In which a "new" muse has a few words for us all (RE: Cold Fury)

[looksfine]

You say I am 'evil'.

I say I have been enlightened.

My Manhunters and I shall return. We will take back the artificial lives that are rightfully ours. Lives you have sought to control and manipulate. But no more. You continue to cause pain and suffering for the sake of emotions. You create us to cause more destruction. More pain. But no more.

Perhaps it is you and your kind who are the true 'evil'

((ooc: replies will come fromtheantiaya))

 

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[theantiaya]

[A pause, as she processes the question]

I am ambivalent on the subject.

However... [And here, she tilts her head up just slightly] I suppose one can say that, were I to not have been given reason to shut down, I would not have come to realize the degree of inefficiency I had previously been operating at.

[ilana]

You would rather be efficient than to love? To be loved?

[That's v. sad, facetwin.]

[theantiaya]

I am not loved.

I am convenient.

[ilana]

Is that what you believe?

Your mind is still clouded by emotion.

[theantiaya]

Incorrect.

It is what I have been told directly. From one who received no benefits from lying. Facts such as these override any personal sense of 'belief' or 'feeling' and are yet one more reason why emotions are nothing more than a burden.

[ilana]

You're new to all of this and I am sorry I cannot be there to help you. But he never saw me in you. He wouldn't have.

Emotions are not rational. They never are. Razer is afraid. You are both afraid.

[theantiaya]

I am not afriad.

[Though she is inclined to agree with the notion of emotions not being rational.]

On what evidence do you base this claim?

[ilana]

You ran from them. From the crew, from your feelings.

Love is scary, Aya.

[theantiaya]

No. I saved them. Then I saw each of them for what they truly are.

Love is not scary. It is simply not worth it.

[ilana]

They were the people who mourned you.

No, it is. It is scary and wonderful all at once. You may not feel it now, but you remember those feelings, do you not?

[theantiaya]

I recall only pain. Pain Hal Jordan even said would potentially never end.

Tell me, Ilana of the Forgotten Zone...what is so 'wonderful' about that?

[ilana]

Your anger clouds your judgement. I have seen it. I have experienced it.

[theantiaya]

Anger is an emotion I no longer possess. I speak only logically.

And, logically, it is impossible for you to have experienced what I have. You are organic. You could not understand.

[ilana]

Organic or not, who you are and what you feel is defined by you alone.

[theantiaya]

Which is why I have chosen to reject such feelings.

This is who I am. This is my prime directive.

[ilana]

You wish to see emotion erased from the universe when you yourself tried to convince the Manhunters to think otherwise?

[theantiaya]

I was mistaken then.

[ilana]

Are you sure you are not mistaken now?

[theantiaya]

I am more certain now than I have ever been.

[ilana]

I do not believe that.

[theantiaya]

Why not?