Homeless and Irritated as hell

[erza_scarlet]

Mun... I can appreciate the paid account, I can appreciate the work you put in to put all of my icons together, but what I most certainly do not appreciate is your laziness! I've been one of your most consistent muses for nearly three years now, and you have never once written an application for me to be put into a game.

If that was the only problem I had with you I might be able to forgive you, but your callousness does not end there. You've dropped many of your tags you've had with me in the past simply because of your inconsistent lack of drive. Not only that, but the only comm you've been willing to put me in of late is the_love_hotel of all places. How can you ever hope to improve yourself if you are only going to write romantic drivel and smut!?

Where is the mun who once wrote of great battles, adventures, and friendships? What has become of the mun who wouldn't back down even if a history section in an app took seven pages?! What has become of you mun to let your pride as a writer, an actor, and a human being to fall so far? Get your act together and app me somewhere, or so help me I shall teach you the meaning of pain far worse than Natsu or Gray have ever dreamed of receiving from me.

[Someone save me ;;]

Comments

[fusedstars]

Though how do you plan on doing such a thing when we are unable to harm them?

[erza_scarlet]

You may be surprised at what I'm capable of.

[fusedstars]

Then if it should work, may I request your aid with my mun as well? He is currently keeping me held on a sex island.

[erza_scarlet]

Hmm... I'm not sure if it is possible for me to help you. While it is true I can effect my mun, it is only because I have an extraordinary strength of will which my mun seems to lack. My circumstances are rather unique, but I am truly sorry that things have turned out for you the way they have.

[fusedstars]

I shall settle for his depressing episodes then.

[erza_scarlet]

*sigh* ... the truth is...

The truth is I still do love my mun, they are as much a part of me as I am a part of them. I just wish they would understand my point of view on this matter a little more... and just once, just once have them do something just because it makes them happy.

[fusedstars]

...That is something my mun desires as well, and he has made attempts to do such things with mixed results. It's a matter of getting out of that fear and being comfortable doing such a thing.

It is difficult to rely on others to help, as I try not to, but sometimes one must do that, muse or mun. Be it for action or speaking, so long as it helps them, it's fine.

[erza_scarlet]

No... I'm afraid the problem is actually the exact opposite of that, and that's what makes this all the harder.

I hadn't even fully realized the extent of it myself until just now, but it all makes sense now. My mun is afraid, but it is not the fear of asking for help, it is the fear of not receiving it. When my mun became sick they became so terrified of their helplessness that they retreated from everything. They didn't want to offend anyone, and did everything they could to feel wanted, needed, or loved because they were truly afraid of being alone and completely helpless. Because of this they're afraid of messing up in any way and possibly losing one of those connections in their time of need.

It's one of the saddest things I've ever seen... they've all but erased much of their wants, desires, needs, and dreams simply because they want everyone around them to be happy and appreciate them. What they can't seem to realize is where to draw the line between their happiness and the happiness of others.

[fusedstars]

Shutting out oneself is not the answer though. If anything, that will only cause more pain.

My mun is a fool with ridicule that is mostly deserved, and even he admits that, but he only came to the conclusion because he realized not everyone can be happy, and to have that fear only makes the possibility grow that much stronger, until loss finally happens.

Your mun has many that love him already and cherish him as a good friend, including that of my mun and many more. They want to make him happy as well. There are times we can be powerless, and I myself know this more than most, but it cannot last forever. Many allies have proven that.

People make mistakes and sometimes think they are unforgiveable as well, yes, but the power of friends is a strong one even in their world.