[There's no sense in hiding it, though I'm on edge, ready for this guy to twitch, fire, anything. A lot of people--especially evasive people--don't like cops. Guy like this who calls himself a dockworker could be anything. Drug runner, hitman, or he could just be dicking with me.]
Police force.
Job like that burns you out.
[Not really. I'm old, sure, and maybe everything doesn't work the way it used to, but I'm nowhere near finished.]
You ever think about getting into anything else? Young guy like you must have prospects.
[I'm getting the sense that this is one of those conversations that doesn't have any basis in reality. It's aggravating, but it's also a distraction, and a distraction's just what I need. I need to do is keep my mind off Nancy. I need to keep myself from tearing off and doing something hot-headed. So maybe I can stomach this guy and his slippery answers for a little while longer.]
[Not really. For all his fake answers about his job Vic is just talking to talk. That and this guy looks interesting enough. Blondie wonders how he got as grizzled as he was. There's always a story worth listening to.]
Yeah, you know. I'm not planning on working on a dock the real of my fuckin' life. But it pays the bills until I find something worth doin'.
[He glances back up again.]
I bet you got a lot of stories from your line of work.
I can hear that. Worked as a short-order cook for a time, myself. Nothing I'd recommend to anyone, but you do what you've gotta.
[Stories, sure. But it seems a diminishment to think of them like that, nothing more than columns in newspaper or pages in a book. They were experiences and lives, encounters with the kind of ruin that should never make it into this world but which we keep giving room to thrive. I shrug, a gesture barely perceptible.] I guess I've seen my share, anyway.
[He nods. There's a lit cigarette in his hand now since I completely forgot I mentioned them earlier, and he gives a slight wave in Hartigan's direction.]
One's no better than the next. Just a sad line of never-should've-beens. For every story, at least two or three lives are put to waste. For every thrill, there's an irreversible sorrow.
[I'm bleak about it and maybe a little over-dramatic, but that's where I am, and that's what I know. I've seen too many lives shot to shit over minor arguments. Too many children, women, men just caught in the crossfire.]
[Vic laughs at that. Not a huge guffaw or anything that overdramatic, as his laughter was normally light or at least cheerful. His laugh now is a short sputter of a chuckle. He takes a drag out of his cigarette. Vic didn't have much regard for other people's lives but he laughed more at the fact that Hartigan put such an overdramatic spin on it (at least, to Vic it was) than the fact he brought up people dying.
When he takes the cigarette away from his lips he's still smiling.]
But you were probably a hero in a few of 'em.
[In Vic's experience, most cops had one story they liked to brag about.]
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ps Hartigan kind of wants to jam that straw up Vic's nose yep.
Probably better for you that way. I'm sure L.A.'s got plenty to offer.
yes good vic is a shit anyway
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Beyond that, it depends on what you're looking for. You have any particular interests?
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oh well he casually tosses it to his side and takes a pack of cigarettes out of his jacket pocket]
Seedy restaurants are more my thing, but tar pits sound pretty interesting.
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[What's this guy's game? I'm keeping alert, but I don't have the patience to play for long.]
We got a pretty decent ball team, too.
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Sounds like the seedy shit's a lot more interesting.
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[Try something more direct. Might be more helpful.]
So what do you do with yourself, Vic? What's your line of work?
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I'm a dockworker. [Not really.] You?
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Retired. Got to be too old to be useful.
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Police force.
Job like that burns you out.
[Not really. I'm old, sure, and maybe everything doesn't work the way it used to, but I'm nowhere near finished.]
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[That and it sounded boring.]
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Can't imagine the docks're much better.
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[he's bsing at this point obviously]
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[I'm getting the sense that this is one of those conversations that doesn't have any basis in reality. It's aggravating, but it's also a distraction, and a distraction's just what I need. I need to do is keep my mind off Nancy. I need to keep myself from tearing off and doing something hot-headed. So maybe I can stomach this guy and his slippery answers for a little while longer.]
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Yeah, you know. I'm not planning on working on a dock the real of my fuckin' life. But it pays the bills until I find something worth doin'.
[He glances back up again.]
I bet you got a lot of stories from your line of work.
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[Stories, sure. But it seems a diminishment to think of them like that, nothing more than columns in newspaper or pages in a book. They were experiences and lives, encounters with the kind of ruin that should never make it into this world but which we keep giving room to thrive. I shrug, a gesture barely perceptible.] I guess I've seen my share, anyway.
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since I completely forgot I mentioned them earlier, and he gives a slight wave in Hartigan's direction.]Got any good ones?
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[I'm bleak about it and maybe a little over-dramatic, but that's where I am, and that's what I know. I've seen too many lives shot to shit over minor arguments. Too many children, women, men just caught in the crossfire.]
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When he takes the cigarette away from his lips he's still smiling.]
But you were probably a hero in a few of 'em.
[In Vic's experience, most cops had one story they liked to brag about.]
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Hero's just a word the papers use to make people feel safe and politicians look good.
Anything good I've done, it's a goddamn shame it had to happen.
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Like?
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best tag I ever did (I'm sorry)
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