on his reason for existing

[leftinshame]

Mun. You gave me this account mainly for playing in this "PSL" of yours, and you still want to throw me into memes? Isn't that just the same as my being another one of your stray pets?

And...what if a woman tags me in one of these memes? Did you ever consider that? Yes, I know you're a woman too, but I don't have to interact with you.

I suppose I should be grateful, though, that I was made with an actual purpose in mind to begin with.

Comments

[nahtscared]

I would figure that you being made that sort of uncomfortable would be one of your mundane's plans. At least, according to what I've heard from them.

[leftinshame]

[...oh. Nowi's child, and one of his possible children.]

I've heard that, too. And this one especially enjoys it, according to most of her stable.

[nahtscared]

[Hi there maybe-dad!]

Then wouldn't your complaints just fuel her urge to make your life more miserable?

[leftinshame]

...I didn't think of that.

It's too late now, though.

[nahtscared]

Just keep it in mind for the future. And you know, if you really want to avoid it, I think the best thing to do is to steer her mind towards other things. "Don't do this" doesn't work, but "let's do this" might, you know?

[leftinshame]

That...might be a good idea, yeah. [nods quickly] I'm told she's reasonable when she feels like it. I just have to catch her in the right mood, I guess.

[nahtscared]

Well look on the bright side. You should at least know when she's in a good mood, being in her head as you are.

... Assuming you want to follow her thoughts.

[leftinshame]

Heh.

I hope your mun treats you better, Nah.

[nahtscared]

If throwing me into random memes and at pretty much anyone from our world who posts here counts, then sure. They keep saying they're looking at a game for me, but it never really materializes.

Still, I can't complain too much. The memes aren't really the horrible type, and at least they haven't sent me to a horror game or something.

[leftinshame]

I hear a lot of muns are like that.

...right. You're scared of monsters and ghosts, if I remember right. [much sympathy for Nah, he knows all about phobias]

[nahtscared]

Even if I wasn't, there's a very real chance of dying in games like that, only to come back later, and...

[And that just sounds way too much like being a Risen.]

[leftinshame]

Urgh... [shudders] No, that doesn't sound good at all. I wouldn't want that either.

[nahtscared]

I'm forced to conclude the muns who send us to those sort of places are just plain sadistic.

[leftinshame]

They are.

[blood_and_thunder]

Um... Maybe it would help with your, you know...I mean, with enough experience, you could get better at talking with women...?

[leftinshame]

...maybe. [He knows it's obviously going to happen considering this is yet another of his future kids, but the first step is always the hardest.]

[blood_and_thunder]

[You can do it, daddy!]

I bet you've come a long way with this problem since you first joined the Shepherds. I mean, I used to be such a horrible, klutzy, paranoid wretch before I joined.

[... used to?]

[leftinshame]

Maybe I have. [Lissa, Panne...even your mother, with her attempts to cure his phobia] And...you seem better now. From what I know, anyway.

[blood_and_thunder]

[Eee. Have some adorable giggling.]

Th-thank you! And... if someone as bad off as I am can change... you can too. As long as you don't give up. And... from what I know, you never give up.

[leftinshame]

...thank you, Noire. That does help. [he hopes the mun marries him off to Tharja in a future game]

[blood_and_thunder]

Y-You're welcome!

[everybody say 'awwww'.]

[leftinshame]

...you're welcome.

[gracefuldance]

Memes ... they sure sound a lot easier then being thrown into all sorts of games that could be scary and dangerous.

[leftinshame]

[Oh...Olivia. His wife for the mun's current run]

Yes...they're less pressure. But some of them can be just as scary. Like... [shudders] Sex memes.

[gracefuldance]

[ Precious possible husbando ]

If it makes you feel better there are also sex games! and horror ones ... I don't think I'll be spent to either anytime soon though.

[leftinshame]

Games?! [guess who's face just turned redder than a radish] Games, about...sex?! What-what would the point even...

[gracefuldance]

W-Well they're not just about sex! I think. To be honest I barely know about them. I just heard a few people talking about them. I think the sex is part of it ... but that doesn't make it any less awkward.

[leftinshame]

My mun apparently used to play in one of those.

I hope she never decides to again. [shudder] The very idea that I'd be at risk for that...!

[gracefuldance]

A-Ahaha... [ She laughed nervously, a little unsure how she was meant to respond to that. ]

Maybe you'll be lucky if she does! And you won't have to be put in one of them.

[leftinshame]

Sorry.

Hmph, maybe. I hope I can be that lucky.

[gracefuldance]

Why are you sorry? There's nothing to be sorry, I'm sure!

I'm sure you will be. You've had a lot of good luck from what I've seen.

[leftinshame]

That I blurted out something so...dirty. Even if it was about my mun and not me.

...thank you. I hope you're right.

[gracefuldance]

O-Oh! It's fine ... I mean, sex is normal, right? There shouldn't be anything wrong saying it, or anything like that.

... I hope so anyway. [ It was embarrassing to talk about, but it was something people did often from what she could tell and Inigo had to be born somehow. ]

Heh. Just have hope!

[leftinshame]

...I guess. Those kids from the future had to be born somehow, right?

[gracefuldance]

Yes! ... Unless you don't want kids, I mean, even after learning what we have. It's understandable.

[ After all they went through a lot of suffer, but they were trying to prevent that in this timeline! ]

[leftinshame]

...right. Yes. [rubs the back of his head, in his mun's game Inigo is his son and...well. It's quite awkward. Gynophobe fathering a womanizer? Yeah.]