lookin' for a home to put q-ball in.

[spaceheart]

Mundane, I understand that you enjoy taking on new muses. Truly, I do, but how long has it been since you last watched Gundam Wing? Last read it? You're out of practice, mun, and I don't want you to feel hesitant about these things.

Perhaps it would be wise if you revised the canon before dropping in and doing this -- before finding me a 'home'.

No? Are you sure?

[ he looks a bit worried, and hesitant about that worrying, too. honestly, he has no hope for this. ]

Well.. Good luck to you then, I suppose..

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[trowa_barton]

[Way to play right into his nightmares. His eyes narrow.]

... Do you know this for a fact?

[spaceheart]

[ sometimes Quatre has a penchant for overreacting, and he pauses when he realises that. ]

—.. Maybe not?

[trowa_barton]

[Oh so reassuring. But there is that maybe not part that helps a little.]

Encourage them to find a quieter place for you. Then you might have fun.

[spaceheart]

[ he's usually good at that kind of thing. ]

I'll definitely try - I don't want you to worry too much.

[trowa_barton]

[Which is why he's trying not to worry, but when nightmares become reality... it gets hard to tell what's actually real.]

... Thanks.

[spaceheart]

[ he reaches forward to place a hand on the other's arm, mostly because he believes physical contact - no matter how small - can be comforting. ]

Everything's going to be okay. You know that, right? I mean, we've gone through worse than whatever our mundanes can put us through, and we ended up fine after that..

[ as fine as they could be, that is. ]

[trowa_barton]

[He's gotten used to such small displays that he doesn't flinch from the contact. And it does help, enough for a teeny little smile.]

Things get better, yes, then something else happens. It's a never ending cycle.

[Just a statement, fact as he's come to know it.]

[spaceheart]

[ he tries to smile, and it's a little mix between sad and warm and trying to comfort still. ]

Then things will have to end up better again, and one day it will stay that way.

[ always the optimist. ]

XD I'd suggest Trowa's game but there are already two Quatres.

[trowa_barton]

[It works, somewhat.]

Maybe not here, but that's a possibility.

kdfjghsd woah. i think i'll be sticking to other games then--

[spaceheart]

[ and maybe Quatre looks a little pleased with himself, even if it's a small victory. ]

We just have to have faith that everything will turn out fine, in the end. Positive thoughts are key!

lol Let me know if/when you decide on another place?

[trowa_barton]

[Only Quatre. Small victories are still victories, right?]

That's what makes you special, Quatre. Don't give up on finding the right place for you.

'course i will! you'll be the first person i tell. c:

[spaceheart]

[ he takes what he can get. ]

Thank you, Trowa. Perhaps it's selfish of me, but I hope there's at least one familiar face wherever I end up.

^w^ Sweet~

[trowa_barton]

I doubt you'll be alone for long even if you start out that way.

[spaceheart]

We'll just have to wait and see, I suppose.

[ though he doesn't like not knowing what's going to happen much, it's inevitable and he knows that. ]

[trowa_barton]

That's one constant around here.

[To know what'll happen means he's better prepared. Somewhat, at least.]

[spaceheart]

I'm not surprised. Though I think it's a constant most other times, too.

[trowa_barton]

... More so here than home, Quatre. Here... depending where you go, you could face things that shouldn't physically exist, but are very much real.

[spaceheart]

I—

[ he wants to say that he's ready for anything these places will throw at him, but honestly he isn't confident enough in himself to be able to. ]

I'll work it out and get through this, when I'm there. Unusual things or not—

[ he still doesn't sound sure of himself. ]

[trowa_barton]

[Sometimes things just need to be experienced first handed to be believed. So Trowa really doesn't blame Quatre for the continued optimism.]

I'll say one thing about these places. Generally speaking, even if you do die... you're brought back.

[A brief hesitation and then he forces himself to admit in a quieter voice.] Death is sometimes the better option.

[spaceheart]

[ the fact that Trowa has experienced any of these awful-sounding things hurts; he doesn't want any of his friends hurting after all they had already been through. he wants to raise his hand again or hug or just touch so he knows that his friend is okay right now, even if it's for a short while. the only reaction to that is his fists clenching slightly and his shoulders tensing. ]

These places are sounding worse and worse as we go along. Hopefully I won't end up somewhere quite as bad as that..

[ he doesn't hold much hope for it, though. ]

[trowa_barton]

[Then have the benefit of all that experience and what Trowa's learned, Quatre, as he reaches out after a brief hesitation and debate, and rests a hand on the blond's shoulder. Just a silent offer for a hug if Quatre wants it.]

There are good places out there. Just because I've had a less than excellent time doesn't mean they aren't to be found.

[Emotions. These things are hard to talk about okay?]

[spaceheart]

[ the invitation is acknowledged with a slight relaxing, and it doesn't take long for Quatre to practically throw himself at the other and wrap them both in the proffered hug. ]

Either way. I'm sorry that you were sent to those places and experienced those things.

[ vague as they are, Quatre can just about feel them. ]

[trowa_barton]

[The hand on Quatre's shoulder slips around him in a loose hug in return. Having a psuedo brother has helped immensely in getting Trowa to accept physical contact.]

Just worry about yourself for once. Everything else should work out if you do.

[spaceheart]

[ there's a weary look on his face, despite the fact that he knows Trowa can't see it. mostly due to the fact that his face is hidden in the other's shirt. ]

That isn't going to happen any time soon. I don't think I can ever stop worrying about you guys.

[trowa_barton]

[He doesn't have to see it to know it's there.]

Quatre... You don't have to stop entirely - that wouldn't be you. But if you'd let us take some of the burden, I'll be content.