On my, um, preferences while game-searching

[nobler_red]

Dear Autor,

You are not allowed to seek out Herr Rogers - pardon me, 'Captain America' (these alternate universes will never cease to be confusing to me) so you can plop me in a game alongside him. Firstly, he's not even the same man as the one I fought back home. Secondly, it is an unreasonable stretch to try to find both a place that takes AUs and one that has him present. You are making this search unreasonably, fruitlessly hard. I have been blessed to so far avoid him on here; that's something I would like to maintain as long as humanly possible.

On another note, yes, I understand you are nervous about applications. But if you don't fill something out eventually, we are going to be sitting here for a long time. There has to be a point where you just dive in. This waiting period is trying my patience even without the Herr Rogers issue clouding it. Kindly apply me somewhere before the month is out. Yes, I'm just as annoyed as you are that LJ didn't work out. That doesn't mean you should wander about forever.

Danke,

Johann Schmidt

Comments

[lonecoolwoman]

Your counterpart killed Captain Rogers, or that was what I was told by a man we both had called a friend. Stark showed me a mangled body so that I would believe him. Then, he twisted my grief and ideals to make me into a weapon of sorts. I willingly became his lab experiment when he attempted to reproduce the serum.

It had unexpected side effects but I won't complain about them since it allowed me to live to see my captain again.

Your Rogers sounds boring. Everything that made him worthwhile has been stripped away. It is odd, though, that you became the better man when for years I regretted not killing my reality's Shcmidt when I helped Erskine escape. I'm glad that in one world you redeemed yourself.

[nobler_red]

What in God's name...? I work with Stark. He's guilty of hitting the bottle too hard, but the Howard Stark I know would never do anything so vile and twisted. Your universe has not been kind to you, and I can only offer you my sincere condolences.

Herr Rogers is nothing like who he used to be. That much, everyone I know agrees upon. However, I would like to think that I can work hard and keep him from doing too much damage. After all, I've been blessed by God with a second chance. It would be insane to disregard it. And I'm hoping that there might be something of Rogers left in there, for the sake of my world's you. You... did not take it well, when he changed.

[lonecoolwoman]

Howard showed me a mangled corpse. I still don't know what poor soul he killed so I'd believe him. If he could make me believe, then the others would too. I don't know why he did it. Jealousy perhaps or maybe he finally snapped and he thought turning people into weapons was the only way to save the world.

And the things he did to Tony...

Second chances are rare and we should be grateful for them every day. I've been given mine and there's so much to be done, but he's here. [She smiles sadly at the mention of her counterpart, wondering how she would have reacted if Steve had turned into a monster instead of the hero that few had seen him as without the serum.] Did she... did she follow him or fight against him?

[nobler_red]

I can't fathom what would go through Howard's mind to cause that. But I pity anyone who comes into contact with that version of him. I'm almost afraid to know what became of his son in your world, to be honest.

[He gingerly places a comforting hand on her shoulder.] She fought against him. But to see someone she loved fall so hard from grace did a number on her. For what it's worth, I find you tend to be consistantly strong in any universe, despite their pitfalls.