[He considers telling her about what would happen soon but he knows it wouldn't make the Suguha in front of him feel any better. So after a moment of deliberation he continues.]
Back then... When mom and dad told me about my biological parents, I started putting distance between us for no real reason. I started to question who I was, and what family was. To me they were people bound together by a long relationship; they knew everything about one another. And me? I didn't even know anything about mine.
[He looks up.]
I suppose that's why I got into VRMMO's in the first place. A false world where people who didn't know anything about each other but still interacted based on the pretense of a game. To me it was perfect; I didn't want to leave those fake worlds.
But when I was trapped in that game of death, SAO, I began to understand that the only difference between the virtual world and this world is that you can switch one off. Essentially they're the same...
[He sounded quite long winded now didn't he? Better get to the point.]
I realized that it didn't matter whether you really knew who someone was. You can only trust and believe in what you see and experience for yourself.
That's why, I was glad to see you again after those two years. I wanted to rebuild the relationship I distanced myself from.
[He looked straight at her.]
I'm so sorry, Sugu. Even after I returned from SAO, I didn't really try to understand what you had been feeling after all this time.
Because... That game hasn't ended for me yet. I can't truly start living until she opens her eyes again. So for now I don't know how to work things out with you.
This is the most talking Kirito will ever do XD sorry for the TL;DR
Back then... When mom and dad told me about my biological parents, I started putting distance between us for no real reason. I started to question who I was, and what family was. To me they were people bound together by a long relationship; they knew everything about one another. And me? I didn't even know anything about mine.
[He looks up.]
I suppose that's why I got into VRMMO's in the first place. A false world where people who didn't know anything about each other but still interacted based on the pretense of a game. To me it was perfect; I didn't want to leave those fake worlds.
But when I was trapped in that game of death, SAO, I began to understand that the only difference between the virtual world and this world is that you can switch one off. Essentially they're the same...
[He sounded quite long winded now didn't he? Better get to the point.]
I realized that it didn't matter whether you really knew who someone was. You can only trust and believe in what you see and experience for yourself.
That's why, I was glad to see you again after those two years. I wanted to rebuild the relationship I distanced myself from.
[He looked straight at her.]
I'm so sorry, Sugu. Even after I returned from SAO, I didn't really try to understand what you had been feeling after all this time.
Because... That game hasn't ended for me yet. I can't truly start living until she opens her eyes again. So for now I don't know how to work things out with you.