blah blah blah feelings

[174awhile]

Such fleeting confidence... It's fine to reevaluate your portrayal, to let yourself grow as a player. Even if my personality is meant to be set in stone, that should bar no holdings on your attempted grasp of it. You should feel free to explore. That's partially what this whole thing is all about, that creative freedom to interpret things as you see fit. It's not an exact science. And there's no time limit to these kinds of things, either.

You should give it a rest for now, though. We're starting to match, the bruises forming under your eyes... You can't keep trying to be everywhere at once, you're stretching yourself too thin. Compromising quality for quantity isn't your style. Besides, you have other obligations. Other players will understand. They have outside lives, too.

[Sigh.] At least go to bed at a decent hour tonight. I'm sure your co-workers won't appreciate a reprise of the zombie they got stuck with today.

Just, one last thing before you go - these plans you're wanting to make with that Jacob's mun? Not earning you any brownie points.

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line BORROWER! Pardon the mad insecurities, never was all that confident with her xD

[cygnus_dolorus]

[ Like the chiming of jewel-studded golden bells!

Pardon her while she loses focus ever so slightly for a moment or two, his smile is just too dazzling. ]

Think I might stick around anyway, in case you feel like changing your mind.

[ About how she's played, or the numerous other things they have discussed that she would like him to change his mind about.

He is perfect, of course... just also perfectly stubborn. Which she naturally isn't. She's nothing but reasonable! ]

And that sounds like... fun.

[ Well, what is she supposed to say? And it would be fun for her, being around either one of them. Both of them is perfect. Complicated, but perfect. ]

fine have it your way... it's all good, seriously, I'm enjoying her immensely

[174awhile]

[How fancy!

And crooked. Can't forget crooked. He can wait patiently for her to recover herself, though he makes no promises not to be amused by her need to do so.]

Doubtful. But then, I never can get enough of you...

[Wistful sigh. Reasonable. Right. At least neither of them are above compromising. They'd be at an impasse forever otherwise.

Raises an eyebrow. Really? The two of them together, unsupervised, without someone to remind them not to rip each others' throats out? Not that he wants to draw her attention to that fact.]

Does it?

this is good news because Edward is tons of fun

[cygnus_dolorus]

[ Prose must turn a touch purple when describing such impossible, incandescent (crooked) loveliness.

Feel free to be amused, though it might make her a bit huffy if he overdoes it. Not her fault someone looked up "implausibly beautiful" and decided to make a guy based on the findings. ]

I was trying to be tactful.

[ Why would he want to draw her attention to that? Can't think of a single reason. ]

But maybe it'll be better if...

[ If she's not around. Nothing to fight over then. Not that she likes the thought because her and Edward being apart has this tendency to end badly, but still... ]

yeah, he's a real laugh a minute...ahaha...<3

[174awhile]

[Anything less would be blasphemous, truly.

He knows where the blame lies. And he knows if she did get a bit huffy, it would just amuse him further. Her anger is like a kitten's, one that thinks itself a mountain lion. It's entirely too endearing. So he behaves, schooling his features.]

My apologies. I can suffer a temporary lapse in memory, if you'd like.

[Waits all of ten seconds for her to continue before the need to prompt her becomes necessary.]

If...? [She does know that he can't read her mind, right? And that it drives him crazy?]

he is the sole reason this girl is even out again so... feel good about yourself or something xD

[cygnus_dolorus]

[ Damn it, learn the social cue of "no I changed my mind I don't want to say this", sparklepants! ]

If I'm not there. Less for you to fight about.

[ Because naturally they couldn't possibly fight about her when she's not around, what a ridiculous idea. ]

I will go with "or something" for $100 but no ah that does make me have the feels<33

[174awhile]

[You know he never understands you, clumsybutt! Help a fella out.

Deep scowl, voice coming out a growl.]

Hardly.

<333!

[cygnus_dolorus]

[ That... probably shouldn't be sexy, right? ]

You don't know that. Jake's a really nice guy.

;u;

[174awhile]

[ :| ]

Maybe I'm not as nice.

/makes a Bella post and unsubtly tells you about it here

[cygnus_dolorus]

You're the nicest person I know.

[ Look, she can't shake the bias okay? ]

<3 I uh track the twilight tag but yes please tell me about all the things memes etc

[174awhile]

[Heavy sigh full of ancient sadness.] You have too much confidence for me. If Jacob goads me... I might not remember that I want to restrain myself.

You got it!

[cygnus_dolorus]

Someone has to believe in you since you don't.

What if... what if I was there to remind you?

;u;b

[174awhile]

[Shakes his head, looking off to the side.

But then he turns into a statue.]

You don't know what you're saying.

^_^ ?

[cygnus_dolorus]

[ This conversation feels familiar... ]

What's to know?

I want to be with you.

are you trying to kill me also I had to make an icon just for this

[174awhile]

[That's because it is. Just opposite.]

It's complicated, Bella. Haven't you gone through enough to be with me?

I'm here. Stay here with me.

all I want is to love you!

[cygnus_dolorus]

Complicated how?

You don't... want me there?

[ Mun here would like to make absolutely clear that this is Bella being wibbly and not her mun. ]

but you're teasing meee also good to know

[174awhile]

Pick a place. Any one of them has danger that I'm not suited to protect you from, for starters.

[Said as gently as possible.] Not if I can't protect you.

I'm not teasing you, this is actually a legit offer xD

[cygnus_dolorus]

Uh... thoughtformed? That's one of them, right?

God, Edward not this again. You can't always protect me! Not anywhere!

KILLING ME no no no you only app if *you* want to DO NOT LET ME BE AN INFLUENCE

[174awhile]

Never heard of it.

I'm not going to stop trying, Bella.

don't worry I wouldn't consider it if I wasn't interested

[cygnus_dolorus]

Well, there isn't much of that mind control stuff that's so common in other places there. I think.

You can't just... wrap me up in bubble-wrap and put me in the corner like I'm an ornament or something. How can we be together if that's what it's going to be like?

then do you have a plurk? I am PM-ing you

[174awhile]

I don't see how that could be possible. [If by that she means muns calling the shots.]

There are memes and private side lines, where the environments are more controlled... A game isn't the only option.

o7

[cygnus_dolorus]

[ She was more referring to the quite frankly creepy stuff with gods or chips implanted in yor brain or curses... ]

I know it isn't, and if it really bothers you that much I'll stay out of it. I don't want to be some kind of burden.

[174awhile]

[Ah. Yes. That. His stance still...stands.]

Bella... It's not like that. I like being your protector and that will never change. It only bothers me that you'd be signing yourself up for more danger than you're already subjected to.

[It's going to be the Jacob thing all over again, isn't it? Having his intentions backfire, only succeeding in driving a wedge between them. Only this time she's taking herself out of the equation instead of rebelling against the opposition and that scares him.]

What else can I do?

[cygnus_dolorus]

[ As it tends to do. ]

It's okay. You're here, I'm here.

[ They can figure out the rest later. ]

I promise not to rush into anything. Sound fair?