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Really? What's happening to her in your world? [She doesn't know much of what happened to Ryou after the Ceremonial Duel. She does hope that the other is getting on well in her life, considering what had happened as long as she had known the girl.]

Are you happy where you are, Suzaku-san?

I... well... it's probably something she should tell you, Yuugi-san. It is a bit personal, after all.

[There's a bit of a pause as he contemplates.]

I'm not entirely sure. There's a lot of things I'd change if I could, things I would do differently if I was able, but... we did the things we set out to do. I don't know if 'happy' is the exact word, maybe content.

...All right. I'll ask her about it the next time I see her. [And then she can squee and aww at Ryou's son's baby pictures, because babies, man.]

Do you miss them, your friends?

I miss the ones that are lost to me, yes.

[Like Euphemia. He knows what happened now and he... he doesn't blame Lelouch anymore, not really, but it still hurts. Know that he failed her, as her Knight and as her... whatever he had been.]

[He seems so heartbroken and sad, she can't help but feel for him. He must've been through a lot in his lifetime. She didn't know if there was a way to make it up to him, but she'd at least try to be understanding.]

...I'm sorry for your loss.

[He gives her a small smile and a shake of his head.]

Don't be... it was a over a year ago and you didn't know. Besides, her dream is alive, so she's still with me in a way.

[Aww... Suzaku.... That's so sad, yet so sweet. Don't be sad, friend Suzaku.]

Then, I hope that her dream keeps coming true and, if you have any too, that they come true as well.

[Oh, Yuugi, why are you so nice? Honestly.]

To be honest, I'm not sure I have any. Just duty.

[Because she's a little girl with a big heart. Honestly, how she stays so nice to everyone is a mystery in of itself. She knows when to put her foot down if someone is mistreating someone else, but yeah, most of the time, she will be nice to people.]

Do you have something that you would fight for? Something that... [Well, no, he probably didn't, just from what he's just said.]

Lelouch, Nunnally and the dream that Euphie and so many others died for.

[She goes quiet for a moment, thinking it over. He does have something that he's willing to fight for. Maybe it's the closest thing he has that makes him happy?]

I stand with my friends. I always try to be there when they need me and try to help the best I can. I won't stand for bullying either, since I know what it's like to be on the receiving of that.

You are a much more noble person then I will ever be, Yuugi-san.

Don't say things like that. I think you're quite a noble person, Suzaku-san.

That's because you don't know me.

[It's gently, his tone, but sad as well. Because it's true - she doesn't know the things he has said and done. He more then deserved his title of the Great Betrayer and he knew it.]

[Dude, didn't we already discuss this? Don't be sad, friend Suzaku. Is hugging even possible in this... space? Because she would so do that right now.]

...You've been hurting for a while, haven't you?

I don't... know if it'll help matters or not, but... if you want to talk or anything, I'm willing to listen.

I appreciate that, Yuugi-san, I really do... but believe me, you would be much better off not hearing anything that I would tell you.

[Well, she's heard some stories in her days. Maybe he might reconsider...]

You know a bit about Ryou-chan's story, right? Well... she's not the only one of my friends that's... had something bad happen to them or just they just have bad situations.

A friend of ours, Jounouchi-kun, he comes from an abusive home where his dad drinks a lot and gambles a lot. He was involved in a gang when he was young. He takes on a lot of odd jobs to try and help his dad out and his younger sister when she was going blind.

The friend of mine that I mentioned that likes chess? He lost both of his parents at a young age, his other relatives abandoning him and his younger brother at an orphanage. They were adopted by a cruel business tycoon that drove him to nearly forget everything that was important to him, turning him just as cruel and cold-hearted.

Another friend of mine, he was raised in catacombs most of his life, carrying such a hatred for Mou Hitori no Watashi, even though he had been dead for thousands of years. His inner darkness nearly drove him insane, creating a darker ego that had no qualms about destroying, if not killing someone. As a matter of fact, he did... a few people. Mai, Jounouchi-kun, even Ryou-chan and her spirit, he stole and sealed away their souls. We were lucky to be able to defeat his inner darkness, that living your life hating someone is no way to live life.

So, I think that, anything that you would tell me, I'm still willing to listen, if you want to talk about it.

I've killed over thirty-five million people, Yuugi-san.

[His ton is flat, detached. He hates himself for what he did to the Tokyo Settlement, but he knows he can't change what's been done.]

[Oh. Well... That...]

...You sound like you regret it, though. [Maybe it was something that happened outside of his control? Maybe he was forced against his will to kill all those people?]

Of course I do - but it's something that I cannot change. It happened and I have to live with it.

[Because his best friend cursed him to 'live on' - no matter what.]

No, we usually can't go back into the past and change things for the better. [Even though she kinda sorta did. It was more a game world that was based on past events, not actually going to the past, but they did help Atem out and all that. But that's not the point here.]

But, you do regret it now. And you know that you won't do it again. It's probably not enough, I know, but...

... no. I can't say that, Yuugi-san, as much as I wish I could.

I'm a Knight in service of his Emperor. I do as I'm ordered, for the better good of the Empire. While neither of us what something like that to happen again, you cannot deny that it could.

...No, I'm sorry to say that I can't deny that. [Bad things happen in the world and there's no stopping that, no matter what; she understands that much.]

But, I'm sure both of you are doing all that you can to try and prevent it from happening again, or anything similar to it.

We do. It might take some time before Nunnally gets her kinder, more gentle world, but we're all committed and devoted to making it a reality.

[Of course, she has to smile at that. Suzaku wasn't that bad of a guy all along, she figured.]

That sounds like a great goal. I do hope it does become a reality for you guys.

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