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[second_last_airbender]

So what? I don't need books right now. Food is a bigger priority.

It doesn't matter. [Her voice shakes as she tries to sustain a flippant tone.] They're just words. They're not real. Not like... [Her attempt at a flippant tone vanishes, and Jinora sinks to a sitting position in her mun's mind.] T-they're not real like my family was. Like Ikki o-or Dad or Meelo... or Mom, I should have protected Mom...

Books are just things I used to try and avoid how I failed all of them. I shouldn't hold onto them. I'll just focus on getting through the day. That's all that matters. Because soon the next Avatar will pop up, and they'll need me. Right? R-right.

...I don't need anything. I'm okay. Really.

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[phantomdanny]

Hey.... Are you okay...? [Lands by you.]

[second_last_airbender]

I'm... holding up. Or trying to.

Are you a spirit?

[phantomdanny]

Uh... I suppose you can say that... If that's what you call ghosts in your home.

[second_last_airbender]

That would explain why your hair's white. In the stories my father used to read me- nevermind.

[phantomdanny]

Huh? Uh.. What's wrong? Is something wrong with your dad?

[second_last_airbender]

...they're all dead. My family.

...

[She tries so hard to keep herself from crying. But it's not working.]

[phantomdanny]

[Well, Danny just feels a huge pile of guilt hit him.]

Hey, sorry. I didn't know... Um... [Scratches his neck before getting a good idea.]

Don't cry. How about I take you flying? [What kid didn't want to go flying? Right?]

[second_last_airbender]

That would just remind me of my family. See, we can - could - I, can control air. It's why Amon thought we were dangerous. 'Abominations', he called us.

[phantomdanny]

Oh... I didn't... [Had Sam been here, he was sure she'd probably comment how he failed bad at making a child feel better.]

I don't think it makes you an abomination at all. Sorry, it was a stupid offer.

[bender_of_gas]

JINORA!

[Meelo's all happy to see her, but he sees her expression, he looks a bit confused.]

Jinora?

[second_last_airbender]

MEELO! [The tightest of hugs.]

[bender_of_gas]

[Happily accepts hugs, but still confused by his sister's distraught behavior. Just looks at her with a puzzled expression.]

[second_last_airbender]

I know you're not the Meelo from my world... but you're still Meelo. Still you.

[bender_of_gas]

You seem to have a lack of lychee juice Jinora, do you want to find some? I'm going to a place where there can be lychee juice trees, and...all sorts of stuff! Are you going in a game?

[second_last_airbender]

Games don't usually take AUs, Meelo.

[bender_of_gas]

Oh.

What's an AU?

[second_last_airbender]

It means we're from the same world, but things turned differently for me than they did for you. Everything you remember is the same up until a point, and then - one of us lived one set of events, one of us lived another.

Think of it like flipping a coin. Sometimes it lands on monkeygoat tails, sometimes it's lionrooster heads.

[noindoorvoice]

Not even a romancy book?

[second_last_airbender]

...IKKI! [Jinora grabs her and holds her close, shaking.] You're okay, you're here, oh spirits, oh, Ikki...

[noindoorvoice]

[Ikki hugs her sister back. Hugs are supposed to make things better and even if she doesn't understand the why of it she can tell when something isn't right.] I'm okay! Were you worried? Were you too worried to read? It's okay if you forgot about romancy books for a little while if you're upset and stuff, Jinora.

[second_last_airbender]

I-Ikki... I was - I'm - [She flounders for how to say it.] I'm from another world. Things happened differently there. I'm not the exact same Jinora you used to know. Do you understand?

[noindoorvoice]

[Staring and staring.] You're taller and older? [And thiner.] Are you an Earthbender like Bolin and Chief Hero?

[second_last_airbender]

No. I'm still your sister. I'm an airbender. I grew up with you. Everything you know is the same, until Amon captured our family, killed Chief Bei Fong... and you, and Mom, and Dad, and Meelo, and I ran and ran, and Amon... Amon got Korra and Mako, later, I wasn't there to help...

I lost you all.

[noindoorvoice]

[Oh, she understands what kind of lost that means. She can't imagine it happening to her but she remembers Amon and the stage. All the stuff that almost happened. Jinora is getting another hug.] I'm okay! Everybody is okay here! So you don't have to be sad or sorry or angry or angry or anything.

[second_last_airbender]

[Jinora runs a hand through Ikki's hair, choking out a half-laugh half-sob.] You're here. But where I'm from, all of you... you're in the next life. I'm so... angry at myself. I should have kept you all safe. I love you so much. You're my sister. You made every day brighter, and I... [Couldn't save her. She clings to Ikki harder, tears streaming down her face.]