mun is finally out of self-imposed hiatus

[worldsagony]

I-I can't show myself here... You were supposed to put me in that place a long time ago, but I'm still here. I was going to save the world. You promised him, I think. I'm a... Failure...

I can't show my face.... C-can't show my face.

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[woodpeckermaruta]

Hey... uh...

Are you alright? [NO IDEA WHO YOU ARE.]

[worldsagony]

[Unfortunately he knows who you are.]

G-ganta... Ah- You're probably here to hit me too, aren't you?

[woodpeckermaruta]

[Gives a rather confused frown, before he awkwardly laughs.]

Why would I hit you? How do you know my name?

[worldsagony]

You... Don't remember? That's surprising. U-usually people don't forget that sort of pain so easily.

[woodpeckermaruta]

Wh- [Have a little surprised blended with that confusion.]

What do you mean, 'that sort of pain'?

[worldsagony]

Pain gets seared into our bodies and minds... Like a memory, I guess. I had... Hoped you wouldn't forget. I had tried so hard.

asdf... you play him so weeeeeell...~~

[woodpeckermaruta]

Forget... what?

sdfg >///< I'm so out of practice.

[worldsagony]

.... I could help you remember, Ganta.

I can't even tell~

[woodpeckermaruta]

[He blinks, slightly, before frowning.]

Eh...?? What the hell do you mean by that, huh?

[worldsagony]

You're worried about forgetting, right? It must be painful... To have a gap in your mind like that. But... It wouldn't be hard for me to remind you. I'm certain your body would remember quickly, too.

[woodpeckermaruta]

[He tenses at that. This guy's starting to scare him pretty badly, actually.]

Look, I don't even know who you are, but stop messin' around!

[worldsagony]

You... Really don't remember? I wonder why? [He fidgets with that lion keychain again, his eyes lowering as he abruptly seems a bit calmer. But are those tears in his eyes.]

I wonder if... The memory loss would give you a greater pain in the end?

[woodpeckermaruta]

[He's blinking at those tears.

Why... is this guy... crying...?]

What? Why would you...?

[He can't even get the entire question out, he is so confused.]

You really don't make any sense...

[worldsagony]

I'm sorry, i-it really must be distressing for you not to understand...

[woodpeckermaruta]

[Getting the same treatment from a certain "Toto" over in a certain Tower, so...]

It's annoying, is what it is... [Shifting slightly, he gives an irritated frown.]

[worldsagony]

I'm sorry.

[woodpeckermaruta]

[Gives a look of disbelief.]

Why do you apologize so much?

[cry_cry_birdie]

Can't say it's not a relief to know you're currently 'homeless'.

[worldsagony]

You're... Pr-probably thinking that the likes of me deserves that, I guess...

[cry_cry_birdie]

Actually, I don't care, either way, about what happens to you. [Gives a small wave of his hand. Honestly, he doesn't. He has someone way more important to focus his worries on--and she's currently not doing all that well, so the worry level is way up there.]

It's the other people I'd be worried about.

[worldsagony]

Oh... Of course. [His gaze falls to his hands and he fidgets with the bandages there a little, shifting a little awkwardly.]

I guess... That I really didn't do a good job.

[cry_cry_birdie]

[He lets out a sigh, closing his eyes a moment. He reopens them after a couple of seconds, giving him an exasperated look--as well as the hint that he's ever-so-slightly amused to be talking to Madoka, again, after all these years...]

Stop feeling so sorry for yourself. It's seriously annoying.

[worldsagony]

[The Forgery flinches ever so slightly, inclining his head as if expecting to be hit. He's still all-too-accustomed to the idea and he seems almost disappointed at the words.]

Sorry for myself...? That's not it, I don't think. I... Failed. That's all.

[cry_cry_birdie]

People fail all the time.

Instead of sitting here looking like you're gonna cry, why don't you do something about it? [Sigh.] Learn from your mistakes, or something.

[Not exactly putting his all into this "pep talk", since he doesn't much care for this guy. Speaking of giving a speech to a Forgery...

...It's not exactly what he expected to happen when he woke up, this morning.]

[worldsagony]

[Despite Ganta not trying that hard, it still makes Madoka look surprised for a moment before he gives a small wavering smile.]

You really are... Such a good person, you know.

[cry_cry_birdie]

[He blinks, remembering the last time Madoka smiled at him like that. A twinge of nervousness tugs at him, before he looks to the side, a slightly wary smile resting on his lips.]

Ah... well, thanks. [He scratches the side of his face a bit, before shifting his eyes back towards the Forgery.]

[worldsagony]

[For the time being he seems to be in his more submissive quiet state, although as Ganta definitely knows that's liable to swing at any moment depending on his own twisted logic.]

I'm... Not surprised you're still alive. W-well. Maybe a part of me is, I guess.

[cry_cry_birdie]

[He definitely knows this situation could flip on him, any second. He also knows he would be screwed if that were to happen, so he's casually glancing off to the side to inconspicuously spot an exit.

Scratching the back of his head, he gives a somewhat surprised look to the one in front of him.]

What do you mean?

[Because he's a good person, Madoka is only somewhat surprised he's still alive? Is that it? Now, he's questioning if it's okay to have asked that. His brow furrows just a bit, actually curious as to whether, or not...

...this is what walking on a mine field would feel like. Either way, he's not going to turn and run--that's what kids do, right? No, he's just going to wait for the right time to leave.]

[worldsagony]

I'm not surprised because you're strong... When I first saw you I knew that, I think. O-oh. I've told you that before, haven't I...?

[His gaze lowers again for a few moments as his hands fidget together.]

When I said a part of me was surprised- Ah- Maybe it's because of how trusting you are? N-not that I think it's bad, Ganta. I find your belief in others... Admirable.

[cry_cry_birdie]

[He gives a slightly surprised sound, before a hand moves to rub the back of his neck. Ironic that the guy he's expecting to try to kill him, any second, is saying that he believes in others...

For that, Ganta's lips momentarily twitch into a reluctant half-smile.]

Admirable...? That's the last word I'd use for myself. [His brow tensed for a moment, his expression falling. The things he'd done to get where he is, now. He'd really made some stupid decisions, in the past...]

[worldsagony]

Why? You're straight-forward and honest and you... Seem to care about people, even at the risk of hurting yourself. [As someone who has never really received feelings like that, he finds it a bit fascinating and nothing short of amazing.

Again tears are in his eyes within moments.]

... But that is also why pain suits you better. It pained me to have to do all that, b-but... I had to.

[cry_cry_birdie]

I just do what I feel's right.... is all. And I don't like seeing people hurt. Even those I don't like. [Implications could be had, there.

He frowns, again, at the tears.]

I'll never understand that, but... whatever you say. [He waves his hand as though to grant it a silent 'no big deal--let it go'.]

A lot of things happened, but... I think everything made me stronger. Even ...that.

[hemoeroticism]

Tamaki's the one who failed. You actually did what I couldn't. ✩

[worldsagony]

I... Did? How?

[hemoeroticism]

You got the Wretched Egg to wake up, even with the Lullaby playing.

[worldsagony]

That girl...? I-I didn't mean to do that. She was in the way.

[hemoeroticism]

What you meant to do doesn't matter. It's kind of ironic, really. Tamaki created you Forgeries to try to kill her. In reality, you just made her stronger, in a way. He always was an idiot. ✩

[worldsagony]

I was just trying to follow his orders... [Madoka bites his lip guiltily, fidgeting more than usual. Despite being well aware that he is technically no longer getting orders he still feels like a failure.]

[hemoeroticism]

You know, normally, the Nuremberg defense would be pretty weak. But you helped me out, so I'll accept it just this once. You removed an obstacle to my love for her. ✩

[worldsagony]

... "Love". [There isn't much recognition or inflection behind the word and he just stares at his hands blankly.]

[hemoeroticism]

That's right. The most irrational emotion there is.

[worldsagony]

Feeling "love" is like the opposite of feeling "agony", I think, but... It can also cause agony.

[hemoeroticism]

Aha, now you're starting to understand! ✩

[ Clap. ]

[worldsagony]

It's confusing. But... A lion would feel love and compassion for something, right? S-so I need it, too.

[hemoeroticism]

Who knows. I'm a medical biology researcher, not a zoologist. ✩

[worldsagony]

... Oh.