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On thinking of apping into cityofariel

Are...you really considering me?

[There's a blush burning brightly on her cheeks. The thought of being put in a sex game makes her nervous.

She was just getting used to people being nice to her and now to do those kind of things with strangers. She wasn't sure she could do it.]

I...don't think I'll be very good. And...would Mukuro-sama approve? I don't want to anger him or, get in his way.

[And then she considers something, her purple eyes lit up with curiosity.]...If Mukuro-sama likes this place...would I like it too?

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Haha! Don't worry about Mukuro-san!

I bet he'll be happy to see you. [Glossing over the whole Ariel-being-a-place-where-sex-happens, of course. It's always better to be with your friends though, right? Especially if you can't go home for a while - even if it's not Namimori and there is a chip inside your head, making you do funny things]

Ah...[It was one of the guardians.]...Yamamoto?

[She really didn't know how to deal with everyone, but at least he was being kind to her. She searches for what to say, but her priorities remain the same.] So...Mukuro-sama is fine? That's good.

[She smiles a little. If it was a bad place then, she would be worried. But if Mukuro was okay, then she believes so will she.] A-are you also there?

[Haha well it's not like Yamamoto is a good judge, but it doesn't seem like a bad place. There are plenty of nice people there. He even includes Mukuro in the mix. He'd given him a pretty straight-forward pep talk when Yamamoto arrived, after all, and he really took that advice to heart] Mm. I've been there for... maa, about two months now?

Wow, it feels longer than that, haha!

T-two months? [That was a while. Her eyebrows raises at Yamamoto feeling that it was longer?]

Is that because....[She blushes, kind of forgetting her train of thought. It was a little embarrassing to say out loud. Even to Yamamoto who she's observed to be pretty carefree.]...You're busy?

[Doing...you know...]

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Saa, I guess that's how it is. I work now instead of going to school and practicing! Haha, can you believe it? They don't even have a baseball team, but Kisa-san is starting up basketball teams, so maybe I'll do my best too.

[A pause before it occurs to him. A more likely answer to that question] Oh, and time moves differently too. It's pretty hard to keep track of haha!

[No, he really doesn't know at all]

W-work? [But wasn't he a minor?

And Chrome really didn't know much about Yamamoto's fascination with baseball, so she just nods, silently.]

Can't you just start a baseball team, then? [But she really didn't know the difference between the two sports. Maybe it was the same, which is why Yamamoto didn't mind.

Just then the rain guardian mentions something interesting.] Time? So it doesn't go by my mun's time?

You're shitting me, right? You're going to a place like that just because that asshole likes it?

[Oh it was the one who was similar to Ken...in terms of attitude. She stares blankly for a moment, before shaking her head softly.]

This...isn't my decision. [She then shrugs a little, a bit unsure at first, but she decides to voice her opinion.]

B-but if it's a place that Mukuro-sama enjoys. And I like the things that he likes. So, it wouldn't be bad to be sent there.

[Even if you had to do those kind of things there...]

You like the things he likes? You?

[He scowls.]

Che. Maybe I've misjudged you then.

[We're they talking about the same likes? It didn't seem to matter either way.]

...yes. [Her voice is low, but her words are nothing but confident. She liked everything Mukuro liked, though it wasn't the same things Gokudera considered.]

...Maybe, you have.[She likes Boss and the others, but she's loyal to Mukuro first.]

B-but I don't think it's bad to like those things.

So you really think you'll like screwing fucking strangers because he does?

[Chrome blushes at that, stricken into speechlessness. Well...she didn't like the idea of doing that.]

I...i'm not as strong as Mukuro-sama. [ Though she was sure it did bother him in some way. Mukuro liked to be in control. But the illusionist was strong enough to view it as it was. Surivival. What needed to be done.]

I...wouldn't be comfortable at first. I know this might even scar me, b-but...I want to be a stronger person. I want to be the type of person that wouldn't allow something like this to break me.

If Mukuro-sama likes these activities then...I will do my best as well.

That's fucking screwed up!

[Gokudera stares at the girl in abject horror, too aghast to try and hide it.]

That's almost like saying you'd accept rape because it'll make you fucking stronger. Getting used to being fucked by other people won't make you stronger--it'll just make you fucked up.

...well I'll be giving my consent...[It wasn't really rape.

She feels that Gokudera was getting the wrong idea about her decision.] A-and even in that situation wouldn't I have to choose who I do those things with?

[It wasn't like she was stripping in front of everyone, and allowing them to do what they liked. Mukuro-sama would definitely frown upon that. And although she had low self esteem, she believes she deserves better than that.]

...I know it's a lot to take in. B-but if my mun puts me in that situation I wouldn't have a choice. I can't complain about it, all I can do is play along by her lead.

I can't fight her will.

Fucking muns...

~~((Shut up, Gokudera.))~~

Yeah? Well, good luck with that. I've been-- [Stops abruptly and flushes a little.] You won't always be able to choose. Not in a sex game.

Ah? [She blinks, he was about to say something. It sounds almost as if...] ...H-how do you know?

Did your mun put you in one?

Sh-Shut up!

[Blushing harder.]

It's common knowledge, you idiot!

[Chrome doesn't voice it, but it seems that it was true. Well if Gokudera was getting uncomfortable, she wouldn't say anymore of it.]

Common knowledge? I'm new to this "game" idea. [She was a new muse after all.]

So...they can really make you do...things...with strangers?

Then your mun's a fucking idiot for making your first game a sex game! ~~((sorry, Mac!))~~

They can and they will. Maybe even force you to fuck people you don't like at all. And I'm sure that fucking Mukuro has a lot of enemies by now...

B-but she believes I would be a good fit for that kind of game? Is she wrong?

[Though, being told that she will be forced to have sex with people she disliked, even Mukuro's enemies displeases her.]

...B-but what can I do? My mun is already writing the app.

And I don't want to make things difficult for Mukuro-sama. How can I convince her?

Like I said, she's an idiot! Do you think you're a good fit for a game like that? Seriously?

[Gokudera huffs, and then falls silent as he contemplates her question. He sighs in defeat.]

Nothing really. Fucking muns get away with stuff like this all the time.

I don't...but she believes in me. Even so much to create me in her head space. I'm not sure I'll meet her expectations though.

[Because she knew nothing about sex. She was pretty ignorant to a lot of things.]

I...don't want to let her down, but...I don't want to do those kind of things either. But it seems I don't have a choice.

[Gokudera snorts.]

Well, my mun says you'll fucking learn soon enough if you're living in her headspace. Tch. Pair of perverts...

[Chrome pauses...]

So there's no way to convince her. Her mind is already made up...and...[Another pause.]

S-she agrees with that statement.

[Facepalms.]

Makes that a shameless pair of perverts! ~~((Oi, no! Just her!!))~~

You better brace yourself for this...

Brace myself? [How? She feels like she was stuck in a whirlwind, and there was no way to get out.]

D-do you think I'll be okay?

[You were getting her kind of scared now.]

Of course you won't be OK! You said it yourself, right? You know you're going to come out scarred from this!

[And does he let up? Nope.]

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Well...as long as Mukuro-sama is there...

[She clasps her hands together, her purple eyes closes in deep meditation as if she was making a silent prayer.] ...I'll be fine.

And even if he wasn't there...I have to be strong no matter what.

Fuck. Stop making it sound like it's some kind of mission or trial. It's not. The place you're going to is fucked up--that's it.

...there's no changing the place I'm going to.

But I can at least have a positive attitude. Resisting is useless, so what else is there?

Being careful. Go in with that attitude and you'll definitely end up tricked by some asshole--or worse.

Being careful? [ Chrome was expecting Gokudera to say something else.

She smiles. Maybe the storm guardian didn't think too bad of her after all.] I will. I'll try my best to be cautious.

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You better!

[And wouldn't you know it, he doesn't realize he's actually almsot being nice just yet.]

And tell that fucking asshole Mukuro to take care of you. And stay close to him during events!

Ah, I'll ask him. And stay close to him during events.[But it was really up to Mukuro if he wants to, he always had his own agenda.

And what were events?]

...Ah T-thank you, Gokudera-san.

[--!]

Che! The hell are you thinking me for?! I couldn't care less what happens to you or that asshole there.

[The smile doesn't falter. She knows Gokudera doesn't have a high opinion of Mukuro, and probably dislikes her because of her association with the illusionist.

But even if Gokudera says he didn't care, she feels he wouldn't say these things if he didn't. But she doesn't make this claim, knowing the Storm guardian would just deny it anyway.]

...for your advice.Thank you for that.

Tsk.

...Whatever. [Pause.] Good luck.

[End?]

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