Just Natsuo and Ritsuka now over at somarium

[in_loveless_memory]

Natsuo and I can get on fine by ourselves.

It's better than that stupid demon alchemist you made my roommate for a few months. I trust Natsuo.

Comments

[markedbeloved]

He's behaving?

[in_loveless_memory]

He misses Youji but yeah, he's behaving. Hasn't hurt anyone at all...

[markedbeloved]

[he wonders if it's okay to touch him... Soubi just wants to cradle him in his warms right now] Ritsuka...

[in_loveless_memory]

[He wants to be hugged.]

Yeah? Are you alright?

[markedbeloved]

[... he moves closer and draws a hand over the others head, bringing him closer still]

No. I miss you.

[in_loveless_memory]

[He holds onto Soubi tightly.]

Mnn... I miss you too.

[markedbeloved]

[Soubi drags Ritsuka with as he sits down, running his fingers through his hair]

I'm sorry Ritsuka.

[in_loveless_memory]

For what, you've not done anything wrong.

[markedbeloved]

I'm not with you. That is not acceptable.

[in_loveless_memory]

You could come... I would be happy if you did.

[markedbeloved]

... it's not that simple, Ritsuka.

[in_loveless_memory]

It never is, it seems. What is it that's stopping you?

[markedbeloved]

You don't need to know. [Soubi holds him close, kissing his ear]

[in_loveless_memory]

[He doesn't really want kisses if all it means is he gets Soubi's comfort only to be reminded it will disappear again. But he's lonely and he's lonely for Soubi. So he does what he does best. He lies.]

It's alright Soubi, I'll be fine! Ne! So pushy!

[markedbeloved]

[he knew you were putting on a front, but that just hurt even more. He loosened his grip]

I shouldn't have come.

[in_loveless_memory]

[he panics when he feels Soubi start to pull away and clings onto him.]

Soubi is always so selfish! He comes and goes whenever! Don't leave!

[markedbeloved]

[Soubi can't help but hod Ritsuka tightly to him, rubbing his arms]

Rituska. [his voice wavered] Ritsuka [and just nuzzles his cheek against the others hair]

[in_loveless_memory]

[He's shaking in Soubi's arms. It isn't fair he doesn't get his fighter.]

[markedbeloved]

[Soubi carefully lifts Ritsuka's chin till they are looking each other in the eyes] I love you. [and he give him a warm kiss on the lips]

[in_loveless_memory]

Ah- [He's being kissed!]

[markedbeloved]

[yes you are. He's going to keep the kiss going too since he doesn't know anything else to do]

[in_loveless_memory]

[He blushes in the kiss. He really should be used to this by now. And to some degree he enjoys it. Ritsuka is the first to pull out of it though.]

Like I said... [He panted, blushing deeply.] Always doing what Soubi wants....

[markedbeloved]

[Soubi nuzzles Ritsuka's cheek] I'd do anything for you if I had the power.

[in_loveless_memory]

But this is something you can't control, Soubi.

[markedbeloved]

No. I am useless to you.

[in_loveless_memory]

You aren't useless, Soubi. Muns are cruel.

[markedbeloved]

Please... allow me to do something for you here and now. Anything.

[in_loveless_memory]

[There's nothing Soubi can do. But saying that will make Soubi fall apart. Ritsuka closes his eyes.]

Will... you just hold me?

[markedbeloved]

[Soubi nods and holds Ritsuka close to his chest.]

[in_loveless_memory]

[He lets Soubi hold him but it feels hollow. Soubi can only hold him here... will only hold him here. And while it isn't Soubi's fault, he feels like there's little point in seeking comfort about it.]