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(She's not remotely buying it, Jack. Why bother auditioning if you don't want it?)

For what it's worth, you were really good.

[You should. True motives will always remain secret. Jake will make sure of that.]

Thanks, but 'really good' wasn't good enough, was it?

(She knows you secretly love it all. Glee club, singing, dancing. That's totally the reason, right?)

I'm sure it's not that. You were great, honestly. But...I mean, you did kind of disappear during the hand jive.

[That's the reason for joining Glee club, the musical? Different story altogether.]

Uh, I had a hard time concentrating. I was having issues.

(She will forever think he was trying to show off for Kitty. For exes, they seemed just a little too close during the audition. Not that she was watching or anything. Nope)

You should have said something. I'm sure they would have given you another shot.

[Showing off for Kitty would be the last thing he'd ever want to do, but he couldn't lie, even to himself, that dancing with her had been fun. It was alright.]

Yeah, because messing up from being jealous really endears me for a second try.

[Shit, did he really just say that out loud? Quick, something to save his ass.]

...Lynn was totally rocking all that. I definitely couldn't keep up with him.

[Well, that was worse. Jake rolled his eyes at himself. Smooth, dude.]

(Well that was....not at all what she was expecting. And to think that, for a second there, she'd wanted to hear more about the jealousy)

Yeah, Ryder's got some really good moves. I guess he's had a lot of practice with those end zone dances of his.

[Jake didn't bother to hold in the snort at the thought of Ryder's end zone dances. Or his dancing at all. Ryder Lynn was good, but not good enough that Jake was really jealous, but now his lie was out there. In the open.]

Yeah, I guess. You were amazing though. You deserved that part. ...I'm really glad you got it.

(It's a sound that has the corners of her lips twitching into a frown. She wasn't the type to put up with people being picked on, but since he hadn't actually said anything... And besides, it's hard to get even remotely upset when he follows up with a compliment)

You really think? Kitty was great and everything, but I really wanted that part. When I was a kid, I'd make my mom play the soundtrack every day.

[Jake cracked a small smile at that.]

Kitty was good, but she lacked the determination you had. You could see that you wanted it more than she did.

[Jake paused, considering her, and adding:]

I bet you knew every word and dance, didn't you?

(Well, she's certainly not going to fight that. It isn't like she's got a whole lot of good things to say about Kitty, after all. Ducking her head, the move is just a little too late to hide the flush creeping across her cheeks)

Like the back of my hand.

[Unable to help himself, Jake reached over, and slid a strand of her hair behind her ear. The action seemed to startle him, and he dropped his hand back to his side, glancing at the ground and not at her.]

You won't need to perfect yourself much at practice then. You'll already be there.

(There was no real visible reaction to the blush (her cheeks might have flamed a bit brighter), just a soft intake of breath before she was cautiously lifting her eyes to look at him)

I don't know if I'd go that far. Did you see Mike? I'm never going to be able to do anything like that.

There's nothing wrong with wanting to be the lead, even if you don't get it. I'm sure your performance was great.

It was acceptable this time.

So no inappropriate outbursts this time?

[Jake considered his answer before shrugging. The first audition went smoothly, the callbacks... not so much. But there had been no flying mic stands this time.]

No, not a one.

Good. I'm sorry you didn't get the lead though. You have a really nice voice.

Thank you? You only heard me sing that one time.

[It was still a new feeling of someone complimenting his voice. The first time Mr. Schuester did it to him still stuck out in his thoughts.]

And you were amazing the one time I heard you sing.

[Jake rolled his eyes and scoffed at the second compliment in a row. Right. How dumb did he look?]

Tell that to the directors of this play. 'Amazing' means nothing here.

Listen, I know all about unappreciative casting directors. I didn't even get a singing role last year and I'm much more talented than you. But what you really need to go after is a solo for Sectionals. The school musical is unimportant compared to that.

And what, audition for one of those and be told how good I am, and then get passed on for someone 'better?' No thanks. I don't need someone else to tell me how awesome I am.

No, you don't. You need to keep telling yourself how awesome you are and keep trying. If you know you're better, you make sure everyone else knows it too.

If they don't give me a chance to, how can I prove it? This Glee Club thing is confusing. The rest of my life is simple compared to this.

[ Well, hello there. Who knew that crappy school had such eye candy?]

Sort of sounds like you're pouting to me.

[Jake shrugged. Maybe he was, maybe he wasn't. It didn't matter since it was a stupid school play, anyway. Because how could they give it to him?]

I have valid reasons to be annoyed over this, but it's stupid, so it doesn't matter.

Edited 2012-11-16 11:43 (UTC)

Said the boy singing the losers song. Let me guess...pretty.. [ Well, it's a pity he doesn't play for his team.] girl?