re: plans at asgard and 7x15 onward

[smartwinchester]

I can keep it together. It doesn't matter whether or not it's here or at home, I can keep it together. If all it takes is keeping him at bay, then I can do that. It's just an issue of mind over matter. That's it. And I won't let him in, not any more than I already have.

[The slightest of pauses.]

I'm not insane.

Comments

[ofthursday]

Knowing what to avoid would be of benefit.

[smartwinchester]

If all I have to do is... not acknowledge him, then fine. I can do that.

[He really, really, really hopes he can do that.]

He's just -- he's not real.

[ofthursday]

He isn't.

And you must remember that.

[smartwinchester]

I know.

[Pause.]

You guys have to stop me if I ever acknowledge him.

[ofthursday]

If you ever do so around us.

[minifridge]

At least you won't have to face it alone.

[Or something. Brb screaming and hiding.]

[smartwinchester]

[With... half a smile.]

Yeah. There's that.

[minifridge]

You have Dean and Cas.

[And her. Definitely her. But she's kind of skittish about it.]

[smartwinchester]

[Sam is smart enough to not directly include her anyway. It's overwhelming and kind of scary. 8|]

I'll be fine. You don't have to worry.

[minifridge]

[You can say that again. She bites her lip, unsure of what to say and feeling very... young.]

But... I do, though. [Somehow, about this grown stranger.] I can't help it.

[thelightbringer]

Really, Sam? That's your morning affirmation these days?

You're going to break like a twig.

[smartwinchester]

Funny, how you don't have an opinion, because the last I checked, you were still trapped in a cage.

[You aren't real, you sack of shit. 8|]

[thelightbringer]

Mmmnope, last I checked, I was standing next to your rattrap motel bed watching you sleep.

[smartwinchester]

I pity you if that's the height of your entertainment.

[He isn't going to let you get to him goddammit.]

[thelightbringer]

You only say that because you don't remember your dreams. But I do.

"Oh, Lucifer, oh, no, bad Lucifer!"

[smartwinchester]

[His jaw tightens.]

You're nothing but the projection of a nightmare.

Dean and the others won't let me slip.

[thelightbringer]

Sammy, Sammy, Sammy. Sanity isn't a rope they can hold onto. You've been on my Slip-N-Slide for a long time now, and there's no catching you.

[hellrisen]

Somethin' you wanna share with the class, Sammy? I mean, it may not be me me, but it's still me. And I don't like it when you're keeping things from me.

[A pause. Big brother is worried.]

How long's this been going on?

[smartwinchester]

[Pause.]

-- since the Wall was brought down.