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dear_mun2013-07-27 01:06 pm
innocentflowerbud) wrote in dear_mun2013-07-27 01:06 pm
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Voice-testing... ( don't look at me I'm shy /)_(\ )
Ah--? Mundane-san...? Or... do you want me to call you mun-san instead?
It's okay if you don't have any plans for me yet--! I don't mind... it'll... give you some time to get my voice down, right? That is what you call it, right...?
[ She fidgets a little before speaking up again. ]
But... I would like to see my friends, too, if that's okay... please?
It's okay if you don't have any plans for me yet--! I don't mind... it'll... give you some time to get my voice down, right? That is what you call it, right...?
[ She fidgets a little before speaking up again. ]
But... I would like to see my friends, too, if that's okay... please?
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I imagine you are disappointed I am not dead, then.
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[ There's a pause here, along with a sad smile. ]
I will admit I'm still a little scared of you, but...
I... I also want to know you better, too--! There was so much about you that I only learned after our last battle...
[ She's not sure what's gotten into her now... or even if she's fully aware of what she's doing, but... before she can stop herself, Tsubomi's hugging Dark Precure tightly. ]
Would it be okay... for us to maybe be friends this time? Is it... too much to ask...?
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You... would make such an offer of a being who was your enemy, right up the bitter end...?
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Y-yes... I won't force you or anything, but...
I'd like to be your friend...! I don't want for us to fight anymore if we don't have to...
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You think... it's that easy...? That you can erase all that pain, just like that?!
[her lips curled into a snarl]
All those years of standing in her shadow... in the darkness, while she stood laughing in the light... knowing my father's love was really for her?! That even when she pushed you away, she still had people like you standing by her?!
DO YOU THINK YOU CAN ERASE ALL OF THAT, WITH ONE OFFER OF FRIENDSHIP?!
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... yet Tsubomi doesn't exactly back down, either. Perhaps it's because of being a Precure, yet she finds herself responding back before she can even think. ]
I'm offering my friendship to you because I know it's not going to be simple to erase all of your pain, Dark Precure!
All of your anger at Yuri-san... your pain, your sadness... all you wanted was for Professor Sabaaku to see you as his daughter, right? You did so much for him, sacrificed so much, just to support him and let him know that you were on his side, even if he was so focused on Yuri-san that it tore you up inside--!?
[ Tsubomi can hear and feel her voice cracking, her heart breaking as she looked up Dark Precure... even if she was her enemy, she still couldn't bring herself to hate her, knowing what she'd gone through now.
Especially knowing that she could easily have let herself fall into the same pain and anguish she'd had, supporting her parents even though she was forced to hide away her true feelings for their sake.
It's with this in mind that she looks at Dark Precure seriously, placing a hand over her heart. ]
I can't say I can imagine what you've gone through... because that would just be disrespectful towards you and your feelings...
But I don't want you to suffer anymore, either--! That's why... I want my feelings to reach you, Dark Precure...
I know it won't be easy at all, but I want to help you--! Please...
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YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!
I'm nothing! Nothing more than an imitation! A-a fake, grown in a lab! An imitation of a real flower!
You say you want your feelings to reach me?! HOW CAN I TRUST YOU?! HOW CAN I KNOW THAT THEY JUST WON'T BE AN IMITATION OF YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH HER?! HOW DO I KNOW YOU WON'T JUST PITY ME?!
TELL ME, CURE BLOSSOM! HOW COULD ANYONE LOVE A FLOWER THAT DOESN'T HAVE ITS OWN COLOR?! ITS OWN SCENT?! ITS OWN NAME?!
...
[she fell to her knees, shaking]
Th-that's all I am... you're Cure Blossom... and Hanasaki Tsubomi... and I'm just...
Dark Precure...
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[ O-oh, no... she's tearing up now, but she continues to speak even as the tears roll down her cheeks, even as she kneels to look at Dark Precure seriously in her eyes. ]
Every flower is a soul blossoming in nature... flowers are just like us. Some are sad... lonely... forgotten... wilting and dying. Some are thrown away, never to be thought of again...
[ She finds herself resonating with flowers and with Dark Precure's feelings so intensely that she unconsciously ends up replacing "they" with "we"... ]
Some of us are sometimes so desperate to be seen, while others of us are desperate to hide away... we can be different types of flowers, or groups, have different comfort zones... we can be feared or loved at one instance, and then completely broken the next...
But it doesn't matter if we're real flowers or fake. We're still beautiful, and wonderous, and very unique regardless...
[ Tsubomi's openly crying as she speaks to Dark Precure consolingly, compassionately; part of her knows that it might be bad for her to let her guard down so, but... she also doesn't care because she wants to help her. And if her compassion for Dark Precure gets her hurt in the end... then it's on her for opening her heart to her... ]
Please... let me be here for you...? I truly want to be your friend, I mean it... I want to show you that you can trust me, Dark Precure... not turn my feelings into a lie...
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...
[but... in those last moments... her father had embraced her... her father had... had shown her kindness...
... there had been warmth]
...
[she looked down]
I will never understand... you beings with hearts...
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It's okay... I can't understand us sometimes, either...
[ There's a soft giggle here before she sighs quietly. Can you feel her warmth? ]
Besides, I don't really think that understanding the heart's needed, either... just be yourself, and listen to your feelings. That's... what I do...
And I'll be here to help you listen, too...
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... but in the end... it doesn't even matter, you realize...
... this world... this... "community"... it has no story. It's not like the works we come from, or the so-called 'games' our "mundanes" play...
... all of this... it's of no consequence... I can go back... back to the way I was, as if all this never happened...
[she closed her eyes]
I'll forget... you'll forget... and I'll be alone again...
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[ Tsubomi's face darkens into a serious expression as she hugs her. She knows that feeling too well... and it scares her that she might forget, but... she has to try. ]
I don't want to forget... not now, not ever... that's why I won't let myself forget if I can help it.
And even if my mind forgets, my heart will always remember... I truly believe that. That's why... I'll never let you be alone again...
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[the small smile returned]
... I can tell... even if this happened a million times, again and again... you'd be the kind of person to reach out to a soul as wretched as mine...
... even if the story changes... you never will...
[a single tear rolled down Dark Precure's cheek]
... and if someone like me can see this... maybe one day my sister and I... and my father...
[there's no more words, as she brings her hands up, finally to hug Tsubomi back]
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I truly believe that it's possible. For you, Yuri-san and Sabaaku-san...
[ She sniffles a bit; it's hard for her to control herself right now. ]
And I'll be here to support you no matter what. No matter where, when or how, too...