Still in search of a home

[stehtvorgott]

There's no need to rush. Forcing inspiration will only result in you making things more difficult for yourself. Stress doesn't fuel creativity, Mundane, and you wouldn't be reaching your true potential.

Focus on making a decision that you're comfortable with, and I'll cooperate.

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[cunningdoll]

There's also sticking to things like dressing-rooms and museboxes. That's what my mun does, anyway.

[stehtvorgott]

Mm, she knows that... But I believe she wants more than that for me.

[heloise]

Not one that brings you comfort?

[stehtvorgott]

One must be willing to make compromises of their own comforts sometimes.

But I also know that my Mundane is trying very hard to find me the company of a friend... His presence alone would comfort me.

[heloise]

He is important to you then. This friend.

[stehtvorgott]

Yes. He is the only one that matters.

[heloise]

Is he? But just a friend. [ By which she means, not family. ]

[stehtvorgott]

Yes. I would give my life for his happiness. [And he has tried.]

[heloise]

Why him?

[stehtvorgott]

I see his potential. I see how special he is even if he does not. He has been hurt many times and his heart is fragile, and because of that I want to protect him.

[heloise]

And if, he had been hurt and had grown stronger for it, would you seek to protect him still?

[stehtvorgott]

Yes. Even if were different I would still be drawn to him, I know that for sure.

[heloise]

He is most fortunate then to have a friend such as you.

[stehtvorgott]

I can only hope he feels that way also. But even if he doesn't see me as a friend I would like it if he didn't resent our meeting.

[heloise]

The greatest tragedy is in hating those one ought to love. Or so I was told.

[stehtvorgott]

That's a good saying... Mankind seems to be adept at doing just that, unfortunately.

[heloise]

You know this to be true?

[stehtvorgott]

Yes. I've seen mankind fall prey to senseless hate and greed many times, yet sometimes it still surprises me.

[heloise]

It is goodness that should surprise you. Evil is common.

[stehtvorgott]

I like focusing on the possibility of good, but I'm aware of how much evil resides in the world... I'm just always surprised at the new ways man is deceptive and cruel.

[heloise]

There is too little reward in being good.

[stehtvorgott]

It's a shame that most think that.

[heloise]

Will you convince me otherwise?

[pilotedmymother]

That's nice of you, Kowaru-kun. Usually most people fight against their muns. You encouraging yours probably helps a lot.

[stehtvorgott]

Negative words will only lead to negative results, Shinji-kun.

[pilotedmymother]

That makes sense. I'm sure your mun appreciates it.

[stehtvorgott]

I can only hope so.

[A smile.]

How have you been?

[pilotedmymother]

[A shrug.]

I've been...okay. My landing in my game wasn't good but I think I'm okay now. ...Though my mun has a strange idea for an event that is going on in that game right now. I'm not sure how this is going to work out.

[stehtvorgott]

Oh, you were sent somewhere? What's it like? I hope there are people there who will support you...

[pilotedmymother]

It's...interesting. Everyone so far has been really nice. E-Except the giant talking AI but I think he was mad I thought a pilot was inside him.

...The event is making me look for a new family so I should have some supportive people soon. I think.

[stehtvorgott]

I'm glad. I would be worried if you had been thrust into an unsafe place... [Not like he isn't concerned regardless.]

I hope you find good members for your new family.

[pilotedmymother]

I...um...fell into a hole full of dead bodies. It isn't the safest place either.

[Shinji swallows.]

Should I be looking for a new family though? Is that right to do?

[stehtvorgott]

...... I see.

[He holds back another frown at the idea of Shinji having to endure that and instead gives a gentle, encouraging smile.]

It's right if it makes you feel comfortable. You should seek out those who make you feel safe and protected.

[pilotedmymother]

...You're one of the only people who have made me feel that way before.

[stehtvorgott]

I'm relieved to hear that. [Although given some of the circumstances he can't understand how. But he's still glad.]

[pilotedmymother]

I'm glad...

I hope you end up somewhere nice. I know there are nice games out there.

[stehtvorgott]

I would much rather end up somewhere with you, if I could. Then we could make it a nice place together.

[pilotedmymother]

[Shinji's cheeks turn red but he smiles all the same.]

I wouldn't mind that. Maybe if you find a place, my mun can be convinced to send me there too.

I'm...going to this vistor's event at 3step_paradise. It happens next month. Maybe your mun can send you there too?

[stehtvorgott]

That would be nice.

She said she would definitely look into it and bookmark it so she remembers. Thank you.

[pilotedmymother]

You're welcome. I guess now we wait. At least we can talk here, right?

[stehtvorgott]

Yes, we can.

[pilotedmymother]

[Shinji just smiles.]