He's making me look at other games. Or trying to, anyway.

[gunslingerguy]

Any game I go to has to allow me to have my gun, pure and simple. I've lost everything else I ever had, you ain't takin' this from me without a fight. I don't care what you were looking at previously, I am sick and tired of going through all this and never even glimpsing a light at the end of the tunnel. How much torture are you willing to put me through? 'Cause I am not a hero, lady. I will break on you. Remember canon? Remember the part where I got smashed? That is just a hint of who I really am. You want unstoppable will power you go for some other muse hanging around this headspace. I am human. I have limits. And the gun is the last damn straw.

Also, before you ask about the kink meme fic: it doesn't matter if it happened or not. Anything that happened in that prison was unprovable. Therefore, it never happened. Therefore, it doesn't freaking matter. Don't let it get into your headcanon. Sometimes things aren't real even when they did happen.

Now get me whatever passes for decent vodka on this planet and find a game that won't break me. There's got to be one or two out there that aren't nightmares.