canon is clockwork angel by cassandra clare [voice test]

[tessie]

I think I've been through enough. You know very well what I am referring to. [She gives her Mun a sharp look.] I can sense that you care for my well-being. At least that is what you have led me to believe? I haven't grown close enough to you to tell if you are lying or not.

But even if you are, there isn't much I can do about it, hm? That's why I'd rather appeal to your mercy than argue with you. I know an argument wouldn't get me - or you - anywhere.

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[alec_lightwood]

[In canon, he might not know who Tessa is, but here... Magnus has told him about his old friend who also is part of Alec's family.]

It's good that your mundane is concerne. There's people nearby that are worried about you.

[tessie]

[And at her canon point she is going to be pretty wary of all Lightwoods.]

Who would be worried about me?

[alec_lightwood]

[If what's been implied is true, he looks more like Will and Cecily and ... Well, considering who he's in love with, the most of the old Lightwoods, and some of the current ones, would probably disown him.]

Magnus and Jem. Magnus doesn't say much about you, but when he does, it's... not like when he talks about other people he's known.

[tessie]

[Tessa does her best not to jump to conclusions about others, which is a good trait in this case.]

Magnus? [Seriously?] Jem I could understand. He's so kind. But Magnus barely knows me.

[alec_lightwood]

Later, you'll know each other better. It's confusing. I'm still trying to figure some of it out. He thinks of you as kin and...

[Pausing, Alec realizes that he probably shouldn't say too much about her future even if Magnus probably would.]

I'm related to a Shadowhunter named Will Herondale.

[tessie]

[She arches a brow. Later, hm?] I'm not sure I understand.

You're...related? [That would explain his appearance, at least.] What's your name? I know he has family, but he seems to be avoiding them. I don't know why. I'm not sure anyone does...except for Will of course.

[alec_lightwood]

Sometimes, I don't either, but Magnus is guarded about his past. [Something that will always frustrate him, even if he's trying to learn patience.] The more I ask, the more he pushes me away.

Will is my ancestor's brother. I'm Alexander Gideon Lightwood. Magnus hasn't told me much about Will. He's been a sore point between us for awhile.

[tessie]

You seem to know him well. Are you one of the Nephilim? [She gives a faint sigh.] I know how you feel. I...think I do. Will is the same way.

[Her eyes widen. Ancestor's brother?] Are you trying to tell me that you're from the future?

[And Lightwood?!] Will hates Benedict and Gabriel Lightwood! Are you telling me he's related to them?

[alec_lightwood]

Magnus and I are... [What is the proper term to use while speaking to someone from that era? Boyfriends doesn't sound right even if it's true.] Together. I'm a Shadowhunter from the New York Institute.

[It's strange that Tessa might understand how he feels when he's been desperate to talk to her to help him understand what he might be facing while dating Magnus.] It's frustrating dealing with that... He won't talk. He just makes jokes and makes me feel like I'm a child for wanting to know about his past.

[Which is something he probably shouldn't have mentioned even if it's true. Flushing at the mention of his ancestors, Alec lets out a quiet sigh.]

I'm from the future and I'm related to them. Gideon is my great grandfather. I was named after him.

[No matter how much he tries, he can't help mentally wincing at the inflection before squaring his shoulders. He might be a disappointment to his family but he's still a Lightwood... unless his father disowns him.] There's nothing wrong with my family, Miss Gray. I shouldn't be condemned by what my ancestor did.

[tessie]

Are...? [She blinks slowly and begins to wonder what happened to Camille. But if Alexander is from the future, maybe Magnus and/or Camille has...moved on?] I thought he was with Lady Belcourt. I... [Her cheeks pink as she remembers some very vivid memories from the Vampire.] I shouldn't know if something happens to her.

[Strangely, Tessa is glad for the change in subject.] He really does sound like Will. It's...infuriating. [Yet Will hasn't made her feel like a child.] Everyone keeps telling me that that's just the way he is, but how could he be happy like that? He -

[That tightness in her chest is back again and she knows better than to continue.] I know I'm not a Shadowhunter, so maybe he thinks I will never understand his problems. But he treats Jem the same way...and Charlotte...and Jessamine... [Though she doesn't really blame him where Jessamine is concerned.]

Gideon is...Gabriel's brother? [He isn't someone she has encountered.] I didn't mean any condemnation by what I said. [She flushes in embarrassment.] Will hates Gabriel and Gabriel hates Will. I've seen them fight and Gabriel is...cruel to Will. I'm not sure I understand why they treat one another so poorly.

I can't believe I screwed up the family lines. This is why I shouldn't tag late at night

[alec_lightwood]

Yes, we're... involved. [That is probably a polite way of describing it. His eyes brighten at the admission, his feelings for Magnus obvious, which makes the mention of Camille worse in some ways.] Camille isn't happy over me being with him. She's... told me things. I try not to believe them but they keep...

[Shaking his head, he tries to clear away those thoughts. It won't help any of them if he lingers on them.]

Will sounds like my parabatai. If he is, then being a Shadowhunter isn't part of it. Sometimes, there's so much pain that they don't know how else to deal with it. We learn to forgive them for being like that because it's the only way they know how to be.

It's all right, Miss Gray. I'm not liked among the nephilim. Not the older ones at least. Magnus never told me why they fought. He avoids talking about Will as much as possible.

<3 I've made mistakes before too. It's no big deal. :)

[tessie]

[Tessa clears her throat awkwardly. She hasn't encountered that sort of relationship before - not that she ever considered it impossible.]

I wouldn't expect her to be an easy rival to deal with. [Camille is dangerous. She knows that quite well after assuming her appearance and entering her mind.]

She hasn't tried to hurt you, has she? [She can't help but worry. It's apart of her nature.]

He's not the only one that has experienced pain. Sometimes sharing pain makes it easier to bear. It won't do him any good to keep it bottled up. [Forgive her sudden look of determination. She is rather fond of the boy who gave her her first kiss.]

Why aren't you liked? [Her brow furrows.] I wonder what Will does to him... [Or has done.]

Thank you. I'm still headdesking over it. Why did they both have to have G names XD

[alec_lightwood]

Physically, she hasn't. [But emotionally... Camille destroyed the ideal image of true love that as a nephilim he should have never thought could be true. Magnus was immortal and Alec should have realized what that meant.]

No, he's not, but sometimes they push people away for 'our own good.' Maybe it's a Herondale trait... along with stubbornness and ego.

Nephilim aren't supposed to fall in love with the same gender. It's not forbidden, but it's not accepted. We're supposed to keep it quiet not... [He slowly begins to smile.] Kiss their boyfriends in front of the entire Clave.

If Will's like Jace, he probably finds ways to needle him until he wants to tie him up and throw him in a closet. [A fantasy that Alec has considered many times when dealing with his parabatai]

Because GL are such cool initials? o.o

[tessie]

That's good. [She doesn't sound like she entirely believes that's a nice outcome. Words and actions can hurt far worse than blows.] She's a complicated woman. I wonder if all Vampires are like her.

[Her lips twist wryly.] That I could almost believe. I feel bad for Jem. He has to deal with Will on a daily basis. I'm afraid I would get very angry with Will eventually.

[Like she already has. But why go there?]

It's hard enough to find love as it is - even in the regular world. I can understand if the Nephilim want their members to procreate, but what if...that isn't right for everyone? I don't think you should be accused or ashamed of following your heart.

[As she speaks, her cheeks become redder and redder.]

I wouldn't doubt that. Will does that to everyone...except Jem. For the most part.