at exitvoid.

[wedged]

Shut up! Four days before people finding out is way longer than anyone else could have kept the secret! ( no, kyon, transforming to a cat after less than a week in game is actually

pretty pathetic. )

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[akito_sohma]

That isn't a good record, Kyo.

LITERALLY LAUGHED HYSTERICALLY AT THIS NOTIF

[wedged]

S- shut up! ( that awkward moment where he wants to hit someone

but it's akito

and akito is akito and he hates akito but it's akito????????? ) It's a hell of a lot better than how that bastard would have done! Three days better!

:D awwwwkward~

[akito_sohma]

You mean Yuki? [Because she likes to give him a hard time forever and ever.] He would have lasted longer.

curls up in a ball and dies

[wedged]

Like hell! ( y e p yuki would have lasted like five seconds. obviously. obviously. hey, since he just clearly defeated yuki, he's free, right? )

>.> /pokes with a stick

[akito_sohma]

His self control far outshines yours. [That's not how it works, you silly cat.] But his burdens are less.

revives, still giggling

[wedged]

( okay, that first part has him ready to yell some more, but then he kind of —

pauses —

because that was a weird thing for akito to say? )

\owo/ victory.

[akito_sohma]

[She arches a brow, smiling faintly.]

Why do you look so shocked?

[wedged]

Since when do you give a shit about burdens?

[akito_sohma]

I've always noticed them. I just never gave you any sympathy.

[wedged]

( no shit, says kyo's facial expression.

this is some kind of scheme, isn't it. there's always that uncomfortable mix of hate and but, it's akito. like he wants akito's pity! but then the part of him that isn't really him… kind of does want akito's approval and acceptance. the entire family's.

but he recognises it and can fight it. )

I don't want your 'sympathy.'

[akito_sohma]

Good. Stand on your own. [She is fully encouraging him to do this.] You don't need my approval or anyone else's.

[wedged]

What the hell are you up to?

[akito_sohma]

I'm being myself. Does that frighten you?

[wedged]

This isn't yourself.

[akito_sohma]

But it is. [Her true self isn't one he has ever seen before.] I'm done being your god.

[wedged]

( bullshit, is what his face, every fibre of his being is screaming. but there's only so far he can argue with akito, only so much he can push… no matter how tough he talks. )

[akito_sohma]

You're the Cat. But you won't always be that way. [She tugs on her shirt just so, letting her chest be visible for a moment. Why yes, those are breasts.] We were all cursed to be monsters, Kyo. I am Akito Sohma, daughter of Akira and Ren Sohma.

[wedged]

( he kind of stopped listening the second he realised




what

what

akito is a what

he jumps back! )

You're a —

[akito_sohma]

Woman? [This is kind of fun. Keep freaking out, Kyo. Free entertainment~] I've always been a woman.

[wedged]

You're a guy!

[akito_sohma]

My anatomy says differently.

If you're not convinced, talk to Shigure. Or Hatori. Or Ayame.

[wedged]

( quit playing games… is what he would say if akito was anyone else. no way. they wouldn't keep it a secret…

well…

okay, they might not tell him, but he'd have still heard from someone else, third hand, right? it's some dumb ploy. )

[akito_sohma]

[She sighs and watches him, looking caught between sadness and amusement.]

Kyo, I'm not lying. My mother is the one who wanted me to be raised as a boy. She threatened to kill me in the womb if I wasn't.

[Which Kyo probably thinks might have been a positive move.]

She didn't want to share my father. After he died, I took his place as head of the Sohma and...as a boy.

[wedged]

( yeah, he can't say a world without akito would be a bad one…

it's hypocritical, maybe. he knows very well what it's like to have parents who hate you. but. )

Are you trying to get sympathy? Is that your new thing?

[akito_sohma]

I don't deserve your sympathy or anyone else's. [That's said flatly.] All I can do is make your futures better - and I intend to do just that.

[wedged]

( this is so weird his brain can't even process it. it's like he's talking to a totally different akito. one who is also a girl, apparently. it's got to be some kind of joke, or trick.

despite his reluctance and fear and loathing and conflicting desire to be accepted, he wants to believe it. he has very good, very selfish reasons for wanting to cling to this idea of bizzaro akito, and the reasons are as follows: )

The bet?

[akito_sohma]

You win. [She smiles without a hint of malice.] Go, be happy, Kyo. You'll always have a home in the estate, but I can understand that it holds bad memories for you.

[wedged]

( there's no way it's going to be that easy. it's almost more offensive that it is that easy. )

I've never had a home there! Go to hell!

[akito_sohma]

You do now. [Not even a flinch.] I've spoken to your father and the Cat's room will be destroyed.

[wedged]

( he wants to believe that, but there's no way. this is just too different, too severe a change. it's not real. he wonders who akito means by "father", anyway. there's no way his biological father would allow that, and he can't see him… uh, her… referring to shishou like that. )

[akito_sohma]

You doubt me? [Her smile turns nasty.] Your father - biological father, that is - wouldn't dare cross me. I don't care what gender I am.

[wedged]

"You" wouldn't do any of this. ( the more he thinks about it, the more sure he is. insert kicked cat metaphors; it's very, very easy not to trust a word he… she… says, even if a part of him wants to desperately. )

[akito_sohma]

You mean god wouldn't. I'm not god. I'm Akito.

[She is prepared for this argument and it is a good one.]

I'm not cursed anymore. You can sense that.

[wedged]

( she's not?

that explains, at least, why he's able to talk back so much. as rude as he usually is anyway, he can't normally find the nerve to say these things aloud. of course… that just makes him angrier. sure, "god" breaks the curse on herself, and leaves him. he doesn't expect anything else. )

[akito_sohma]

I don't have control over breaking it, Kyo. [At least not complete control.] It will break for you...and everyone else. My curse broke at the same time as everyone else's. I'm not special.

[dogspelledbackward]

[Find out what?

Kyo, there's a big friendly dog wolf here to pour your heart out to if you so desire. Don't worry, she won't tell anyone; she can't talk.]