Voice testing and potentially headed for Luceti next month!

[kindaqueer]

There's no doubt about it. Natsume is already there, isn't he? If there's something I can do to help him, I want to do it. It's not like I have a choice about whether I go or not anyway, right?

[...]

But why did it have to be this user name...

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[returnthyname]

Tanuma... [He doesn't really want him to go there because of everything he's heard about. The drafts, the shifts, it's not a good place for someone like Tanuma to be.

But.

He's just going to change the subject now.]

That's uh--quite an interesting username...

[kindaqueer]

Natsume...

[But.]

[Why that subject!?]

...a-ah. That's one way of putting it, I guess.

[returnthyname]

[BECAUSE HE HAS NO OTHER SUBJECT TO TURN TO. Sorry Tanuma]

Whatever gave her the idea to make it that?

[kindaqueer]

[A shrug. It's an awkward-sort of shrug.]

Beats me. I think she just ran out of ideas. [...] But I'm not really sure why this one was an option at all.

[returnthyname]

Who knows. [He sighs] I've never really gotten the way our mun's think, though I try not to understand most of the time. It gets confusing.

[kindaqueer]

They seem like a confusing bunch... [He sighs too. And falls silent for a few moments.]

...this place you're at. Luceti... what's it like?

[returnthyname]

[Ah--damn he was hoping to stay away from this subject]

It's... [He isn't quite sure how to describe it. It's not like he's been there that long so it's not like he can speak from years of experience there like a lot of the other people. In a way, it's been nice, with no yokai around to bother him and the people there just accept everyone for who they are, whether they're aliens or whatever.

But then again it's also dangerous, with these third party people and the war everyone is forced to fight in. Not to mention all of the kidnappings and experiments. So everything in the end just kinda balances out with good and bad... the bad kinda outweighing the good.]

...different. [That's the best word he can think of]

[kindaqueer]

Different...? [Kaname didn't like making Natsume talk about things he didn't want to talk about. He didn't want to ask him anything he didn't want to answer. Even now, he has half a mind to drop the topic...]

[...well. Maybe it was for the best. He wouldn't remember this conversation anyway, right?]

...I guess I'll just have to get used to different, then.

[returnthyname]

[He doesn't want Tanuma to get used to different, he doesn't want him to be drafted or maybe hurt by the Malnosso. He wants him to stay safe. If anything were to happen to him... ]

Tanuma, I-- [He pauses briefly to take a deep breath] It isn't all together safe there and if you go I'm worried that..

[kindaqueer]

[It isn't safe... he's trying to make him stay behind again, isn't he? It may not be by choice that he's being brought to Luceti, but if he had the choice, he'd choose to go.]

[Natsume said so himself. It's isn't safe. And that means it isn't safe for Natsume either.]

Natsume. [His voice takes on a more serious tone. Don't lie to him, bro.] ...are you-- is Nyanko-Sensei with you?



[Of course he gets his name right when he isn't around...]

[returnthyname]

[Damn, this entire conversation is not good to have with Tanuma of all people. Telling him not to go because it isn't safe then telling him your body guard isn't there to protect you is pretty much telling him 'please come to Luceti and help me'. Well at least it sounds something like that to him.]

...No. He hasn't arrived yet. [ah-lying would have been a better option in this case] B-But he'll be there soon!

[kindaqueer]

[Yet. Is he really going to come too? Or is Natsume just trying to put his mind at ease? It's hard to tell. Is he lying? He can't tell...]

[But Natsume went through so much. Sensei said so himself, that he's always getting wrapped up in the dealing of youkai, putting himself at risk to help them. He doesn't know the full details... and maybe he never will. But that only strengthens his resolve to help. He didn't want to be a burden. Natsume trusted him enough to tell him his secret. And he doesn't want that to be just another weight on Natsume's shoulders.]

[That's why there isn't a trace of hesitance when he replies:] And so will I.

[returnthyname]

Tanuma...

[Why is he so stubborn? Why doesn't he get that Takashi doesn't want him to be put in harm's way?]

[kindaqueer]

Don't worry. Having two of us there is better than one, right?

[Even if Natsume doesn't see it that way...]

[returnthyname]

[But... he already has his grandmother with him. Not that having two isn't better because having her there has definitely made it easier but just sob. Tanuma y u make this so difficult STAY HOME

Except don't because everyone wants you there. For serious.]

Y-Yeah...