[She's given up the thought he'd leave his wife for her though, after all this time and him not following though, she knew he was just blowing hot air.]
I don't know, I just...sometimes I do. There are times it would get in the way, but sometimes I'd like to not just be a quick fuck in the supply closet.
[understandably so. Their priorities are skewed.] Allison we were working together. I didn't want to lose my promotion and I didn't want you to lose anything either.
[She had to close her eyes for a second. And he had the nerve to ask why she didn't settle for him?] Eric made it work...no one really knew for sure and if they suspected it, they didn't care.
If I did pick things up with you again, would you only want it until it wasn't convenient anymore?
[He has to think about this. He has to think hard. because John and his work, because devotion.
He can't answer that right now. This is what he wants. No one takes away what he wants.
Not again. Not Eric, not anyone. And it would be a real life, it would be something to fight for. That was the heart of John's teachings. And he knew Allison, she needed to be loved. She didn't have enough self confidence in herself.
He ignores the sick feeling in his chest before putting on the face of the man she knew before he died in John Kramer's chair, killed himself. Failed to survive.]
....I want you back. I'd do whatever it would take.
[Her expression softened a little. She wasn't sure if he really meant it, but a part of her hoped that he did.
He was the only man she'd ever been completely content with, that made her feel like she could afford to not be sharp all the time.]
Anything?
[To hear Hoffman make a proclamation like that, she couldn't scoff at it. He didn't say things like that often and the only times she'd heard it, he actually followed through.]
You get one chance. I like you, but if you're just going to use me as an easy screw, I could get that anywhere.
[Somehow, it didn't hurt as much when Eric used her. She knew he had a wife, it was expected...Hoffman had always been different though. No wife, no girlfriend, yet she was still used and tossed aside. The men she was with always got happiness, but she was left with an empty bed when they were done.]
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...You could come work with me. Rigg and Eric just died and-
[his chest hurts].
Yeah.
...seeing you would be good.
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[She can't help a note of confusion in her voice.]
Seeing you would be good too...at least I'd know someone.
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...We could pick up again.
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Do you mean what I think you mean?
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[She's given up the thought he'd leave his wife for her though, after all this time and him not following though, she knew he was just blowing hot air.]
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Hope.
I believed him...he acted like he wanted more with me.
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[he is so confused]
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...Why didn't you say something?
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[She wouldn't risk it.]
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[he looks at her and back at his hands - and back at her.]
I wanted...
....Just - he's married you could do so much better.
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[Her voice was soft. She wasn't deaf, she knew what was said about her.] I don't really know why I thought Eric would be different.
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[She figured that if he really wanted her, he would have raised more of a stink over her seeing Eric.]
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If I did pick things up with you again, would you only want it until it wasn't convenient anymore?
emotional relationship manipulation is go.
He can't answer that right now. This is what he wants. No one takes away what he wants.
Not again. Not Eric, not anyone. And it would be a real life, it would be something to fight for. That was the heart of John's teachings. And he knew Allison, she needed to be loved. She didn't have enough self confidence in herself.
He ignores the sick feeling in his chest before putting on the face of the man she knew before he died in John Kramer's chair, killed himself. Failed to survive.]
....I want you back. I'd do whatever it would take.
>3
He was the only man she'd ever been completely content with, that made her feel like she could afford to not be sharp all the time.]
Anything?
[To hear Hoffman make a proclamation like that, she couldn't scoff at it. He didn't say things like that often and the only times she'd heard it, he actually followed through.]
Hoffman. :| you dick.
[...If John could have Jill why couldn't he have someone too? In time he could use her, transform her.
That thought alone is enough to make him move forward]
I was young and stupid and the turtle changes things. Can you forgive me?
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[Somehow, it didn't hurt as much when Eric used her. She knew he had a wife, it was expected...Hoffman had always been different though. No wife, no girlfriend, yet she was still used and tossed aside. The men she was with always got happiness, but she was left with an empty bed when they were done.]
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I know how to cherish my life now.
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[You have no idea how hard it was to say that Allison. No idea.]
...I want to try and make it right.
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[She couldn't promise anything, not yet.]
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...I can live with that.
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