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Unhappy about potential new choice in game.

L-look, I don't know why you have to send me somewhere like there!

[He's been places before. After Splendor and even Paradisa he knows how the whole "getting trapped somewhere" works. But somewhere like this...]

I don't care how many other places you've looked at!

[You still could have found somewhere better mun, somewhere that didn't treat him like... ugh.]

Ugh, forget it. I don't even want to talk to you right now.

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[Here's Xion looking...really, really sheepish.] Well...I know how you must feel but, trust me when I say it isn't all bad. There's a lot of good people to make friends with, and we even have ice cream now!

You don't need to be so upset at your mun, besides...She's your friend, right? I don't think she would send you to some place you can't handle.

And either way, you'll have me and everyone else to support you, so don't worry! [A reassuring grin.]

[Ergh...] Well... yeah, but...

[sigh, he does have to give some ground here, given how careful his mun is being about making sure he can handle it...]

... yeah. I just... It's so different from places I've been before. [And not in a good way, for him.]

[She leans her fist on her cheek. Poor guy. It's just her trying to make the best out of a bad situation, and she'd be a dirty liar if she said she didn't feel a pang of guilt in her chest just now.]

Yeah, it's no Splendorocity, that's for sure. Except for this one week where we all got wishes granted, I suppose.

[Her nose twitches a little as she thinks carefully. He looks so nervous...
How to help, how to help...Darn it! She will be here for her friend!]

But...I think it's natural to be nervous and stuff...I mean, I'd probably feel that way if I were in your shoes.

Maybe...I can help you. We could talk about it, if you'd like. I mean...I've been here for over a year, I can probably answer any questions you might have.

[The reminder of Splendor makes his lips quirk up for a moment. That's right... He did meet Xion there. And now they'd meet in this game maybe, though they wouldn't remember...

... why is his mun giggling about some "KHII" and some quote about "You may not know it's me and I may not know it's you"? Ugh. Muns.]

I dunno... I mean... it's probably going to happen anyway, right?

[He doesn't sound really opposed to the idea, he's just... plain not used to talking about his problems and feelings. If anything he's been discouraged, on Auldrant. They'd had more important things to do.]

[Meanwhile, Xion has spent the better part of 15 months learning all about her emotions and expressing them. He pessimism sparks a frown, and she digs a finger between the corner of her lips.]

Well, maybe so, but...When I talk with a friend about how I'm feeling, or I share my concerns with them...It makes it all a little bit easier to swallow. I used to keep a lot of that stuff close to my chest, and I always ended up sad...

[Oh gosh, she got a little carried away there, didn't she? Her knees grind against each other.]

Um, anyway...Now's the time, if you want to. [It comes out incredibly mousey and hesitant, but she's just nervous that she might sound pushy. Oh gosh, what if she makes him say something he doesn't want to?]

[A lot of that is hitting way too close to home. And yet back on Auldrant, he'd be shushed, even scolded for bringing his own feelings into anything. They never had time to deal with emotions. Emotions just got in the way. They had to be locked up until after the world wasn't in danger.

It's... it's not that he doesn't want to, necessarily, though there are things in his head - knowledge and memories - he wouldn't wish on hell's worst occupant, but... he doesn't really know how.

Nobody's ever really asked him how he felt before besides Tear's "are you feeling okay," not since Kid at Splendor, and that was so long ago...]

I-I'll... I'll be okay, really... [pause... and then] I-It's just... there's a lot of stuff... nobody I know's there this time and, it's so different this time, and... [He trails off. There's other things, things he really doesn't like talking about at all. Things he'd rather avoid. ~~Like potentially dying~~]

[The hesitation in his voice is all too telling of what must be going on inside his head. Honestly? It isn't too different from how she get's sometimes. She used to be so bad at expressing herself, at dealing with her own emotions, and it still happens from time to time.

Her hand tilts back casually in an attempt to channel a little bit of her friend Axel. Oh how badly she wishes to be wise like him. Maybe if she was, maybe Luke wouldn't be so nervous. He was always able to calm her down. Heck, he still is! Just look at her face.]

When I first got there, nobody knew who I was. [Whether or not Luke understands the significance of that sentence doesn't really matter. Even if she knew Roxas and Axel, they saw her as a stranger.] I was alone, and I didn't know what to do. But...so many people surrounded me, and asked me who I was, and how I was feeling, and...Everything became so much easier. In a place like that, people have to stick together.

[Now she turns back to him, looking sympathetic, but otherwise composed. This would be what she refers to as "Axelface".]

You don't have to say that you're okay if you're not...Doing that never got me anywhere.
I told you, I'll talk about whatever you want, if you feel like it. However you're feeling, I promise I'll listen, okay?

[What she's offering... The concept of someone listening to him, of letting him talk about how he felt without calling him an idiot or pathetic or saying that he's just whining... He just doesn't know how to react, at all.

It's nothing that she's done, really! It's just... all he's ever known. It might take a while for those walls to really come down.]

Okay. [He smiles sheepishly] You must have a lot of friends there. [Both from her talking about the people who cared about her, and the fact that she's just so nice.]

Your complaint is only about being experimented on? Pathetic.

[ There are worse games out there than that, you big sissy. ]

[Erk.]

I-It's not just that!

[It's on the top of the list, but there are more reasons! She's sending him from when he's dying again, plus nobody he knows is there this time, and...]

[ Try getting replicated, dreck, then you can complain about being a guinea pig. >:/ ]

Then stop dwelling on the unimportant issues!

[ ~~...better than from when he's obnoxious, in Asch's opinion.~~ Not that he wants to hear the whining about other issues, but it beats his replica bellyaching over a few weird happenings. ]

[Y-yeah there's that too. Thus Luke's awkward on this particular subject around Asch.]

I-it's... [Ergh...] It's not like I want to think about this stuff.

[ Just so long as he doesn't have to give the birds and bees talk, Asch will refrain from knocking Luke's head clean off his shoulders. ]

That's your problem! You refuse to think things through! This place you are being sent to may provide useful knowledge- use it to your advantage.

[... really.]

If this place is like any of the others I've been to, it's not like I'll remember it after I leave anyway.

I thought you were Mr. Optimism.

[ Hey, he's trying to be supportive. In his own tsundere, Asch way. ]

In that case, suggest places you would like to visit to your mundane instead of complaining.

[Looks like you're a little out of practice, Asch.]

You think I haven't tried?

[NO REALLY HE HAS. He wouldn't mind going back to Splendor, the place is gone. And everywhere whenever he's found somewhere he's liked his mun always has some issue with it...]

Edited 2012-03-07 08:52 (UTC)

Oh.

I've heard of that place. Your mun has excellent taste in location. It can't possibly be worse than doing nothing in what must be a small headspace you call home. There will be plenty of fun and interesting things for you to do once you get there. I really have no idea how you could be anything less than thrilled.

Just think of all the experiments you'll be able to take part in.

... I think I'd rather stay in her headspace, myself.

[Sure, maybe it was a little cramped but...]

There are worse places that should could have decided on.

[Says the one who also came from death points. 'Sup, Replibro.]

[sigh] I know, but I'm having a hard time thinking of any.

[Can he have a list? 'Sup, Mera.]

Make the best of what you have, Luke. As... peculiar as this decision is, I'm sure you'll find a way through it.

[Look who's also really uncomfortable about you heading to a torture facility. Urk.]

Guy...

[Best frieeeeend ;A; He really wishes you were going there too... not for the experiments part but because he really doens't like the idea of going there by himself.

He knows this isn't exactly his choice either, though.]

I... I know. I'll try.

...Isn't that the place where they experiment on people...?

Yeah... it is...

[Muuun, why do you want to send him there...]

...I'm sorry.

_{[apparently apologizing is a good answer for everything.]}

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Unhappy about potential new choice in game.

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h-hi

ohai there

I couldn't resist

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And then school ate me for a week I am so sorry orz

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Well hey there~

ohai /let's pretend school didn't eat me for a week

hi there~

Hey! Sorry for the late - school ate me

don't worry, it's fine <3