On re-entering towerofanimus...

[akito_sohma]

What have you gotten me into?

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[moarcowbell]

I hate it when that happens.

[akito_sohma]

Its happened to you?

[moarcowbell]

Once upon a time ago. Family came and went but I stayed there.

[akito_sohma]

[Huh.]

That might be more difficult.

[moarcowbell]

If it's you though. They probably won't leave.

[akito_sohma]

[Is he trying to be comforting? She doesn't look convinced.] I can think of only a few that would want to stay.

[moarcowbell]

I'd probably stay.

[akito_sohma]

...why?

[moarcowbell]

Someone's gotta keep you company, why not a dumb cow?

[akito_sohma]

...you're not dumb, Hatsuharu.

[moarcowbell]

[ Suspicious look. ]

[akito_sohma]

You never were dumb. [She shakes her head, frowning at his expression.] I was trying to keep you trapped.

[moarcowbell]

You could have just said "Haru come here" and I would have listened.

[akito_sohma]

That wasn't a good way to...control. [This is difficult.] I wanted my mother to see that I was in control at all times.

[moarcowbell]

....Yeah mothers can be a real drag.

[akito_sohma]

Ren was the one who wanted me to be a boy.

[moarcowbell]

I wonder why. You're you either way.

[akito_sohma]

She...was jealous. She didn't want to share my father with anyone. Especially another female.

[moarcowbell]

Sounds like you had it just as rough as the rest of us.

[akito_sohma]

My father died when I was a child. Before I was born, Ren threatened to end her pregnancy if he and the rest of the Sohmas didn't raise me like a boy. My father was scared, which is why he consented.

After his death, I became the head of the family. I had to control Ren; I was told that I was greater than her because of the bond I shared with the Juunishi.

I...believed it. For a time.

[moarcowbell]

I see...

[akito_sohma]

I was a fool. I was the dumb one, Haru. I knew I was blinding myself to the truth, but I didn't want to let the bond go.

[moarcowbell]

I'm not one to hold a grudge.

[akito_sohma]

Then you're a far better person than I am.

[moarcowbell]

Not really. I'm still a pretty big jerk.

[akito_sohma]

I haven't seen that side of you.

[moarcowbell]

Really?

[akito_sohma]

Your Black side is, more or less, out of your control. You as you are now are quite kind.

[moarcowbell]

That's still a side of me and it's pretty awful.

[akito_sohma]

It can be, yes.

[moarcowbell]

So I can be pretty jerkish.

[akito_sohma]

I still think I have you beat in that category.

[moarcowbell]

[ Shrugs. ]

You sound like you want to change though.