Reserved, the muse thinks this is possibly a mistake.

[jean_grey]

With all due respect, have you thought this through? You're looking to take me from, what I know to be, a very unstable time in my life. I could be dangerous not just to myself but to other people!

You want to send me somewhere without Scott, without the professor with nothing to ground me and keep me in check! If you insist on sending me please rethink the time frame, I don't want to be responsible fore more chaos and destruction than I already have been.

I know it means I am more powerful, but what good is power if there is no way to govern it? Please, don't let me lose on people with the potential to cause destruction like that. Not again.

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[mordredeschain]

Surely 'tis not so bad, sai. I'm told I'll grow powerful enough to end all worlds that be, but I worry naught of it.

And if a half-mad demonling from the wastes o' Thunderclap can stand the thought o' such power, why can't ye?

[jean_grey]

Because I'm just human, mutant..we're not supposed to have this sort of power. I suppose you are accepting your fate with more grace than I am.

[mordredeschain]

No one is supposed to have aught, where I be from. It be a wasteland to beat them all.

But I survive.

[jean_grey]

No one should ever have the power to destroy an entire world.

[mordredeschain]

And yet here we stand.

[jean_grey]

And you don't feel frightened by it?

[mordredeschain]

I've more pressin' concerns, may it do ya fine.

[jean_grey]

I'm glad to hear it then.

[mordredeschain]

Say ye so?

[old_one]

Drem Yol Lok, joor.

Power, suleyk, can only be controlled by those with the willpower to do so.

You must have drem.. patience.

Strengthen your hahdrim, your mind, and the rest will follow. Meditate upon your power, let the thought of it fill your inner self. Contemplate its use and then take control of it.

[jean_grey]

But it is something unto itself, it's not me, it's something more. It so terrified my mentor that he walled it away in my mind.

[old_one]

Krosis. Your particular situation seems.. unusual. A power within you, but not part of you.

However, suleyk, even that which cannot yet be tamed, should not be locked away. It will only fester - a hahdrim ahraan; awaiting a chance to free itself. Your mentor likely did you a disservice.

[jean_grey]

He did what he thought was right, I was a child, I could never have dealt with this.

Now..I just feel I do the world more harm than good just by living.

[old_one]

Who is to say what you could have dealt with? I cannot foresee your dez, your fate, but eventually you will have to confront both this power within and your fear of it.

Draal faak suleyk dreh ni diivon hio.

You are as your creator made you - with this power. Do not fear for the world. Faasselaas. Fear of life is worse than death.

[jean_grey]

My fate was to kill the man I loved, my mentor and to have to ask a man who cared for me to kill me. I know that, it's the cost my life has put on others that I have a problem with.

[no_more_hiding]

I understand your worry, yet I must point out that you are a strong and capable woman. I have nothing but respect for the Professor, but you can stand on your own merits, you can control yourself. I, for one, have always had faith in you.

[jean_grey]

Thank you Hank, but coming from the point that I am...I worry that my control over the Phoenix may to be enough to keep others safe.

[storm_warning]

You're about the last person I know that rains down chaos there, Marvel Girl. [Disbelief: She has it.] 'Sides, there are some heavy hitters hanging around this turtle that could talk you down if something went haywire.

[jean_grey]

[Marvel girl? She hadn't had that nick name tossed around since she was a kid.] Do you really think the Phoenix is going to care? If I slip up...I don't want to hurt people, not again. I'm afraid.

[storm_warning]

Phoenix? [That's way past her pull point, but Jean sounds pretty serious about it.]