adorable sad girl wants a game ;_;

[tailwag]

im not sure where i could go that anyone would care if i turned up
im far less useful than dave as a sprite
but...
if you could find somewhere with my friends where he was
i suppose it wouldnt be so bad
:')
jade is so amazing that they wouldnt even look twice at me, i know
i dont even care about that!
i miss everyone and i want to go home
if you cant send me back then i dont want to be the only sprite around, i hate this so much
please try?
i cant take being alive again and staying all alone
ill be brave if you really do your best

Comments

[alostsoldier]

I think you're selling yourself kinda short.

[tailwag]

im really not
:(
i dont want to do anything at all but if i have to be here then id like to try at not ending up completely useless
i kind of dont even want to try anymore
all of this takes so much effort

[alostsoldier]

[with a faint, sad smile] It feels like you should be done, right? You shouldn't have to deal with all this crap anymore. You just want to go back to where it's - easy, and quiet, and peaceful.

[tailwag]

yes!
that is exactly how i feel!!!
jade doesnt care
no one caaaares aaaaaah boo hoo hoo hoo hoo
woof :'(

[alostsoldier]

[gently] I bet she does. She just, you know, has her own crap to deal with too. And it's...hard for people to know what to say to us, I guess.

[tailwag]

shes a selfish girl
she doesnt understand and hurts me again and again
boo hoo hoo...

what do you mean by 'us'?
you look normal and absolutely fine
youre not a stupid looking dog freak thing with no legs

[alostsoldier]

How could she?

[Steph smiles wryly, before letting herself fade away until she's just barely there; her voice is more hollow than before, echoing strangely]

I don't think you look stupid.

WHAT AM I DOING...

[only_two_men_i_trust]

You shouldn't go talkin' yourself down like that, miss.

CLEARLY MARRYING ME NOW...

[tailwag]

shouldnt i?
you dont even know me!
everything is sad and painful and i miss my friends
:(

[tailwag]

:o
what are you?
youre very kind...

[alostsoldier]

I try.

[she shrugs as she solidifies again, though never quite entirely] Just a kid who got in over her head. I shouldn't be walking around, either.

But...we've gotta take what we get, and make the best of it.

[tailwag]

i think i will have to make the best of it too
:'(
i cant go home or die and i will never ascend to god tier like jade did
im this stupid sprite and the sun hurts my eyes so much aaaah
whats wrong with you?
what happened to make you a ghost?

[caligulas_aquarium]

bein alone sucks
but you just havve to fuckin deal ww it

HOW DOES A SUMMER WEDDING SOUND

[only_two_men_i_trust]

Darlin', there ain't a single person in this world that ain't important. I'm sure your friends are missin' you too.

[alostsoldier]

You're focusing on all the bad parts. There has to be some good stuff, too.

[quietly, glancing down] I...was trying to do something good, but I screwed it up. Someone - he took advantage of all the chaos I caused, and I ended up getting kidnapped. He wanted information. [she looks up, a scowl curling her lips] That and I think he just likes hurting people.

[tailwag]

im beginning to realise that
i dont know why anyone would want me around when all they are is disappointed with me
they want me to fight someone really scary but i just cant
i cant i cant i cant
i miss being happy
woof :'(

LIKE YOU SHOULD GET IN MY KNICKERS ALREADY

[tailwag]

boo hoo hoo...
yes i think they are
we were all so safe and happy and warm together
it was perfect!
my head hurts from the green sun, its all i can see in the back of my head
i cant turn anything off

[tailwag]

there arent any good parts, all there is amounts to destruction and hopeless deaths
so many nice people have died
boo hoo hoo hoo...

im sorry you were hurt
i would help if i could

[caligulas_aquarium]

[He'd planned on ranting about what a fucking mess she is right now, and chances are only make things worse, but...

Well, that feeling of isolation, self-loathing and hopelessness all at once? He can relate. He gets it.

And it kind've stirs a rare moment of sympathy in him.

So after a moment of conflicting feelings about what to do, what to actually say...]

then dont
you cant do anythin then dont do anythin
if they dont get that its their problem
they dont understand wwhat youre goin through so they cant force you to do somethin thats clearly pissin you off
or upsettin you wwhatevver

[alostsoldier]

[her expression softens into a smile] Thanks.

I know it seems that way, sometimes, but - there's more to the world than that. More to life, and people. We just have to keep seeing it. And - stop as many of the bad things as we can.

[tailwag]

[ Sniffling, Jade wipes her neon tears and peers out behind over-sized glasses. It's very comforting to be told she doesn't have to fix anything, because frankly her nerves are ruined and anything beyond being a glorified postman with her spacey powers is outside her league. ]

i think i remember you...
its so hard trying to get past losing all the people i loved
did anyone try and hurt you the same way?
they dont understand that its harder than anything because they havent been through these things
i dont want to be hit again
thanks for not being angry with me too

[tailwag]

i cant see anything but the green sun
it hurts so muuuuuch boo hoo hoo hoo hooooooooo

[alostsoldier]

[she considers for a second, and then] Being in a game would take you away from it, right?

[caligulas_aquarium]

[Oh dear god she is so pathetic, in the most platonic way ever of course, it's unreal. He actually does want to smack her one and tell her to knock it the hell off.

But, well, the longer she goes on about the same kind've thing he whines about to everyone, the longer he'll be put off flipping his shit at her. For now.]

my business is none a your business so im not fuckin answwerin that
but long story short yes i completely get it an it fuckin hurts like nobodies business
losin evveryone an evverythin then others havvin all a these expectations you just cant livve up to
yet they somehoww expect you to
its hard
its really fuckin hard an noone understands
but i guess i do understand so i cant really bring myself to be pissed off at you
its not your fault you cant livve up to their expectations i guess

[bigbluebugofjustice]

...Excuse me, young lady. You seem as if you have a confidence problem.
[Tick ponders this a moment...]
I might have something to help you.
[He pulls out what looks like... an old hubcap...?]
This is a magic hubcap. It'll aid you in whatever you pursue!
[...It's not really magic. But, Tick's kinda weird in what he thinks people believe, and he's being pretty sincere in his attempt to help, given his mental state.]