dear_mun | (no subject)

Not to mention being shot in the face might not bother some vampires all that much.

[Your answer is written under the message for her mun.]

I haven't met one that wouldn't mind yet, but I guess you're speaking from experience.

[Kiara reads it and grins. No hint of fangs, but then again, she's not hungry.]

Not personally. But I knew someone once that was powerful enough where he probably would've just been pissed and healed up in a day or two.

If he got away before ending up full of holes, you mean? That's quite impressive.

[Her expression darkens for a moment before she shrugs.]

He would've managed. He was always good at turning things to his advantage.

[And she frowns a little.]

That's something you all have in common.

[Enjoy the Look you're getting now.]

I don't manipulate people for the hell of it. I don't like hurting people. I don't even kill them when I need to eat.

[Mildly offended? Yep.]

[She's so accustomed to this kind of reaction that it's not even funny.]

You'll have to excuse me. I don't have a medal for you.

[Her mun warned her about this. It's not like she can make friends with everybody. Is that even what she was trying for? She's not really sure.]

I don't want one. I just don't want to be a monster.

[Yep, avoiding turning into anything resembling her creator is the Best Idea Ever.]

[Why is she having flashbacks? Oh, right. Because she had this conversation before. The frown deepens.]

There's nothing you can do about it.

[Kiara will just stare a moment. Because did she actually read that correctly? Yes. Yes she did. She eyes the other girl narrowly for a few seconds, then sighs, crossing her arms.]

I think I've done a good job so far, but you're entitled to your opinion. All vampires really are that bad where you're from?

[And she stares right back at Kiara.]

It may not be a big deal for you, but drinking people's blood is kind of bad for my standards, yes.

It is a big deal for me. I used to be human, I liked it that way. I never went looking for this. I made a stupid decision on who to spend my time with, and now, well.

[Had she known what Kevin was, she would've run for the hills. Too late now.]

I knew Kevin was bad news, I just didn't know he had fangs.

[She laughs a little, but there's no humor in it. Nothing about that time of her life was funny.]

[That is...unexpected. It doesn't change things in the big picture, but it's almost, well. Sad.]

And you didn't go mad? Things must work in a different way in your world.

No. I just...adapted, after a while. I tried to keep my humanity. I was never as strong as the others, because of that. At least I think that's why.

[It's just a theory, that if she believed she wasn't human she could be as powerful as Kevin, or Alice, but to turn out like them...]

How does it work in yours? People get bitten and they just crack?

They crack if they're given enough time. Bloodlust isn't something they're supposed to know how to handle, after all.

[She stops writing for a moment before resuming.]

It would be nice if we didn't have to deal with that.

[She can't imagine being like that, just completely swept up in it. To be honest, the idea scares the hell out of her. It was bad enough the first few days after she was turned.]

Initially...we don't either. But if we try...

[And she did. So hard. Having Terran around helped, probably more than he realized at the time. Kiara shrugs a little.]

It took a while, but I got it down eventually. Terran too. I'm sorry things aren't easier in your world.

I'm not sorry, actually. I've met a couple of those vampires that managed to handle it. They were quite different from the beasts I usually see.

[The handwriting here may look shaky.]

[She studies the writing and frowns slightly. Now you've got her curious.]

In a good way?

[One could hope.]

[She shakes her head.]

The opposite of that. It made the job a pain, to say the least.

[Well.]

You wouldn't have much of a job where I'm from, there aren't many of us. There used to be Kevin and Alice in addition to me and Terran, but they're dead now.

[The smile that touches her face isn't malicious at all, simply relieved; that after so long she can finally be normal...or as close as she can get to it.]

Though we recently discovered three more that came into being around the same time as Kevin, but we don't think they're threats.

[She won't be positive until they actually meet them, and she's not sure she wants to. Things are good right now.]

[And here she thought this was going to be a depressing conversation. She would laugh now if she could.]

You're awfully optimistic, you know? A vampire who wasn't a threat wouldn't be much of a vampire.

[Kiara will just have to laugh for her, then.]

I've been trying. Besides, I have a lot to be optimistic about these days.

That's true, but we didn't exactly come about like the traditional vampire. It was an accident, with Kevin and the other three, apparently. Science Gone Wrong, if you will. Can't really explain why we can do some stuff that seems pretty supernatural if it's all science.

You can probably blame your writer for that one. Science tends to work in mysterious ways when you're a fictional character.

I blame her for a few things, but yes. Also any time someone brings up the mechanics of how our blood works, she gets queasy and excuses herself.

[Really, how can vampires be one of her mun's favorite subjects but blood makes her sick?]

...I'm Kiara.

[The obvious answer is that writers don't make any sense. Except when they're writing, hopefully.

...also, why are these vampires always so polite? They almost, almost make her feel bad for having almost no manners. (Okay, not really, but the question still stands).]

Sorry to disappoint you, but I don't really have a name.

[And some writers don't make any sense ever. Kiara suspects her mun is one of those. Awe. Kiara was raised with manners, they just stuck around like other bits of her before-life.]

...None at all? Not even a nickname?

[C'mon, even Trowa had a name before he was Trowa. Nanashi meant something, even if it was just 'no-name'.]

What do you go by then?

[A shrug.]

No. I don't usually need to go by something. You can pick a name for me if you want.

[She thinks everybody should have a name to go by, otherwise...but that's just her. She looks mildly surprised at the offer, then bites her lip a bit, thinking.]

Is Megan okay?

[It's not her first choice, but everything else she's thinking of is very Welsh and maybe a bit annoying to pronounce, or write, for that matter.]

[She realizes most people (and vampires, apparently) find it weird, she just...doesn't care about it. It's rare for her to talk with somebody more than once anyway, so why bother.]

If it works for you, it's okay.

Still, you're the one that's getting called by it.

[She's not trying to start an argument, the conversation's been fairly civil and she'd like to keep it that way.]

But Megan it is, then, I guess.

[Kiara smiles faintly.]

You can blame MY writer for that. It's true that I could have gotten at least some nickname. Then again, none of the characters in my story have proper names. We all share the same pain.

[But seriously, there's no need to make such a fuss over names. She nods.]

Why Megan, though?

[You'll get a little snicker at that. Kiara doesn't have a last name yet (if ever) because her writer can't settle on anything she actually likes that fits with her first name.]

One of the meanings is 'strong and capable', so.

[She looks a little embarrassed at this, but that was how the other girl came across to her.]

I got to name two of my kids, but I've been a bit out of practice. The other two already had names when we took them in.