Issac Lahey (
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dear_mun2013-08-13 02:05 pm
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On 3x11..
I swear to GOD ...
I am not trying to steal Allison. Not now. Especially not now. Scott's my friend, my pack-mate, my ... he and his mom took me in and gave me a home and now she's missing, okay?
[Scrubbing his hand through his hair.] You know what the connection between Allison and I is? We keep losing people we love - to their own messed up heads. Allison's mom, her aunt Kate, her grandfather, my dad and my brother. We're orphaned.
[Quiet] I won't deny it. The attraction. But I wouldn't ...I never want to hurt them. They're all the family I've got left.
Now I'm helping shove them all under water to stop that bitch and - I'm sorry - but I can't be orphaned again. I can't be.
please don't leave me alone ...
I am not trying to steal Allison. Not now. Especially not now. Scott's my friend, my pack-mate, my ... he and his mom took me in and gave me a home and now she's missing, okay?
[Scrubbing his hand through his hair.] You know what the connection between Allison and I is? We keep losing people we love - to their own messed up heads. Allison's mom, her aunt Kate, her grandfather, my dad and my brother. We're orphaned.
[Quiet] I won't deny it. The attraction. But I wouldn't ...I never want to hurt them. They're all the family I've got left.
Now I'm helping shove them all under water to stop that bitch and - I'm sorry - but I can't be orphaned again. I can't be.
please don't leave me alone ...

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Your connection is that you were there for her. And you get her. I mean if it was all about the relationship stuff? EUGH. Deaton was Scott's go-to guy.
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...okay that's a good point. [He swallowed, closing his eyes for a moment.] Everyone knows, end of the day, the only reason Scott's not holding down Allison or vice-versa is because they both had to be in those tubs.
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You have nothing to feel guilty about. You were there when she needed you, and that's a good thing. Scott agrees.
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I don't know ... I just don't know. Why do I feel guilty then? Just for feeling the way I feel?
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Well except the Alphas. Or Ms. Blake.
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It's her choice too, you know.
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I know. But ... Scott ...
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[But it's all gentle as he says it.]
You do not have half a heart. You have a whole heart, just a little... scarred. I know things look like they're going to hell now, believe me, I know. But we've survived bad before. You're not gonna lose Scott's Mom. Not over Allison and not because of Ms. Blake.
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[But there's a hint of a smile there.]
I know. I'm just ... so angry. And scared. I'm really scared, Stiles. Of all of it. I know we can do it, but I have no idea what we're going to lose to win.
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Well, over half of our Pack has actually died. I'd call that losing enough.
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I know. [God, does he know. He misses Erica and Boyd.] So ... with all that down, we have to start winning, right? One way or another.
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