[When he first met Soubi, he had always thought that he was a bit of a liar, able to say "I love you" and "I'll kill someone" in the same sentence. But Soubi had loved him... hadn't he? No... no, these doubts were brought on by Soubi. He couldn't keep his thoughts clear. A deep breath... then another.]

No... no you're lying. I know you are. You.. are... [Were?]... I accepted you as my fighter. If you thought... I know you don't believe that-

[He flinched at Soubi commenting about how stupid he was. Everything in him tried to fight against that statement. But he, much like Soubi, had a shattered and damaged psyche. Years of abuse started to play in his mind. His mother constantly saying he wasn't Ritsuka, his father doing nothing. He tried not to believe it. He didn't want to believe that Soubi thought him stupid. But why should Soubi be any different from his parents? His parents weren't satisfied with him either. Why would Soubi be any different? Why would Soubi prove that adults he loved could love him back.

No... No he didn't want to believe it. He didn't want this!]