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[deathprismpower]

Mun-chan~!

I know you're on hiatus with the male me-that's kind of weird, by the way, but I guess at least he's cute-but that doesn't mean we can't have a little fun on your days off, right? I'm so excited to see Minako-chan and the others again. I wonder if the boys have recovered from Mitsuru-sempai's execution. That was kind of harsh, don't you think? They were peeking, but the fact that they wanted to is a little flattering! Or at least, I thought it was flattering.

So anyways! Let's make the time we have count! I want to know what kind of exciting things we can do on these memes... and speaking of, what is that male me up to at that Tower place? He seemed really bummed...

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[mementolucem]

[He nods. She really is nice, there's just...problems. Sad ones. He doesn't want to go into detail.]

Between Ryoji, her, and Aigis. High tensions. [He really really wishes all three could get along. He feels like it's his fault.]

[deathprismpower]

Ah, that's sad. I already knew Aigis-chan wasn't a big fan of me, but...

[Aigis' anger was difficult enough to deal with. She was hopeful she would have another confident in her, especially since the girl had transferred not long before her, but she seemed strangely uncomfortable with Ryoko, and refused to speak to her, besides her insistent warnings that the new girl was dangerous.

...Maybe her hostility had some underlying meaning, though, based on how Minato was acting.]

Don't worry. I'm sure they'll sort out their differences soon.

[mementolucem]

Doubt it. Been like this for years. My fault.

[He really wishes they could all get along. He's sick of fighting all the time. It's been ten years, and he's so tired...]

[deathprismpower]

Minato-kun, why would you say that? I'm sure it's not your fault. If anything it's my-I mean, Ryoji's fault.

[She isn't sure why she said that... but she feels like it's the truth, and that the male her would likely agree.]

[mementolucem]

[He shakes his head fervently. No, it isn't Ryoji's fault. He'll defend Ryoji forever, even from himself.] All started with me. Fighting over me now. Sort of. Hard to explain.

[Aigis wants to keep him away from Ryoji and stalks him constantly, Minako wants him far away from both of them, he knows Ryoji just wants him to be okay wherever he is, and he wants everyone to be happy. He's finally free, why can't he have everyone he cares about?]

[deathprismpower]

I know it's hard... but I'm willing to listen. You don't need to blame yourself. Whatever is happening isn't your fault. Even if they're fighting over you, it's their fault they're fighting.

[mementolucem]

I disappeared. They're fighting because of that. My fault.

[...No one ever said he operates on Earth logic.]

[deathprismpower]

...Where did you go? I'm sure you didn't willingly disappear.

[Ryoko is getting just a bit confused, but she's still determined to help Minato get over his guilt.]

[mementolucem]

...Dark. Very dark. Bad- wrong. [The poor guy looks shaken just at the memory.] Alone, all alone a lot. Only had Ryoji. Sometimes. Had to survive, had to fight. Always night, b-blood everywhere, couldn't get out could never get out...!

[deathprismpower]

M-Minato-kun! Please, calm down!

[Hesitantly, she holds out a hand, unsure if she should really bridge the gap between them. She bites her lip, and eventually rests her hand on his shoulder, squeezing gently.]

So you and Ryoji went somewhere? ...Wherever you went, it sounds horrible. I-I'm so glad you don't need to go through that anymore.

[She manages a smile at that.]

See? You got out, after all. You wouldn't be talking with me if that wasn't the case.

[mementolucem]

Ryoji didn't disappear. Only me. Complicated. Can't explain.

[Finally, he looks up.] Still happens. Go back there every night. Different, but the same. Not alone.

[deathprismpower]

...I'm so sorry that happened... is still happening. But you say you aren't alone? Is there someone to help you get out?

[mementolucem]

Sort of. Stops on its own now. Don't have to fight alone anymore.

[deathprismpower]

Hm... Well, if you need me, I'm here to help you fight too. I mean, I can't do much, but I can try...

[mementolucem]

[He nods.] Be happy. [Maybe it's a weird response, but he just wants some version of his best friend to be happy.]

[deathprismpower]

I will. Of course I will, Minato. I'm just happy to know you.

[mementolucem]

Stay happy. [It isn't enough to just be happy, after all, like just bread isn't enough to make a sandwich.] Will be fine. Can endure. So stay happy.

[deathprismpower]

...I... Are you sure? I don't know if I can promise something like that when I don't know what's going to happen to you. I don't want you to just endure, I want you to be at peace.

[mementolucem]

Peace might come later. For now, have to fight.

[deathprismpower]

...Just be careful, okay? Even if you have to fight, you don't have to be hurt.

[mementolucem]

Will be fine. Can heal if I get hurt. Can always heal.

[deathprismpower]

But healing takes a long time... and you can't do it if you're dead.

[mementolucem]

Not afraid of death. Better to die fighting for something better than be apathetic.

[deathprismpower]

Don't talk like that! Maybe you aren't afraid, but I am! I don't want to lose you and-

...I-I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me.